Haphazard Thoughts

moving on...

2005-08-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

this is my 56th post in this webpage, and i think it's going to be the last. i'm sticking with livejournal as of this point, and if ever i decide on coming back to blogger, well, i'll tell you. haha.

see, it's just tougher to blog here, with the constant need to log-in and stuff. plus i'm more accustomed to blogging in lj already, so yeah. anyway, i'll still keep this up for archives and for the links part. links reference ko to forever. haha.

I AM OFFICIALLY MOVING TO LIVEJOURNAL. THANK YOU.

-just click the link at the left please :D thanks =)

long time no post eh.

2005-07-30T09:57:00.000+08:00

sorry for not posting here for 3 weeks, or something. haha. that post was rotting already. so i had to make this to make up for it. whee. hi everyone.

i haven't been blogging here because i've been posting my daily blog entries here. livejournal is so much easier to update kasi, in my opinion anyway. i'll be blogging more often in that site, so please visit there if you have the time. thanks :D

anyway, lots of things have happened of course, but mostly schoolwork. after so many longtests that we had to take (which i was lucky enough to get fair grades on), now we face the seemingly never-ending bulk of projects. it's already starting. waah. good luck to all of us.

today is supposed to be the last day of math camp at dlsu, and as you can see, i'm not there. i didn't attend the first session because i was too tired from school, i attended the next 2 sessions, with the second one disappointing me so much because it was so boring, and we had to make a presentation for today =)) wtf. so i didn't attend today for 3 reasons. one, i can't stand waking up early again on a saturday and go to "school" and study the entire day. two, i can't really work well because my sickness is getting worse and worse. and three, i do not want to show up in dlsu not knowing what our presentation is going to be, and not even knowing our color-coded shirts =)) wala lang. pero i wanted steven to buy me the 100% pure lasalle shirt sana, but then he didn't reply last night T_T sayang. ergh.

i finished reading harry potter and the half-blood prince 2 weeks ago. it took me long enough - 13 hours to be exact (unlike some people there who could finish it in 6 hours, ahaha) i loved the book, though the ending was crap. damn it. i'm already looking forward to the next book, because i really want the prince to die =)) or something. malay mo joke lang pala na pinatay si ano, and he's actually still alive. mwahaha. sana =)) me and my radical dreams.

oh yeah, we're having swimming in p.e. already. ahaha =)) i'm starting to love swimming again, even though i still hate the fact that we have to change 2 times in a span of 50 minutes, and the fact that our swimming time is so limited. yeah, so i love swimming nga. i used to take it every summer eh. and even though i'm not that fast, it's still great fun. i'm actually planning to take it again next summer, though that's 8 months away =))

i'm loving my class. go junior e! andaming hirit sa classroom eh. it makes studying a whole lotta easier on you. plus ang raming chichi. ahaha. it's like i know more of the batch right now than i ever knew them my entire life. dati kasi i was restricted to chichi in the honor sec, which was also cool. =)) but now the honor sec people have more freedom in expressing themselves to each other, which is also good. diba? *winks*

political issues haven't gone away, and the sona was last monday. i didn't really grab much from it, apart from the progress our country's making. oh well. and i finished my eco report about it as well. i'm planning to post it into my lj some time this week.

it's been noted that i'm always found in town when it's a friday or a saturday or a sunday. =)) these past few weeks, i've been going to town constantly, of course partly because of my math camp. it's been nice though, as i have watched a lot of movies. or a lot for me, anyway. part of those are "the island", "herbie: fully loaded" (LOL), and err..i seem to have forgotten the rest. basta yun.

anyway, that's it. :D tc all.

happy birthday mark diomampo! bukas pa, but still. :D

taking it one step at a time...

2005-07-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

yep. that's now my attitude towards school. never panic, just take everything thrown at you one at a time. junior year is tough, but manageable. you just have to set your mind to it.

i've been getting good scores on tests, and i'm happy. they're not the best scores in the world, but they're good enough for me. my adviser told me to keep up my grades this year because this and next year would be the basis of colleges for application. yeah, i'm trying my best.

our last basketball session in p.e. was okay. i scored on a 3 pointer, but failed on my other 6 attempts. ergh. pressure. i think i did okay though. david said i would be part of the intrams squad, whoo. i actually had a lot of fun during the game. we won by 3 points i think, and that's cool. i'm not that excited for swimming, since it's basic life saving this year. oh, and i never did like swimming in school for pe. the time allotment is just too little. i wish they made p.e. 2 periods again.

pep rally was held last thursday. normal things happened, things you should expect from a pep rally. i liked the pep squad of course. china falling twice isn't a good thing though. my heart leaped when she was flipped forward and not backward. panic mode. it's great she wasn't hurt. anyway, yun nga. usual things happened. oh, and that little girl was entertaining. haha. nakakatuwa yung dance moves niya while singing eh. and she had voice, in fairness. it's also nice that i saw you there, that lessened stress in my mind.

balancing your activities are neccessary. i don't want to be one of those people who don't have time for anything else aside from studying your ass off. it's just not worth it. i want to be as close to normal as possible. i try to go out as much as time and my body would allow me to. that has been the case every year, and i'm trying to keep it up.

friday, we went to town again. gliza and i toured town for a bit while waiting for the others to arrive. we watched fantastic four. even though the movie wasn't that well constructed, it was entertaining. oh, and having jessica alba in a movie is never bad. ahaha. the rest of the night was spent just traversing many parts of town, while talking about some chichi. mark definitely made the time in rustans entertaining enough. haha.

the class' attitude is making the workload significantly lighter on the mind. their antics are definitely award-winning. ahaha. i wish sir sabilano sings to us once again. para masaya. the different hirits make everything easier on the senses. i doubt anyone is going to disagree with me on that.

i can't believe sir laqui is my textmate. =)) we talked about the taft thing last night while i was eating my crepe in cafe breton. lol. i haven't received word from him whether i could still join next week or not. my parents want me to join, and i admit it is a great opportunity. it's colliding with the release of harry potter next week though. ahaha. so i don't know. HARRY POTTER IS HERE IN 1 WEEK! i can't wait. frequent visits to mugglenet are unavoidable.

i'll be sticking to the tv for the rest of the weekend. i'm really hooked to the f1 race, the world pool championship, and to cnn. the london bombing was really sad. ergh. and of course, philippine politics. it's weird that my ninong is actually speaking on tv about the country's issues. too bad he has no job now.

oh, if you have time and are bored, please read the survey below. thanks :D

100 questions

2005-07-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

got this from michael, denise, pepe, and jam. medyo late na ako noh? ah well.

1. Full Name:
-Juan Leandro Santos Ysmael

2. Nick name:
-Julian, Juls, Lean, Badboy #2 =))

3. Birthday:
-September 14, 1989

4. Place of Birth:
-Quezon City

5. Zodiac Sign:
-Virgo

6. Male or Female:
-Male

7. Course:
-None, not college student yet. Junior @ Zobel

8. School:
-De La Salle Santiago Zobel School

9. Occupation:
-Student

10. Residence:
-Ayala Westgrove Heights, Silang, Cavite

11. Screen Name(s):
jlysport (yahoo), jysmael (msn/hotmail)

12. Hair Color:
-Black

13. Hair Long or Short:
-short i guess. it's longer than before though.

14. Eye Color:
-Black

16. Height:
-5'3"-5'4"

17. Skin Color:
-Kayumanggi

18. Shoe Size:
-10

19. Braces?:
-Yep, sa lower teeth

20. Glasses:
-Nope, but close.

21. Piercings:
-None.

23. Righty or Lefty:
-Righty

24. First kiss:
-My parents

25. First B.F/ G.F.:
-None yet

27. First award?
-If you're talking about medals, computer and foreign language medalist (spanish) when i was graduated grade 7. But if it's any award, then an exemplary conduct award and a first honor certificate.

28. First Sport You Joined?
-I don't remember. Swimming i think. Took it every summer for 3 straight years :D

29. First pet:
-Probably the duckling we bought. I forgot his name, though I think it was "Speedy." Sadly he died after a month.

30. First Vacation:
-Well i was in my mother's womb when she went from the U.S.A. back to the Philippines. Sayang, I could have been an American Citizen =)) Other than that, I don't really know. Probably Cebu or Palawan.

31. First date:
-None, hehe.

32. First Love:
-Several times when i was younger, i thought i was in love. But now I realize I have never had a first love before.

[favorites]

33. Movie:
-Star Wars I-XI, Harry Potter I-III, a lot of other movies. I forgot them though. I loved Armaggedon as well.

34. TV show??
-LOST and FRIENDS

35. Color:
-Blue and Green

36. Band:
-I don't have one. I like the Black Eyed Peas though. Oh, I loved N'SYNC when i was young =))

37. Song:
-Lots. I can't really tell. I'm currently having a LSS on "ass like that" by eminem. =))

38. Food:
-Sinigang na Baboy, KFC Chicken with Mashed potatoes

39. Drink:
-iced tea of any kind, fresh orange juice, mango shake.

40. Candy:
-Maxx =)) Foxes. Any actually.

41. Sport To Play:
-Basketball/badminton/table tennis

42. Sport To Watch:
-Basketball/table tennis (ang galing eh)/tennis/f1/billiards/golf/volleyball/a lot more

43. Brand Of Clothing:
-no idea, not a clothes person. i need help.

44: Boutique/Store:
-does national bookstore count? haha. other than that, powebooks is a place i love to go to. also, olympic world.

46. Animal:
-Cheetahs/whales/hamsters/dogs

47. Book:
-Harry Potter books, Dan Brown books.

48. Magazine:
-I don't read magazines much. TIME is what i read most often, kasi meron sa bahay eh. Count in the Candy magazines my sister leaves around the house i read when I'm bored. Lol.

51. Typing:
-Yup.

52: Online?
-Yes

53. Listening:
-Ja Rule ft. Ashanti - Always on Time. ahaha ang luma noh? nasa playlist eh.

54. Thinking About:
-What to do tomorrow.

55. Want To:
-Blog tonight

56. Watching:
-What I am typing.

57. Wearing:
-Sando, underwear, shorts

58. Want Kids?:
-Yes, very much so.

59. Want to Get Married?:
-Yup. One of my life's goals.

60. Careers in Mind:
-Accountant, Businessman, Lawyer

[choose between...]

67. Cute or Sexy:
-Cute

68. Lips or Eyes:
-Eyes

69. Hugs or Kisses:
-Hugs. I don't get these much. Haha.

70. Short or Tall:
-Shorter than me, not too short.

71. Easy going or serious:
-Easy going, but not too much.

73. Fatty or Skinny:
-balanced

72. Romantic or Spontaneous:
-Both.

74. Sensitive or Loud:
-Both rin.

75. Hook-up or Relationship:
-Relationship of course

76. Sweet or Caring:
-Sweet and caring

77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One:
-I don't like trouble makers nor hesitant people.

78. Kissed a Stranger:
-No way.

79. Drank Alcohol:
-Yes, though in very very minimal amounts. Not a fan of its' taste.

80. Smoked:
-No, and never will.

81. Ran Away From Home:
-Dreamed of doing it when I was young, but no.

82. Broken a Bone:
-No, thankfully.

83. Got an X-ray:
-Yes of course.

84. Broken Someones Heart:
-No, and never will.

85. Broke Up With Someone:
-No.

86. Turned Someone Down:
-Nope.

87. Cried When Someone Died:
-Yes.

88. Cried at school:
-Yes, I was a cry baby when i was younger. Diba Stephen? =))

[do you believe in]

90. Miracles:
-Yup. :)

91. Love At First Sight:
-Nope

92. Ghosts:
-I'm not so sure. There's always that feeling.

93. Aliens:
-Nope, not at the moment. The War of the Worlds flick didn't affect me much.

95. Heaven:
-Yes.

96. Hell:
-Yes.

98. Kiss first date:
-We'll see.

99. Horoscopes:
-I'm not sure.

[answer truthfully]

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Cant Have?
-Hopefully not. Everything and anything's possible right?

the chance to learn and serve

2005-07-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

although it's been tough in school, i'm glad that i have friends to make me hang around in it.

i applied for lsyc last monday, hoping to get a chance to be in it. most of my former classmates are in it, and i would love to be with them as much as possible this school year. the interview went well, i think, and i actually had a lot of fun while in the interview. of course, having them as my interviewers helped. diba? :D it was weird being sandwiched in front of more or less 8-10 people while supplying answers or talking. but anyway, i knew most of them, so it wasn't that scary. thankfully i didn't worry that much, so i think i answered well enough. ahaha. anyway, hopefully, i'll be going to the retreat in 2 weeks time. tama ba michael?

i also have a yfc application form with me right now. i'm doubting that i'm going to join this retreat though. i think i have plans for next week already. anyway, i'll probably just join at a later date, whenever the next retreat would be.

the "monthly" arranged thing in my house was cancelled, because of the soph-c dancers' practice schedule colliding with it. of course, their top priority is the dance, and i wouldn't fight that. after all, what would be better than to see my former classmates dance for one last time together on stage? it would be a great sight. sadly though, i don't think stephen is going to be in the lineup. stephen, i hope you get well soon. as for the monthly thing, i hope we get a date on august that's suitable for a sleepover. i don't think this is going to be possible though, as august and the start of september are pretty much fully booked to homeworks and tests. the most feasible projected date now is after the 1st term finals, which is a long, long way away.

school's been hectic. as usual. but it makes me happy that all my hard work actually results to well...results. it's really a nice feeling when you work your ass off for days and months and see good results from it after all has been done. it's like a driving force that tells you to go on, for whatever you do today will be accounted for in Heaven. hard work reaps rewards. you've got to remember that. anyway, i spent a lot of my time these past few nights trying to finish my art project. art's never been my forte, so it was great just finishing the project. it took me so many hours to finish the thing, and even though it looks utterly disgusting, you could see the hard work put into it. and because of that, i'm happy with my work. it means a lot to me just finishing any art activity. plus, the added fact of me having an insanely painful headache last monday and still being able to finish homework that day is positively uplifting. when there's a will, there's a way! ahaha anlabo.

i don't want to swim in school. well, just not in pe class anyway. if only pe class was 2 periods, and not on a thursday with 50 minutes alloted for each subject. T_T. it really is going to be annoying and boring to have to change and swim just for a few minutes, having to go back to the showers 30 minutes later to catch up for the next subject. argh. i do like swimming, but only if i could spend at least an hour and a half in a pool or beach. ah well, 2 more weeks and it's off to swimming.

honors' convocation is in a week. i'm excited already. in fact, i can't wait.

let me ramble on my favorite issues. wimbeldon was nice, though it's sad that andy roddick lost for the 3rd straight year to federer. argh. hopefully next year, he beats federer in wimbeldon. kawawa naman yung tao eh. ahaha. tiger woods lost again, though he was 2nd AGAIN in the western open. haay. well, on the bright side, at least he's actually finishing in the top 2. diba diba? kimi raikkonen got 2nd place last sunday! yehey. i'm so proud of him. go kimi! lance armstrong has the yellow jersey! celebration! i really hope he wins this year. after all, it is his final tour de france. what a way it would be to end his career by winning his 7th consecutive tour de france crown. that would be an amazing accomplishment. lastly, on the world pool championship. i haven't watched a lot of matches, but i've learned that efren reyes and bustamante are now both eliminated. it's sad. hopefully a filipino wins the tournament, though i'm actually rooting for alex pagulayan. i don't really know where he is right now though, ahaha. sana buhay pa.

that's it. goodbye. =)

the circle of life

2005-07-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

i'm currently buried under severe pressure and stress from homework but what the heck. i have to blog about this. =))

since the last time i blogged, so many things have happened. but i'll only get into the important ones. first of, my sister tried out for gap. yes, gap. i waited for her to finish her tryouts tuesday and thursday. sadly though, when the list was posted, her name wasn't in it. sayang. ah well, i'm sure she'll get lots of chances to dance anyway. plus, she's already a volleyball player.

as i said, i'm buried under homework right now. the 2 making me worried the most are the t.h.e. hw and the art project. see, i'm really bad in art. if there was 1 subject i would want to scrap out of MY curriculum, it would be art. i was never good at it, and it shows in our genes. i couldn't even get my mom or dad to draw me a tree when i was young. nakakatawa nga nung wednesday eh, my classmates were laughing at me kasi daw top 1 ako pero mas maganda pa yung sa kanila. which was actually very true. lol. i loved their armatures, they were great. i don't know what to do now, as i have no wire yet. so i'm scared. perhaps the only consolation i could get is that our teacher is very generous when it comes to grades. just work hard and follow everything she says, and you get a good grade. hopefully that's what happens to me this school year. this is where i miss my hac classmates the most, when i'm put in a difficult situation.

in our english period last friday, we had a quiz. i had a good score, but that's not the point. the week ended in a high note, as sir noy sang. it was great. the class was all rowdy and we were all so noisy. this is what i like about not being in the hac, perhaps the only thing that's keeping me from going insane from schoolwork. they never seem to cease to make you laugh because of their countless hirits. i've been labelled bad boy #2, ahaha. grabe sila sa classroom, putek. i wonder what would have happened to me if i wasn't in the honor's class for 6 years. hmm. anyway, masaya nga yung english, even though we didn't get to do the hot seat part with our cds. oh, my burnt cd had a mixture of tracks that i liked, which up until now i can't decide on what i like the most from. i put in one track i really loved and that made my childhood great. "circle of life" makes me peaceful and serene up until now. it makes me reinkindle my childhood and remember the times i didn't have to worry about school work at all. sure, my grades were lower back then and i didn't really focus on friends (i'm more of a personal type of person), but at least i had fun. the lion king is my favorite cartoon movie of all time, and i don't think it will ever cease to make me happy.

we went to town last friday. after a short dinner at china star (of which i didn't have money to pay), we watched "monster-in-law". i had to borrow money from johann because i really had 0 in my pocket. the no allowance policy which i continue on following is really hurting me. i've been broke for 2 weeks now, and i can't see myself continuing to eat normally for another 4 weeks with no allowance to pay for my phone. anyway, the movie was fine. i wasn't really myself at that time though. after a few more hours, we left.

yesterday was one of the best days of my life. even though i woke up with a slight fever, i was looking forward to the day with eyes that you only see from a little boy opening his birthday gifts. it was our parents' wedding anniversary, and they brought us along with them to celebrate it. ok, so the day started when we got dressed to go to alabang. we got to take home our new chevrolet venture, yay. the people that were supposed to buy our trooper were not that ecstatic about our trooper though. kasi naman, when we said we had the 2002 trooper, i think they expected the car to have a sunroof, which sadly enough, we didn't have. the 2002 sun-roof version wasn't released for 3 months after we bought ours. T_T. so yeah, i'll advertise here. lol. we're selling the car, to anyone who would be interested. =)) anyway, i love the new car. BUCKET SEATS. yehey. we bought go nuts donuts to cap it all off. another thing to celebrate.

after getting the new car, we drove to market! market! to eat lunch and meet our dad. see, our dad had practiced gun shooting in the morning. =)) i still can't believe his stories that he nailed the targets using the armalite and pistols. LOL. anyway, it was an office event, so all his bosses and officemates were there. yeah. so we met him in chowking at lunch time, as i advised all of them not to eat much in preparation for the big dinner. we shopped for a while, (i got to buy a new headset with microphone) and then headed to greenbelt 3 to watch "war of the worlds". after a few minutes of timezone, and getting the last 5 seats together right in front of the theater, we entered. funnily enough, all of their previews were about horror films. =)) one was exceptionally funny. you think it's a comedy movie, and then it suddenly changes into a horror film right on the end. i believe its' title is "red eye". anyway, the movie was okay, as it had great special effects and you were tensed the whole time up until the end. but then i didn't get the ending much, as did most of the crowd. it was based from the novel of h.g. wells, so i imagined myself 100 years ago, and what my mindset about the world would be. i think that the movie is kind of old fashioned, and it's based more on the mentality of people 100 years ago, when we didn't know much about the world. (spoiler: i can't really imagine aliens being that stupid.)

after dinner, finally it was time to eat in circles, or so we thought. when we arrived in shang hotel, the place was fully booked. we had to wait for over an hour just to enter the place. but it was worth it. i saw the chocolate fountain, and ate the chocolate stuff. lol. in the end though, the restaurant won over us. we didn't eat much, as after 1 serving of a plate full of food and a chocolate packed dessert, i couldn't go on. i felt liked puking on the next bite. =)) the waitress even said that we ate too little. haha. circles=1, ysmael family=0. that, my parents said, was their present to me for my accomplishments last year. i was okay with it, as i got what i wanted. (except for the weight, as i gained 3.5 pounds) =)) it was a happy moment, finally being there.

as we came back to the car, we visited music one and i got to persuade my parents to buy a hale cd and a batman and robin dvd. i was really interested in buying the dvd because i didn't remember watching it before and it had huge stars such as alicia silverstone, george clooney, uma thurman, and arnold schwarzenegger. i'm bent on watching it while i'm studying for our filipino and geometry long tests. woohoo. yesterday was great.

ok, so this ends this happy blog. i've just seen the f1 commercial and realized that the race isn't in canada (which i thought it was), and it's actually in great britain T_T. i could watch it later on! yehey. lastly, go andy roddick! lol. hopefully he beats federer later on.

sige goodbye. see you all in school =)

act before it's too late

2005-06-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

yep. this is something i have got to learn to realize. otherwise, my life is screwed. everything i'm doing now with school and with my life is all for nothing. change before it's too late. if you're going to fail, fail knowing that you did your best. DAMN IT JULIAN, DO IT. T_T

school's been tough. i'm so tired right now. i feel so harassed and stressed out. and to think it's just the start of the school year. i'm really looking forward to changing seats, so that i could start fresh, and hopefully be more at peace in my seat. the seating arrangement now is just too hostile (be it fun), and too hard to cope with. pile that up with tons of homework and people scrambling to copy notes and homeworks, and you've got yourself a hellacious-sized headache.

i don't get it. why must the teachers give us so much homework over the weekend? i mean, it would be fair if they didn't give us any homework during the week, but in our current situation, that isn't the case at all. they're giving us tons of homework to accomplish during the only time that we supposedly could, and should be resting. our rest time is being replaced by the same, boring homeworks. if i were them, i'd lessen the workload. we've got the 60 minute periods already, for crying out loud. make us accomplish everything during that time. after all, why dismiss us late? isn't it because they want us to do more in school? and now, it seems that they're giving us more homeworks than ever before. i see this as unfair.

miss vicky's become an angel all of a sudden. i'm not sure why this happened, but according to my ex-classmates, it's because of the period-long discussion between section b and miss. it seems that she's adhered to our demands, and finally adjusted her system to the zobel way of teaching. everything seems to be coming easy now, and nothing is stressed anymore. we're learning from her, finally. it's a miracle in a way. i never thought it could actually happen. thank God. we've actually been able to crack jokes and do all sorts of things during algebra period. just a while ago, laughs were plenty when mondelo changed his name to julius. haha. and then people suddenly became rowdy and sang and danced to "first day funk", which was utterly funny. it's great really, what words and a little patience can do to a person. in the other side of the spectrum, we'll see miss etch tomorrow. i'm really not sure if what we saw last week was actually what we saw, or just a major *ehem*. (diba rodney?) haha. i'm really annoyed with her style of teaching, if you could call it teaching. plus the rule on the other websites is crap. no one ever really follows the rule, and it seems that she isn't actually doing anything to punish us. (unless she has the ultimate recording system, which i doubt she has) anyway, hopefully tomorrow's session isn't as boring as the previous ones. but as my pessimistic mind would want to say, dream on.

lsyc application forms were handed out this morning. yehey. hopefully i'll be a part of the organization. i miss my ex-classmates. joining lsyc would fulfill many of my high school goals. seriously. oh, hope you join :D will there be an honors' convocation this year? i'm crossing my fingers. i hope there is one. it's not that encouraging to me that the year i finally realize one of my life's goals is the year they don't hold the awarding ceremonies. haha. anyway, yeah.

my latest addiction has been "pimp my ride" in mtv. i'm crazy about cars. not about xzibit though. lol. i've downloaded 5 episodes, and it's keeping my feelings upbeat. thank God for the technology of file sharing.

as for the current problem in politics, i've said that there are more problems in this country that we have to worry about. it's not all about a cheating president and jueteng trials. that's just a part of a whole country quickly decimating itself to bits. we've got to act. and we've got to act responsibly. think before you act. if we remove gma from power, then who will replace her? it's not that easy. the masses love characters such as the wife of fpj, or even erap. that's not the solution. i think it's best that we stick with our current president, and for her to do her job. after all, the issue happened a year ago. what's past is past. we've got to worry about what's happening NOW.

excited na ako for next month. whee. sana walang mga deadly projects na makakasagabal sa plans natin. *crosses fingers once again*

fulfill your dreams.

2005-06-25T11:21:00.000+08:00

after another whole week's worth of schoolwork, i can finally rest..a bit.

some unforgettable events. the english monologue was okay, as i got to heal before i did it. unfortunately, i think i panicked while performing and skipped 2 paragraphs of my speech. thankfully, i recovered. oh, and according to sir "i moved too much on stage". well, as bad as that may seem, that's a good step for me. dati kasi parang bato lang ako sa stage eh. odiba. at least ngayon gumagalaw na, be it too drastic. for my effort, i got an 8.2/10. not as good as my other classmates, but good enough for me. i'm not really that type of person anyway. success! we had computer class last thursday. i must say, even if it was boring as hell, we had a bit of fun. you see, miss ech was wearing err..something revealing underneath. basta. sayang paolo didn't take a photograph of her while she was walking. ergh. that was a picture to remember for a long time though. T_T a bit disturbing, but funny nevertheless. our last period with miss algebra for the week was anything but good. she sermoned the so-called "magic 7", which includes almost everyone surrounding me except me and misty. haha. well, she was angry at the whole class i think, reaching her boiling point when she asked kenneth what his name was and ken needing to look at his name patch to figure it out. laftrip actually. grr. i'm beginning to hate math because of her. she dares us to report her and get rid of her. someone might just do that. we had music class yesterday. as usual, me and alvin went to the violin room to be taught by miss ruby. it was however, our first glimpse at sir melvin. hahaha. according to humphrey, mabait naman raw. even if he had that weird name. lol. TOM 2 pa rin! i can't wait for the first orchestra club meeting. i wonder how he'll handle it. club promo's in a week, i think. i'm excited to see soph-c perform! a sort of get-together. it'd be nice to see them perform togther again. i miss soph-c talaga.

we had a talk about studying abroad yesterday. this guy that studied in zobel before has a job in the united states now. he's amazing. i hope to be like him in the future, with the good job at such a young age and all. he fulfilled most of his goals before turning 25. that's what i call determination. i wish i could also do that.

he asked me to have this put up so here it goes. a special mention goes to paolo mondelo for his comedic acts in school and err..yun lang. i remember when i saw you last year in the sophomore night. haha. laftrip. that took guts though. oh, thanks for all the hirits in class, that makes the lessons less boring, though more noisy. hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan yung hirit mo about pontious pilate and of course, your monologue, with the plastic straw and fork. haha. ayan, happy? =))

congratulations to all the medalists last year. lalo na yung ibang swineep halos lahat ng medals sa batch nila. =)) grabe. i'm happy i got what i aimed for a long time ago. i finally proved to my parents that i could be like them, and achieve something i thought was impossible 5 years ago. i'm thankful that i was able to get what i wanted, through hard work and perseverance. i've fulfilled one of my life's goals. even though yeah, highschool has just started, and grades aren't everything, and the real life is still to come, at least, for this moment, i am happy. of course, this doesn't prove anything yet. like the speaker yesterday said, you could be at the bottom of the barrel in hs and still make it big. this is not over, and i must continue. thank you Lord.

we went to town last night to watch batman. i saw johann along the way, and reprimanded him in behalf of the group. kasi naman eh. tsk tsk. anyway, after eating at pancake house for dinner, we did watch batman. it was funny when the sounds suddenly vanished and they had to stop screening for at least 10 minutes to fix the movie. ang daming humirit eh. haha. katie holmes talaga ako forever. i don't know why i liked/like her. ewan. dati i used to tell *ehem* that she looked like katie holmes. ahaha. maybe that's the reason. anyway, batman was okay. it had great special effects, just as gliza and mariel said. it's just like those star wars movies, that when you start from the beginning and continue on to batman returns and batman forever, you'd find yourself discontented at the latter movies because of poorer quality. hahaha.

dreaming about making a chocolate shake isn't good, is it? lol. the dream was cool though, kasi kahit mukhang tae yung shake, masarap daw according to my parents. i've got star wars icons! woohoo! i'm tempted to go to livejournal because of them. ang saya. omg i just saw the "ba barbarians ba ba barbarians" thing in disney channel for the first time. yehey. i'm content now. =))

happy birthday classmate bea! whoo. hope you have a great year ahead. :D

school school school work.

2005-06-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

the past week's been full of school work. it's just been 3 weeks into school and already i'm sick and i find myself struggling to think clearly. it's been hectic, that's for sure. tasks are piling up and little to no rest breaks are offered. then again, there is less pressure in the normal class than there was in the hac before. our algebra teacher certainly isn't making life easy and happy for us.argh. i absolutely despise her. it's been hell everytime we see her. T_T. just the thought of seeing her again tomorrow makes me sick. ack. anyway.

so far i've been performing okay in everything school-related. well, except for that ap mural, which i believe i didn't really focus on. anyway. everything's going a-okay, and i find myself more comfortable in acting and presenting in my section now than in my previous classes. i don't know, maybe it's because i'm not that close with the people in the class. if they laugh and make fun of me, i'm not that affected. it's actually great, in a way. hahaha. i'll be performing first tomorrow in english. i just hope i perform my monologue to the best of my capabilities (and by best, i mean passing) haha.

i've been sick ever since the weekend started. i've been suffering from colds, cough, and fever. it's getting better though. thankfully the Lord healed me just in time for my english op. yehey. it's been tough though, since the last 2 days have had the most bulk of homework put on us. it was a challenging and unique experience i had last sunday, when i had to do all sorts of homework while trying to stay awake and avoid resting. i ended up finishing my homework at 10 pm, using up 11 hours to accomplish all the tasks needed. whoo.

my former classmates came over to my house last saturday, (jam's birthday =)) ) anyway, yeah. so they came early in the morning and left at around 10 pm. the funny thing is, rodney wans't able to go with the rest of my friends. but amazingly, he still came, alone, with his dad. ang galing. hahaha. i'm still shocked that his dad actually agreed to drive him all the way here. anyway, we played table tennis, basketball, billiards, the ps2, we swam, watched movies, and ate. oh, and let's not forget the "ULTIMATE" bonding session we had late at night. to dom and the others who didn't come that should've, sayang. haha. you missed out on a lot. we made fun of star wars VI: return of the jedi and laughed at the difference of yoda in the first 3 movies and the last 3 =)) oh, let's not forget what FRANCIS was excitedly waiting for (background: he didn't watch the 1st 3 movies) he wanted to see the slave girl outfit of princess leia =)) wahahaha. ang galing mo talaga. anyway, so we rewinded played, rewinded, played until we finally succumbed to the call of lunch being ready. ah oo nga pala, i forgot. the MAIN purpose of showing them episode VI was to show them hayden at the end! ang galing kasi eh. diba diba? lol. the star wars 4 disc collection is so great. hahaha. anyway, back to the story. i slowly became sick though, and after playing 3 hours of continous basketball, i became totally sick and rested a while in my parents' room, watching tv and trying to get rid of my colds while my friends got to swim and play with the "mini-boat" and paddles (which they destroyed raw =)) ) ack. haha. the day was fun even though i was sick all throughout it, and almost everyone got sick afterwards. diba johann? =))

--enter sports-addict stuff--
it is a weird week in sports. robert horry showed his clutch-time heroics once again T_T, much to my dismay. why does he always have to destroy the teams i'm rooting for? argh. tiger woods nearly won the u.s. championship, and amazingly, his + 2 score got him 2nd place in the tournament. imagine an even par as a winning score. whoa. but the most amazing fact of all is what happened in formula 1 this past weekend in the united states. only 6 CARS raced! all the michelin-powered teams didn't take part in the race because of safety issues. crap. because of that, ferrari got all their needed points and are now back in the championship race. ang daya talaga. nakakainis. argh. oh, and formula 1 is going to suffer because of that, i am sure. their u.s. fanbase, which is already weak, is surely going to dwindle a whole lot more. haay. lol
--end sports stuff--

oh, let's all pray for the soul of jaime cardinal sin. i heard he died today. he was a good man. he will be greatly missed.

ugh.

2005-06-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

francis kasi ehh. haha. i spent most of the afternoon daydreaming and drifting off to space while in class. i didn't really understand anything sir alfonso said in economics, even though the topic was supposed to be interesting. everything seemed dead, and i couldn't think well. some of my classmates noticed that i was all quiet and still that time, and i couldn't tell them why. it was as if the world had fallen on me and i couldn't move. ah well.

i had a better time after school. definitely. at first i told francis some things that even my own self couldn't believe. after talking with leiron for a while and meeting some people, we wandered around the school grounds just waiting to be picked up. it was at that point that i was relived i was actually going to be able to go to town and probably and possibly forget what had happened the past 3 hours. my mom arrived in school and we were getting ready to go. but thanks to the "powers" of isaw and allie's magical glass thingy =)), i stayed in school. i ended up being left by my mom and brother while i waited for my sister to finish her volleyball practice. so there, i got to talk to jackie, kyle, vicky, den, david, kits, janvit, blah. yeah. at 6:30 i was finally picked up. and by that time, my momentary depression had been quelled.

school was hectic, as usual, and now we've got so much homework to contend with. there's a monologue on tuesday T_T. heck, i hate acting. i can't do it, even if i try. haay. i wonder if i'll pass. hopefully i will. *crosses fingers* there's lots of hw to be done on sunday, as my classmates (sophomore c, haha) are going to my house tomorrow. whee. basketball..again. maybe i could get them to watch the star wars dvds as well, yehey. lol. i'm excited na. plus, there would be unlimited donuts once again! =)) si dom kasi eh, hindi pupunta. haha.

yeah, that's pretty much it. oh, happy birthday jam! in like 2 1/2 hours. haha.

a month from now...

2005-06-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

harry potter 6 is coming out in a month! woohoo! lol. i've been waiting for its' release for a very long time, and finally, in 1 month's time, i'll be able to read the 6th chapter of the series. oh, i got to view this book in powerbooks about witchcraft in harry potter and how it should be banned from the shelves because of wrong teachings about the church. it's weird. i heard that from my tito as well, when i hadn't caught on to all the fuzz surrounding harry potter, about 3 years ago. ah well. anyway, 30 days! woohoo.

school's been giving me headaches already, even though we've barely started on the school year. i fear that this year is going to be a long one. ack. i feel slightly helpless and ashamed about our economics mural. i'm the leader and yet i feel that i didn't contribute much or try to involve my groupmates as much as possible. because of this, we haven't finished the project yet and my other classmates are forced to do it on their own at home. i thank those people who did something with the project and especially those who sacrificed tonight for the sake of it. thank you, thank you. i would never let that happen again. T_T

tomorrow is computer time. oh joy T_T haha. we'll be seeing miss ech-ti-em-el again. i heard that she has a keyboard logger installed in every one of the computer lab 3 computers. wow. haha. so i suggest that everyone who finds a logger in their pc clear out the keystrokes and stuff. invasion of privacy naman eh. anyway.

i watched the star wars bonus dvd over and over again over the weekend. ang saya. whoo. it was funny when i watched "empire of dreams" 3 times in succession =)). carrie fisher is old, and obviously, so are the other 2 main characters. haha. carrie is fatter now, and mark hamill's face is wrecked. sayang. haay. harrison ford is still making movies though. ang galing. i heard there is possibly going to be another indiana jones. i'm wondering who they'll pick as indiana if it's true. it'll be funny if it's still harrison, a 60 year old man doing stunts. cool =)) anyway, ang saya sa "return of the jedi", anakin's place with the hologram changed from the old guy who used to portray the dying darth vader to hayden. ang saya. whoo. plus they added a fade effect para mas maganda shempre. lol.

oh, and i got to watch hitch too. lol. apparently the dvd player that was in my parents' room wasn't playing the new dvds because the player is extremely old T_T. my parents ended up switching the player from downstairs with the old one. yehey. alex brennaman moment nanaman. during english class a while ago, when sir sabilano asked us about characters with which we could relate to in movies, kaboom. he suddenly popped up. obvious? whee.

quizzes are starting to pile up on my scheduler. this is not good. i haven't been getting enough sleep the past few days, and stress has caught up with me once again. the only upside for that is me losing weight all the time due to stress. haha. but that isn't good either. oh well.

i do not like sculpturing. art is just not my thing. T_T damn.

advanced happy birthday to jam :D

ah the things i miss

2005-06-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

i begin this post by saying i DID NOT purposely set up the people in their places in my last blog. lol. it's just that almost everyone's saying i set it up T_T. lalang. anyway.

junior year has been different for many different reasons. first of, the hac is gone. i've constantly blogged about being nervous on this predicament the whole summer, and now, i'm finally experiencing it first-hand. my first day as a junior student was full of emotions, of both negative and positive feelings. when i arrived in school last monday, i quickly realized how different everything really was going to be. it was the most nerve-wracked first day i had to endure in the past 7 years, dating back to grade 4. even though i know my batch very well (i'm talking about the people in it and their personalities), it just feels different when you get to be classmates with them and talk to them daily. anyway, i felt depressed most of my first day in jr-e, and i constantly ranted about my class and how different i felt about it. but as the day ended, it finally got to me that i would have to adapt to the surroundings and so i began appreciating my situation. even better, i found out that all my hard work last year paid off. that made my day turn around completely for the better. it seemed as if all the frustration i had felt over the past 8 hours of school disappeared in an instant.

yeah, so after the highs and lows of my first day in school, everything seemed to stabilize. by that i mean the normal, boring, systematized learning in school. it became apparent to everyone that school was back, and there was no better sign to do this than by the teachers assigning us homeworks that last us all night. yehey. all of a sudden, homeworks are everywhere, projects are starting, and consecutive quizzes are scheduled. ah the life of a student. no more sleeping at 12 am and waking up 12 hours later, relaxed in bed. no more hanging around all day by the computer, or just being lazy all day in one of your friends' houses. oh, it's good that we (my hac classmates) were still together during mornings, breaktimes, and dismissal times. that really makes everything better. i've adjusted to my classmates already, i think. i'm as annoyed as i was with them during the first day. i guess i expected too much from a disciplinary point of view =)). and i've lost weight! but that came at the price of an empty stomach and a possible clash with sickness in the future. you see, i haven't been eating in school. this is so i could lose weight and save money at the same time =)) stupid idea noh? i know. oh well. at leat i've lost 5 pounds in a week. o diba? stres+lack of nutrition = weight loss + sickness ahaha. anyway, all in all, the first week has been okay. i think i could survive the next ten months of school. at least, i hope i could. i would need a lot of inspiration to do that though, and some food =)).

now it's time for the usual complaints and stuff. now, why are they requiring us to wear our id's in school? waah. naman eh. lol. and i still haven't got my id. i want to retake the picture that the school took. i looked uglier than my usual self there. lol. argh. hopefully they don't print the id yet. i need to change the picture there! next, there's the issue of the dismissal time. it's 4:25! aaah nooo. well actually it makes no difference to me since either my sister has these varsity practices that happen until 6 or my mom decides to come and pick us up at 6 T_T. either way it's still going to be me going home late. haha. another problem is the lunch time. even though yeah, i don't eat in school =)), it's still weird that we go to lunch at 1:45. in fact, this friday, the mass was late and we got off to lunch at 2:30 =)) now if it was last year, after lunch, it would've been dismissal time already. nakakatawa. our new teachers are um..well tell me what you think of them after reading this.
english: the teacher's okay. i miss sir viroomal though. haha. it seemed to be more laxed when he was the teacher. plus this new teacher gives us an impromptu speech on our first official meeting =)) freaky. other than that, he seems to be nice.
physics: he's our adviser. some other sections got sir lasap (and i'm envious, lol), but this teacher's alright. he's a bit boring but at least he's kind and all. yeah. i guess. i don't think i'll do well in physics though, i never really liked shapes and vectors and shit. kinakabahan na ako.
filipino: what could i say? of course i'm happy. i mean, it's miss caldo. we already know her, and she's nice. that thing johann told me last year is making me laugh everytime i see her though T_T. hahaha.
algebra: another miss vicky is in our lives. T_T. why is it that all teachers with that name suck? =)) she has a scary smile that she uses all the time. it's worse than the previous algebra teacher (you know who i'm talking about). miss vicky=procedures. ok fine. greaaat. the count is weird rin. it's like we're back to kiddie stuff. haay. i hope i do well in algebra this year, especially because there's no gem anymore. we have to do homeworks na T_T. why did you leave miss alcausin? WHYYYY. naman eh.
geometry: miss patty. patty and vicky oh yes. both came from divine light academy. ang weird. mtg T_T. well at least she's better than the other math teacher. the only problem is the notes thing. she doesn't allow copying while listening. i'm thinking she doesn't believe that we could multi-task T_T haay.
philosophy: sir cortel! whoo. his subject is VERY VERY tough, and i expect to have low grades in his subject and that scares me to death, but i like his voice. =)) nakakatawa eh. anyway, yes. we haven't heard a joke from him yet, ang daya! so far the first few meetings have been good and enriching, even though i'm sure when the tests come, my mind would be swirling around trying to search for answers. i really am not a think-out of the box person. i'm a very precise person, so yes. T_T i figure i'd die trying to think outside the box this year. haha.
economics: formerly known as ap. the teacher's very nice. i like his subject, and his personality definitely makes his subject one of my favorites. rodney, bea, elaine, francis, and the other section c people are lucky to have him as an adviser. i'm looking forward to this subject.
special subjects: pe is alright. i don't want to ballroom dance though. haha. scary shit. t.h.e. is scary as usual, as ms. sison is the one teaching once more. hopefully i could get through this year's cooking. i barely made it through last year. again, thanks to my cooking group last year for doing all the practical work. lol. art is alright, though i'm nervous about sculpting. art is just not my thing. music is fine, at least i'm not in general music. haha. i don't like their teacher. tom version 2 kasi eh. i'm fine with ms. natividad even though i get lower grades than the general class. lastly, computer. LOL. miss ECH-TI-EM-EL and BIH BIH. i really miss sir pats. damn. she doesn't seem to know a lot on her subject. she's too strict rin, kahit na wala kaming pakealam. haha. she's just fun to laugh at, if you know what i mean. again, i really miss sir pats. i don't want a misspel.com anytime soon =))

okay, so that was long. i'll now leave the school topic. lastly though, the mass last friday was great. i like how "kuya joey" does his sermons. it's more interesting that way. haha. go go go. the id joke in the end was err. lol. anyway. oh, sorry dainie! sorry talaga. haha. i do hope the red stain was removed from your jacket. tell me if it wasn't, so i could pay for it. i'm really sorry. johann kasi eh. =)) joke. that really was funny and mean though, what you did to the iced tea =)) i won't forget that moment anytime soon.

we went to town yesterday. my family and i watched mr. and mrs. smith. the movie was great in terms of action sequences, but lacked a good storyline. but anyway, i still give it a good rating. 9/10, just for the action scenes and the compatibility thing. haha. the fight in the house was great. =)) i want a dvd of that soon. but again, kawawa pa rin talaga si jennifer aniston. lol wala lang. oh btw, i got to buy an english translation of el filibusterismo and noli me tangere. the 2 in 1 book in powerbooks costs just 300 pesos. i tried to convince my mom to buy the hardbound ones worth 800 but of course, they declined. haha. at least i have english copies of them now! i'll finally be able to read it faster than 2 minutes per page. haha. my dad finally agreed on us buying the star wars trilogy box set. hooray! i watched the bonus dvd yesterday. ang saya. oh, we bought a dvd of the phantom menace too. the story was stupid, but still. yehey! we have it na rin! haha.

random stuff. today's independence day, the day over a 100 years ago where we got freedom back from spain. it doesn't feel as if it's independence day though, as our country's quickly getting weaker and weaker and the government's under turmoil once again. i even thought that there was another people power today T_T haaay. i have lost all respect for the government, quite honestly. this is exactly the reason why my parents want to leave the country so bad T_T. i hope the country could finally get over this huge hump and prosper once again, but my wish is almost impossible at the moment. lets just hope for the best. we have disney channel already! woohoo! lol. ang saya. now all that's left is etc. hopefully we'll be getting that too. *crosses fingers* tomorrow there's no classes, hooray. i'll be able to meet up with my friends again and play basketball and badminton before school begins..again. T_T. whee. finally, i've had a HAIRCUT!!! nooo! lol. my parents and relatives think it's nice and all, but i have a disturbing feeling that other people wouldn't. scary. it's way different. and the gay hair person put gel on my hair. it feels err...different. hopefully all you guys would not laugh once you see it hahaha. we'll see in 2 days.

belated happy birthday to cj (6), misty (7), mel (9), and isaw (11)! =)

counting down the hours..

2005-06-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

yeah, there are 11 hours left before school starts. no words could explain how i feel right now. give me a word worse than the feeling you get from being the low self-esteem type of person standing in front of a huge audience preparing to give a speech. that might sum it up. in a few hours time, i'll be seeing my new classmates. people that i haven't had a chance to be close with the past 6 years, but have been there the whole time. i don't know why i'm getting nervewracked all of a sudden. it's like i'm more scared of actually meeting my new classmates than my new teachers. right now i'm not feeling any of the pressures of school work. everything in my mind is concentrating on that one moment where you see your new class for the first time. hopefully, that moment would not be a one to forget.

anyway, we went to fran's house yesterday for our last barkada gimmick as classmates. there were 7 of us who attended. basketball was fun. pablo was there, so it was even better. we hadn't seen him for a while so it was a pleasant surprise to see him there. even though my long losing streak in fran's house continued, it was a rather fulfilling experience. thanks again to fran's house for being our sponsor. haha. the dinner was delicious. oh, and we played in the rain with lightning and thunder once again. hopefully these meetings at each other's houses would continue even though we're not classmates anymore. here are some pictures taken after dinner.

btw, martin wasn't in any of the pictures. camera shy daw eh =))

lastly, i got this from pepe's blog. it would be a miracle if i could do a decent job here since i have no time. i have to sleep immediately. so here it goes. by the way, i filled this out randomly, so whatever comes out in the bottom is random. by that i mean, i didn't set the names up =)) lalang.

First, name 20 people you know:
1. Johann
2. Mayee
3. Sam Garcia
4. Chio
5. Asha
6. Bea
7. Mariel
8. Martin
9. Alfred
10.Jackie
11.Rodney
12.Ate Pia
13.Francis
14.Jam
15.Gliza
16.Mark Bitong
17.Stephen
18.Vicky
19.Michael
20.Angge

Then fill this out according to the people you choose...

1. Who is 8 going out with?
lol. hi martin! you're not reading this right? haha. i actually don't know with him. wala raw eh. hehe.

2. Is 9 a boy or a girl?
si alfred? lalaking macho yan.

3. Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple?
rod and mayee? no idea. they're good friends though. haha.

4. How about 18 and 4?
yihee vicky and chio =))

5. What grade is 17 in?
junior.

6. When was the last time you talked to 12?
ate pia? kailan? in real life? kasi kung in real life, i think never =)) hi ate pia! pero kung online, edi kahapon. haha.

7. What is 6's favorite band?
um, i don't know. marami siyang hilig eh. haha. diba?

8. Does 1 have any siblings?
nope. kaya spoiled eh. peace johann! ibabalik ko na sayo yung tekken 5 at dynasty warriors mo. promise.

9. Would you ever date 3?
hi classmate! bang! lol. i don't know. why not?

10. Would you ever date 7?
lol. sure. bakit naman hindi? same as the last question. babae naman sila eh =))

11. Is 16 single?
yihee mark. ewan ko sa kanya. tanungin mo.

12. What is 15's last name?
marasigan.

13. What is 5's middle name?
um, sorry asha. hindi ko alam! =))

14. What is 10's fantasy?
jackie? hindi ko alam. haha. ano nga ba? yihee. nakita namin siya kahapon. haha.

15. Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?
lol. they don't know each other. besides, 19 has a match na eh. diba diba?

16. What school does 20 go to?
zobel.

17. Tell me a random fact about 11:
he loves mechanical things. he's quite the techie. =))

18. And 1:
apparently he doesn't like his ass.

19. Have you ever had a crush on 16?
no way. hi mark! =))

20. Where does 9 live?
near rodney's place. i don't know the name of the village though. haha.

21. What's 4's favorite color?
i don't know. green ata? =))

22. Would you makeout with 14?
LOL. i'd prefer not to answer this one please. next.

23. Are 5 and 6 best friends?
nope, i don't think so. haha.

24. Does 7 like 20?
nope, they're both girls. and they don't even know who each other is.

25. Does 8 like 19?
other way around. both boys. and they're friends =))

26. How did you meet 15?
um..i officially met her in grade 4, when we were first classmates. but i started seeing her in church when i was young. i remember her face. ang cute mo kasi gliza eh =)) LOL.

27. Does 10 have any pets?
um..i don't know. but i know we are both scared of dogs. diba jackie? :D

28. Is 12 older than you?
yup. therefore the word "ate".

29. Is 1 the sexiest person?
i'm sure he would like to think that =))

30. Have you ever given 13 a hug?
hi francis! i think so. it could be in one of our rough basketball games, in one of his bearhugs T_T, or in a celebration of some sort =))

that's it. i have to sleep now haha. see you all in school tomorrow! =) sayonara summer.

last rose of summer...

2005-06-04T11:11:00.000+08:00

summer's ending in 2 days. i still can't believe it. i don't want this summer to end..yet. it feels as though all the activities are just starting now. haha. i never actually finished any of my summer goals. i spent most of the time just playing at home and relaxing. i never got the summer activity i wanted to have. haay. anyway, the fact is, in 2 days time, school starts. i'll be facing a bunch of whole new faces to spend the time with for 10 months. the people i spent 6 years of my life with aren't with me in the same clasroom anymore and that's definitely going to be weird. right now i'm very nervous about that, but hopefully my nerves die away. it's going to be tough adjusting though. whee. anyway, yeah, that's it. school year, here we come, i guess.

we had one of the last gimmicks of the summer yesterday in town. it's really going to be weird that in 2 days, i won't be able to call those people my clasmates anymore. anyway. so we watched "a lot like love". i liked the movie, even though it was another romantic flick that had ashton kutcher there again. haha. i just watched guess who 2 times, then here he is again, in another movie T_T. i guess he's really becoming popular then. the other girl had a resemblance to demi moore. maybe they could have a real life thing going on. haha. after all, demi moore's a bit old and that girl's young-er. =)) labo. there were lots of people in town yesterday. a whole lot. i saw plenty of high school students and even grade schoolers roaming around. it was probably because it was the last friday of the summer coupled with the fact that there was a concert thing in the outdoor activity center. town was packed with students, i tell you. anyway, after the movie, we just spent the time talking in the food court. we took this picture. (btw, i'm the one in the back. lol. mahirap ako makita.)

we played in timezone soon thereafter, and had a few races and stuff. most of them played percussion freaks. mga adik talaga. haha. i bought 23 cds for mark's lost season =)) thanks rodney for accompanying me in cd-r king. damn, those women are really slow. it was really fun to be spending time with nika and gelo yesterday. it's too bad that i probably won't see them for a long period of time. gelo: go to the christmas party in my house ok? =)) anyway, we ate ice monster in the food court, and then walked all the way over to delifrance. after finally persuading johann to buy something so that we could stay and sit inside =)), we were all tempted to buy something. i bought beef lasagna. we spent the time there while our numbers dwindled slowly, and finally, when only the 3 of us (gelo, francis, and me) were left, we went outside. gelo had to go, and francis and i walked around town for about 20-30 minutes i guess. haha. it was really hot outside T_T. we met up with my parents, drank in starbucks, and then we went home. it really was a fun day. i'll miss calling them classmates.

2 nights ago i had another paranoid moment. as usual, i got all depressed and stuff. i got over that that same night though. hopefully i don't get that feeling again anytime soon. it's so sad. i should be thankful of what i have in life, and not like that.

i don't know if this would be the last blog i would make during this summer. but if it is, then all my next posts would be shorter. haha. see you all in school!

here is a quiz i took in quiz farm. isn't it obvious that i'm still obsessed with it? =))

You scored as Sayid. You are Sayid! Although you were a member of the Iraqi National Guard during the Gulf war and tortured people, you are a smart and kind man that can solve any map to try to leave the island.

Sayid

56%

Boone

56%

Shannon

50%

Jack

44%

Kate

44%

Michael

38%

Claire

38%

Charlie

31%

Locke

25%

Sun

25%

Sawyer

19%

Which "Lost" character are you?
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*lastly, happy birthday kat!!! :D seatmate! haha. i miss those days. take care kat =)

that's a whole lotta blood in 3 hours.

2005-06-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

it's pepe's birthday today. happy birthday to him again! so anyway, he celebrated his birthday a while ago in town. of course, i wouldn't be talking about this if i wasn't there. i arrived a bit late because of car problems and some dirty shoe fixing =)), but luckily lunch hadn't started. we ate in gerry's grill for lunch, had sisig, had some laughs. as usual, i became annoyingly quiet T_T. why does that always have to happen to me. anyway, here's a picture. thanks for the photo leiron, and for the enhancement, pepe.

yeah, so after lunch, the girls left and we had no apparent concrete plan. haha. we ended up buying tickets for "sin city". then we went over to timezone as we watched people there play tekken 5 =)). i played basketball while they were watching the "fighters", and then we raced. i won! yehey. after a while there, we decided to watch the movie already. haha. "sin city" was bloody. very bloody. but it was in black and white. haha. what if it had been colored? mas masaya sana! but then it would probably make us puke. haha. i kind of liked the movie because it was funny watching the people get shot so many times and live. =)) parang near immortal na sila. ang galing. after the movie, they went to netopia to play while i just stayed in the food court, waiting for them to finish. i ate ice monster, and saw isaw and sir lasap along the way. i don't think either of them saw me though =)) i decided to go home already while they were still in netopia. haha.

karting tomorrow! yehey. we'll be going to the fort tomorrow to hopefully kart. it all depends on the rain. haha. if it rains, we'll go to market market. yehey. either way, it would be fun. haha. it would really be nice if we could go karting though. i'm so excited.
EDIT forget this part, hindi natuloy eh. =)) sayang talaga.

i'm still addicted to my phone. a while ago i requested that leiron give me the r2-d2 wav tone. ang saya kasi eh! haha. it's so cool. it's now my message alert tone. haha. ang addict ko talaga sa star wars. haha. i've also become a theme addict. up until now, i'm downloading themes from websites. rodney! lol. get a bluetooth thing na kasi eh! so we could both join in the madness =))

sir patigdas and i will finally meet in 5 days time =)) school is closing in, and fast. i personally don't want it to start yet, waah :(( i don't want the long nights of studying to the point of getting so sick, the times when your brain wants to explode while trying to understand the lesson in school. i'm enjoying the current freedom of doing whatever you want, anytime you want. it's just better that way. haha. i'm really anxious. i've been having lots of dreams about the upcoming school year. scary.

gliza's in candy! lol. well, that's what she said a while ago. yehey. congrats gliza! i'm sure they'll give you a prize =)) we've recently played our old ps1 games on our ps2! lol. it's fun. i remember 5 years ago, i thought that those games were so advanced in graphics. but look what 5 years makes. now when we played it again, it looked like some old retro game already =)) ang saya.

i'm currently pigging out on kisses chocolates. ack. somebody stop me. =))

EDIT
i got this from jam. i forgot to put it in. haha. anyway, i'm anakin skywalker! lol. at least hindi si queen amidala diba? =))

You scored as Anakin Skywalker.

Anakin Skywalker

83%

C-3PO

67%

General Grievous

67%

Darth Vader

67%

Obi Wan Kenobi

64%

Chewbacca

56%

R2-D2

53%

Yoda

53%

Mace Windu

50%

Clone Trooper

50%

Padme Amidala

44%

Emperor Palpatine

44%

Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you?
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former classmates...almost

2005-05-31T13:33:00.000+08:00

with 6 days to go before the end of the summer break and the start of the new school year, thoughts keep on popping into my mind about the coming year. the new school year presents a whole new challenge for me. (ah crap i've told you all about this in my posts last march so i'm not going to expound) anyway, 6 days left before my classmates for 6 years aren't my classmates anymore. i can't talk to them every night comparing homeworks and having group studies online =)) ahaha. what's worse is, my barkada's totally split up from each other. lucky for the other people that have some of their closest friends with them, but in my case, there is none. lol. francis, rodney, johann, mark, stephen, chio, martin, dom, michael, jebi, are not with me! lol. i got no boy classmates from the hac except mark salvan. hi mark! haha. owel. hopefully in 6 days time, all will be okay.

yesterday i went to fran's house for a barkada gimmick and basketball meeting. we watched the miami-detroit game, played basketball, played the ps2, watched friends, and the like. it was fun playing with them again, especially when we played basketball in the rain. hahaha. of course, after playing in the rain, i had a headache all night and almost got sick. but hey, at least it has healed now. lol. and it was fun! oh, i need to buy the revenge of the sith game in ps2 asap. nakaka addict shit. haha. we also got to feature our new shoes yesterday. basically everyone was wearing white shoes except for johann. boo! lol joke. i got out of my 8 game losing streak in francis' house - yay! thanks to francis and his family for all the food and stuff whenever we go to your house. haha. parang haven na eh. =))

anyway, i expect to have a full schedule this week since it's the last week of summer. i still can't believe summer's actually ending already. haay. being the obsessive-compulsive freak that i am, i made a schedule. here's a simple overview:
tomorrow: pepe's birthday @ town
thursday: karting in the fort
friday: town again with friends
saturday: fix stuff in bag and everything else that regards school
sunday: spend excessive time in the pc, tv, and ps (last day of doing this the whole day) =))

i watched the miss universe pageant this morning along with the nba western conference finals. i tell you, it's not good switching channels whilst watching both of these. haha. you end up cheering wildly while looking at girls in their underwear =)) and you don't even mean it. haha. lesson learned. anyway, miss canada won. congratulations to her. i still have a crush on miss australia 2004 though. haha. miss philippines won the award of miss photogenic. yehey. she wasn't that pretty, but then it's still a great award. it's too bad she didn't make it into the top 10. i had a fun time watching the top 5 being interviewed. kawawa sila. imagine the pressure put on you. anyway, because of the pressure, everyone pretty much lost their poise. most of their answers didn't make sense anymore. haay. canada was the only one with a good enough answer anyway. so i expected her to win. hopefully one of us wins the pageant soon. that would be great! here are some pictures, hover on them.

i read the article about the new xbox, the xbox 360 in the latest time magazine issue. it has all these great features in it. gahd. i wonder how much this piece of technology costs when it comes out.

oh, the play station also has a new console coming out next year. the ps3 looks great as well. gahd. aaahh!

i can't wait until these 2 companies (sony and microsoft) release their consoles. oh, let's not forget the new nintendo console. though, um..well i'm not really into nintendo so..yeah. anyway, it still doesn't have a concrete name for itself and neither does it have a permanent color scheme yet so..this is just a sample of what it would look like.

*thanks to nintendospin.com, xbox.com, ps3land.com, and bbc.com for the photos.

in the random things section, phoenix won the game T_T. damn. i thought san antonio would close it out today. hopefully phoenix doesn't come back from a near impossible hole. go san antonio! and go miami! haha. i'm still annoyed at what happened in last sunday's formula 1 race. c'mon! that was the last lap. why did that have to happen?! haay. thankfully i won't be able to watch the next 2 grand prix, held in canada and the u.s.a. i have to spend time forgetting what happened in the last race first before i could watch again. haha. lastly, 9:14 is still haunting me. when i woke up this morning, it was 9:14 am. my gahd. what's happening.

Gliza and Chio passed me the musical baton.

1. Total volume of music files on my computer:
* um...3 GB i guess. recently, i've stopped downloading/ripping music, so it actually stopped rising =))
2. The last CD I bought was:
* I have no idea.
3. Five songs I listen to a lot lately, or that mean a lot to me:
* Signs - Snoop Dogg feat. Justin Timberlake
* Don't Phunk with my Heart - Black Eyed Peas
* Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind (yes. hanggang ngayon =)) )
* Star Wars Theme Song (LOL)
* Disney Classics - Volume 2 and Volume 3 (the ones i recovered from downstairs)
Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
* Jam
* Pepe
* Rodney
* Vicky
* anyone who likes to take the thing.

*lastly, happy bday elaine! and advanced happy birthday to pepe. yehey. you're both older than i am. congrats.

indelible thoughts

2005-05-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

the past 2 years have been a blast. i've learned so many things. even though at times i just want to kill myself, the experiences, inspiration, and joy i've felt throughout this span has been absolutely priceless. but now i think the system in my brain has just gone overdrive. these past 3 days, i couldn't help but think of her once at least every 3 minutes. lol. (i just approximated that of course) the thought of her just keeps popping into my head. now the effect of that could be good or bad, in terms of the timing it actually happens. mostly, it's good, but when late night comes, it's a whole different story. you see, this is the time where you contemplate everything that happened during the day, and all kinds of different thoughts keep fiddling with your brain. it's torture, i tell you. haha. last night was the worst. i couldn't sleep for over 2 hours because i couldn't remove her from my head. well, i did, eventually get to sleep. you know how? by thinking of a blog title about it. =)) the problem went with my dream though. T_T. it just won't go away. my dream was bad btw. for me anyway, i don't know for you. =)) (don't ask.)

we went to town yesterday. we basically came there to buy stuff for school. i got to buy leather shoes from hush puppies. (yun lang daw yung affordable sabi ni mommy at daddy) we bought sticker names, bla bla bla. basta un. i saw ramona and some other zobel alumni in the food court while we ate 4 large kfc hot shots. haha. 2 times, brownout struck town. ang galing. we were in the watch shop pa naman. what if there were robbers there? =)) just a thought. anyway, we bought a lot of stuff from the grocery and pcx (lol rodney and asha). i even got to buy a vans shirt. thank god i got a shirt to wear. i think i'm using 5 different shirts over and over again =)) that's how desperate my condition has become when it comes to clothes. i'm just not a fashion person. owel. anyway, on my way out i saw princess (LOL) with her dad but i didn't get to say hi. i never saw rodney or asha either. T_T what a total waste of a day in town.

last night, we went to mass in our village. i got to offer and stuff. yehey. when i arrived home, i found that the f1 qualifying was over. after finally getting the damned internet to work, i found that raikkonen wound up in 2nd place. yehey. i hope the race turns out well later. i'm seriously angry over the whole ym/internet thing. MY YM AND INTERNET HATE ME!!! DAMN IT. I HATE YOU TOO! =)) thankfully whenever my ym doesn't betray me, i've been getting good conversations, and that is keeping me from uninstalling my ym forever. haha. anyway, my internet worked late in the night, as my lost download finally finished downloading. we watched it earlier today. ang saya! haha. last night was also a time for surfing the net, while waiting for the downloads. i basically spent the night reading articles about american idol, in particular about constantine, and clicking away at football/soccer sites, checking out the latest happenings with real madrid. i have to say i enjoyed myself, even if it was just me and the internet. haha. i got to learn a lot.

this morning, i was alarmed when my mom burst into my room. i found out that it was only because we had an early dentist appointment. haha. i lacked sleep once again. haay. haha. anyway, we arrived at the dentist's place late, so we waited in her living room while another patient was being treated. we wound up watching game 3 between phoenix and san antonio. san antonio won! yehey! =)) anyway, for an agonizing 30 minutes, i waited as my dentist fixed my bracket for the 100th time. T_T. it keeps on coming off. well, hopefully after all that, it doesn't come off again. i've been careful ever since she put it back in place. right now my mouth's open so that i don't accidentally bite my bracket off? =)) better be safe i guess.

a while ago we made mango shake! haha. thanks talaga. :D the mango shake was great! yehey. plus we got to test out our new blender and kitchen materials. haha. i still don't know what those materials are called, however. but hey, you don't have to know if you're doing it right anyway =)).

oh, by the way, click here and use an interesting tool in the zobel site. haha. masaya kasi maghanap ng mga teacher eh. haha. thank you to yaps and monique for the link. oh, and my adviser is sir patigdas. is that good or bad? please tell me. haha. to see a list of the junior teachers, please click here. thanks to the soph-c site. =)

*btw, my pet beagle needs a mate =)) anyone up for it? LOL. let this serve as a poster for any female beagle out there =)) maybe after he mates, he'll finally be the angel he ought to be =)) tama ba princess?

on to the topic of threes.

2005-05-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

got this quiz from pepe about 3 or 4 days ago. jam and chio have it too though. i was too preoccupied with face analyzer to do it 2 days ago so..today na lang. haha. the power of threes come alive! (labo.)

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Julian
2. Juan Leandro
3. Jules =)) and a lot more annoying stuff T_T

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. jlysport
2. JuLaiNerz^_^ (in IRC days) =))
3. vortex swirl (my god, what was i thinking T_T)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my brain? =))
2. hands, DEFINITELY =)) i love 'em to death
3. eyelashes?

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. HEIGHT. i wish i was taller.
2. waist
3. thighs

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Filipino
2. Middle East raw. =))
3. American? LOL. sabi nila ehh. si great grandma daw american =))

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. insects/arachnids/anything small that come out of thin air T_T
2. being rejected? =))
3. being alone outside my house with no lights on. damn, that's scary.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. eating!
2. using the cellphone.
3. watching tv.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. underwear, duh
2. my watch
3. sando and shorts (matching naman diba?)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. N'SYNC =)) no, but this was when they were popular and i was a kid =))
2. Usher/Justin (i treat them the same way)
3. Black Eyed Peas?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (current)
1. Signs is stuck in my head.
2. Angels brought me here by Carrie Underwood =))
3. Star Wars Songs (lahat sila)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Understanding
3. Honesty

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I am not scared of my pet Beagle.
2. I hate it when summer ends.
3. I love the NBA.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Smile
2. Body?
3. Aura (wtf =)) )

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Watching TV
2. Chatting online or on the phone (i miss the phone so much)
3. Playing sports with my friends. (this rarely happens =)) )

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Call her.
2. Visit any of my classmates' house and play basketball.
3. Eat the last 4 Go Nuts Donuts I bought. (sibling rivalry =)) )

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. accountant
2. businessman
3. lawyer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. USA. (esp. the disney theme parks and universal studios.)
2. Anywhere in Europe. (actually the whole of Europe if possible)
3. Australia.

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE: (boys/girls)
1. justin
2. (up for debate)
3. (up for debate)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married and have a family.
2. tour the world.
3. fulfill my dreams.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY/GIRL (whichever you believe yourself to be):
1. I want to be very rich.
2. I want to see my dream house coming true and buying my dream cars.
3. I hate shopping for long periods of time. haha.

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Jennifer Aniston
2. Katie Holmes
3. Alicia Silverstone (marami pa actually)

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Rodney
2. Bea? =))
3. Anyone who hasn't taken the quiz yet.

yehey. finished =)) read the blog below rin. haha. pleaseeee. thanks :D

do you believe in stars?

2005-05-27T11:27:00.000+08:00

do you believe in the whole astrology thing? how did the people even come up with such a science like that? by just looking at the positions of stars and planets and stuff? i mean, do they have any real basis as to how to predict all those compatability and luck results? as absurd as it may seem, sometimes, i just can't help but believe in horoscopes and astrology. i mean, when you look at the descriptions of the horoscopes and compare it with a person in the same sign, you couldn't help but make some similarities. like me, i'm a virgo. like the books we read yesterday while going to michael's house said, i am a shy, very organized type of person. i yearn for individuality and peace, not noise in overcrowded surroundings. i like to be stylish when it comes to transport, and i weigh everything up before i make any decision. i mean, it all fits! except for the eating healthy thing =)). and as i looked at my classmates' horoscopes, i found that just as well, they matched up quite similarly to the ones written on the books. how could that be possible? later on, we checked out the compatability horoscopes for the signs, and once again, this caused me to be depressed. why is it that all my previous crushes, (ever since prep) all fall under the same three signs that match up so bad with my own sign? i read and read and all i kept getting was "bad match all around" and "don't even think about it" and "the similarity between these two signs ends at their intellectual understanding". if all the things were true when we read the other book concerning our personalities, then will this thing be true too? tell me, should i believe in horoscopes or not? sometimes i just want to think that horoscopes are bullshit and i could have a great relationship with anyone as long as we set our mind and hearts to it, but these put my mind in a state of unease. help me.

yesterday i went to francis' house in the morning a bit late because of american idol. anyway, to sum it short, i watched carrie win in the morning so i was late. haha. go carrie! i loved her songs. congrats to both the finalists, and to all the final 12 as well. i loved the whole 2-hour show actually, with the simon cowell controversy =)), the top 10 worst auditions and the all-star singing. it was great to watch! anyway, i went out of topic. i bought kfc and go nuts for the trip to michael's house, expecting a BIGGER attendance. however, after the trip to francis' house which consisted of playing sorry, watching friends, eating lunch, and reading the astrology books, we arrived at michael's house with rain following us and only a few people inside to boot. after all the dust settled, the rain stopped falling, we ended up having 11 people in the house, including michael. hahaha. so much for a class affair huh? and only 7 of us were actually from soph-c, so..yes. haha. anyway, swimming was thrown out and poker and cranium sessions were the main events. i joined in only in the practice poker sessions, as i am still trying to get out of the low-cash zone in a safe and secure manner, and not in a risk it all type of game =)) ahaha. anyway, i exchanged phone files from johann's and rodney's files, and wound up with my new message alert tone! yehey, finally. the highlight of the day there for me was the cranium session, which, even though i didn't finish, was very fun indeed. chio and johann were funny =)) ahaha. i didn't know who won, but who cares? lol. bonding pa rin yon. anyway, went to town at 6:20, ate at north park, and went home with siblings and mom.

oh, i got to wear my new shoes yesterday! yehey. but that came at the cost of my foot, which is now bleeding. haha. i don't know why, i think it scraped against something in my shoe T_T. damn. oh well.

mini field trip!!

2005-05-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

lol. yesterday we had our trip to town, as planned. i imagined only me, johann, francis, rodney, alfred, martin, sarah, bea, and jackie to be there, but i thought wrong. haha. it turned out to be a mini-field trip to town, with almost half of the class being there. though we were never really complete in one place, people like gliza, monique, mariel, kat, kristine, michael also came. haha. most of the guys and sarah watched "revenge of the sith" again. it was great, again, yehey. even though some classmates were talking beside me (lol), it was nice to see those lightsaber battles once again. go yoda! =)). it was fun seeing all the new haircuts of people, and how they've changed from the last time we saw them. the chiqs got their free pictures courtesy of canon. it was funny because they were smiling while fighting anakin skywalker =)) ahaha. after that, there was a bonding session in the food court. haha. johann and i had a bluetooth trade marathon, lol. fun. the day in town was great because we got to see each other as classmates again for one of the last times. tomorrow, there'll be another class outing in HB and the chateau. i hope i could come, as well as the girls. come on! lol. chain effect. ELAINE =)).

argh. when i opened my radio yesterday while going to town, i heard "signs", "don't phunk with me", and "candy shop" in succession. as if they weren't overplayed in mtv already. haha. even worse, when we were going home, i opened the radio, and then boom. the same 3 songs played in succession again! lol. the phenomenon of the songs has returned! nooo. ahaha. i wonder how long they keep this up. they've already forced me to download the songs because of the lss. ahh.

lol. i got this face analyzer thing from gliza. you could visit it here. haha. look at my results, they're so funny. but amazingly, what my parents told me are actually consistent with the results. how did that happen??? ang galing. haha.

click on the link to view it in a bigger and readable size. =)) i can't crop it small enough. lol sorry.

FULL VIEW!

the will to live life

2005-05-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

what makes your life lively? would you agree with me that it is the feeling of love? i mean, wouldn't your life be so depressingly boring and dead if love wasn't present in your heart and mind? wouldn't you agree with me that without love, you would accomplish nothing in this world? lol. ang sappy. i thought about the whole love thing when i was at mass, believe it or not. haha =)). anyway, let me explain. i have a very depressing life (well that's what my mind says to me). but i imagined what would happen if i didn't have a lovelife (even if it isn't that good). my world would definitely be very different. i would have never accomplished so much during my first 2 years in high school if it weren't for that. you see, love is an intrical part of every person's lives, admit it or not. be it with a girl you like, or a family member, it is vital to live a good life. (that's what i think anyway) so i'm happy that i have a lovelife, a person to admire every step of my highschool life, because whatever happens in the future, that person will definitely make my life all that more beautiful.

last sunday we went to my lola and lolo's house in quezon city. we did the usual things there, but this time, i found a good way to relieve boredom. as my tito showed me his new collection of pirated dvds =)), i saw a movie that i had wanted to see ever since it came out a few months ago. i never did get to view the movie, as i was too late. many people, including my parents were telling me to watch the movie, as they said that i would see myself in it, and maybe even learn some things in the process of viewing it. HITCH was a funny movie, i must say. i laughed so many times. it was a good way of passing time, and i did, sort of see myself in it =)). tama nga sila. anyway, i also had a back-to-childhood activity that day. right after watching hitch, i went over to my cousins who were playing with a lot of lego blocks. my brother was one of the people who were making guns made out of lego. they used the little orange pieces as ammo =)) nakakatawa sila panoorin na kumukuha sa pocket nila ng "extra ammo" =)). anyway, i decided to join in the building of stuff from lego pieces. i built a "fortress". actually i didn't really know what i was building, i was basically putting stuff on top of each other. haha. but in the end it looked like a fortress, probably because i got so hooked in one mission in ace combat 5 that involved destroying a fortress =)). yeah, so that made me preoccupied until we left lola and lolo's house.

summer's coming to an end and i'm afraid i haven't done anything productive. i bought books that i haven't read, i haven't completed my school materials, i haven't gotten in contact with most of my friends, i haven't gone to some outings i should have been in, and the list goes on. there are a lot of signs that indicate that summer is coming to a close. the weather has been deteriorating as of late, as there is an itcz nearby. rains are falling again, and that could only mean that the rainy season is starting. so with that, i realized that with 2 weeks left, i must really attend every possible thing that i could. hopefully, this is my schedule:
tomorrow: town with friends
thursday: hillsborough with soph-c
friday: town again
monday: beach? ahaha.
wednesday: ek? tama ba? lol.
hopefully matuloy lahat, and that everything goes according to the plan. i will miss the free time and freedom that summer gives. i don't want it to end just yet.

star wars again tomorrow! woohoo! here we come! could someone buy me the whole star wars trilogy on dvd? ahaha. i'll pay for it! =))

livejournal or blogger? or both? haha. it seems everyone's transferring nowadays. it's time to think..again. =)).

kimi raikkonen won! woohoo! go kimi! go kimi! go kimi! ahaha. and there's another race next week! cool. go kimi! go kimi! ahaha. phoenix lost earlier! yehey =)) damn, currently i've gotten a new song to have an lss on. i haven't been watching mtv or listening to the radio for a while, and when i shifted the channel to mtv earlier today, the first thing i saw was snoop dogg and justin timberlake's video "signs". the song's pretty familiar, i think someone sang that before. hmm. ewan. research time. justin's voice is err..high =))

learning fast..

2005-05-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

hey! i'm back from fontana. haha. that was an amazing 3 days.

we watched star wars III: revenge of the sith last thursday night, in greenbelt 3. it was the first time i actually watched a movie there, since my parents don't want to pay for us when we could watch free movies in atc or glorietta anyway. i loved the cinema! haha. anyway, that's not the point. the point is, we watched revenge of the sith! whoo. i loved the movie so much, and the shots were just spectacular. they did an amazing job on the computer graphics/animation. oh, and it wasn't like the last 2 movies where i didn't really feel any emotion from it. it had a whole lot more emotions. it's my favorite star wars movie, quite honestly. that's even if the story was dark and had a sad ending. haha. oh, i had an eating marathon while there too. i think i ate 6 slider burgers =)). i'm hoping to watch the movie again with my classmates and some friends on tuesday. yehey.

anyway, we went to fontana yesterday in the morning. the first highlight of the day was when we ate in kfc for breakfast =)). apparently they have breakfast meals now? lol. but the breakfast meals seem heavier than the normal meals =)). it's egg with chicken and rice, so..boom. that's heavy =)) that made me bloated the whole day. haha. anyway, once there, my dad went off to his team building session while we toured clark. there was nothing much to do there so we just shopped in one of the duty free shops and ended up buying cookies, 2 FINGERBOARDS, and 2 JOLLY COW MILK CARTONS =)). see, my brother told me that that brand of milk was the one they used in cafe breton for the shakes =)) so we bought it. and as for the fingerboards..well, i missed the times when we were crazy kids playing those in school. plus my old fingerboards are missing and destroyed anyway =)). i got the bucky lasek special board. whee. haha. after that, we finally found the karting place that we were having a trouble of finding. haha. that for me was the highlight of the whole fontana trip. it was great! whoo. oh, the picture's in my phone. i'll just post it uh..when i transfer the pic =)). we ended up having so much fun karting that we did it again, later that day. haha. i lapped my dad twice! whoo. i'm so happy. jaren crashed thrice on the day, once while trying to pass my sister =)). poor him. he should really be more careful in those things, haha. anyway, we didn't have time to swim that day so we just stayed at home while waiting for my dad, had a hearty dinner, and went off to sleep.

this morning, we woke up at 8 and went directly to the cafe to eat breakfast. all of us ended up ordering the capampangan breakfast, but this was a certain thing, since we already decided on ordering such the night before, when we saw the menu. haha. the tocino was nice, but i would have preferred a different way of cooking it. nothing beats pampanga's best tocino =)). sadly there was no sisig in the restaurant. oh, i also successfully sent my first ever mms message =)). that's an accomplishment in itself. globe denied me several times before. after breakfast, we finally came to the water park, be it a little late. we found a slightly shaded place to sit and then ran off to swim since we only had 2 hours before check out time. after a few laps in the lazy river, we finally saw the wave pool come to life. we did the wave pool a couple of times, having fun bumping and battling the waves. haha. i missed that place. my parents wouldn't let us go on the slide since they said that the stairs were full of rust T_T. crap. and i was looking forward to trying that since the last time we came to fontana, it was still under construction.
but it was all worth it anyway, since we don't get to get out of the house a lot. haha. that was basically it in fontana. unless you count in the weird dreams i've been having continuing there. T_T there was this part where a non-batchmate actually was in our classroom passing out the checked testpapers to us. oh, and there was this part where our old house's garden turned into a deep swamp, and we had to catch all sorts of creatures, ranging from alligators to mini dinosaurs for our t.h.e. grade with ms. sison =)). we were even required to do a project on them, which no one actually understood.

my lola's sister (basically my other lola) celebrated her 80th birthday a while ago. my cousins were there, along with other relatives and my lola's former co-teachers. (most of my female grandparents were teachers in some public school, they even taught my dad and tito.) we ate there, and shared stories with each other. another bonding session with the relatives. it's good that we're actually conversing more these days, unlike before when we couldn't talk about anything. haha. we even talked about my girl cousin's lovelife, be it a little vague =)). ahaha. (hopefully she isn't reading this post. but if she is, hi patricia! =)) )

in the random things section...
i started playing the sims 2 last thursday, before we left for star wars. i only got an hours' work though, so i accomplished nothing on my created "ayala alabang town". haha. i plan on creating real life characters. anyone interested to be included in the town? =)). carrie and bo are in the top 2! whoo! congrats to them. i would've liked a carrie/vonzell finale though, but it's cool. i hope carrie wins, even if it's such a long shot for that to happen. oh, kimi raikkonen got provisional pole just minutes ago. man, he could really fly! whoo. go kimi! your hard work has finally paid off. the time "9:14" has been haunting me lately. i don't know if it's just my mind or whatever, but everytime i look at my clock or watch or phone, it always seems to be 9:14 at least once a day. i always seem to glance upon that number. i wonder why. does it have anything to do with anything at all? haha. well, it's also my birthday, september 14. but other than that, i don't see any connection. *play the twilight zone music* =)) jam has a new blogsite here. change your links if you've linked her =)) she's another one who's shifted to lj. more and more people i know have gone there. bakit kaya? haha. i'm starting to have doubts about blogger too, since the expandable post pages and private posts features aren't available in blogger. T_T ack. i don't know. lastly, it's nice to know other people actually read my blogs. even if they don't really know me, they still care to read it. thanks to those people. =) i really appreciate it. well then, that's it. goodbye! sorry it's long. (to those who are annoyed, i'm sure there are a lot, haha) i probably won't get a lot of comments, but hey, this is my blog anyway. sorry. tc all. =)

mission..accomplished?

2005-05-19T10:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday I finally started doing my so-called "summer chores". i finished all my tasks in a relatively short time of 5 hours, compared to my sister's and brother's chores that took all summer to do. =)). i'm so bad. i finished labelling all the unknown cds lying around the house (there are lots of em), and got to listen to some of my previously burned audio cds in the process. =)) (i wondered where those were, haha) i also got to do the "ever-so-hard" job of writing all the files and pictures in our computer to different cds for backup. (this also works for those classmates who want to erase their pictures on my computer, mwahahaha.) anyway, so i did that early in the afternoon. after a little break while watching american idol, i continued with my work. i was assigned the task of labelling all the videotapes that we took using the videocam. in less than 3 hours, while getting to view and watch our vacations, the orchestra's concert, and the interbatch competition, i finished my "HARD" tasks. lol. now i'm awaiting my "prize", which hopefully is 1000 bucks =)). yehey. so mission accomplished! well, for that part anyway.

school is just around the corner and i can't help but feel sad. i love every summer that comes along, even if i don't leave the house too often, because it's the only time for me to relax my brain, sleep, and play all day. ever since i was young, summer has been the time where i get to see and use a lot of things in my house i haven't seen or used in a year's time because of the busy tasks in school. as you might already know, i'm very, very stressed when it's school time, because i easily panic and get pessimistic about things. haha. while when it's summer, i don't have any problems to deal with, and i'm usually more at peace. so pimples, headaches, and the like go away. basically, i'm happier when i'm at home. haha. and now, with just 18 days to go until school starts, i'm starting to feel uneasy again. i'm losing my freedom from work, and at the same time, i realize that for the first time in 7 years, i will see different faces once i step into the classroom. it's a completely different feeling. lets not get away from the fact that i only have my books right now, NO NOTEBOOKS. (i don't know if we should buy notebooks or not, it's not in the freaking list =)) ). sorry, hindi ko talaga alam. haha. so i only have books, a bag, and uniforms that might not fit me anymore (i am definitely heavier now). i have no shoes, no notebooks, and no brain power. haha. this year is definitely going to be a unique one, and i just hope that by the time it starts, i'm ready.

my dad was on leave from monday-wednesday. he finally took a break from work. gahd. he's too much of a workaholic (spl), if you ask me. i don't think i'll be that rigorous with work when i start working. you see, he accepts extra jobs that have no extra pay. T_T. he has enough to deal with already, and his boss assigns him with all these extra tasks with no incentive whatsoever. owel. he's having a hard time handling these and balancing his time. hopefully, the ayala hotels get sold to other companies already so his "temporary extra work" would be over. anyway, finally he took a break. by break, that means staying at home while using the laptop to email and using his phone constantly to contact his officemates =)). but we did, get some time together. we went to alabang country club and atc last tuesday, buying things that we needed. we ate in acc (it was the first time we got to see the new eating place because we hadn't gone there for a while), viewed ica school again T_T (i don't know why they're trying to buy that place), and stayed in town until we watched a movie with my mom when she came from work. the other times, my dad spent his time just sleeping at home. thank god he got some rest.

oh, hopefully we'll get to go to fontana on friday. my dad has this company outing thing there, and maybe he could get us to join, yehey. i haven't been there in 2 years so it'll be fun. plus, i'll get to swim again! haha. and maybe even do karting. wait, friday's tomorrow na pala. haha. anyway, i posted some pictures of my trip to boracay and ek already, you could view them by clicking on my multiply link there on the sidebar. they're not complete yet though, as i'm too lazy to upload pictures. i'll try to finish that later though. =)

we'll be going to the dentist again later this afternoon, so i won't get to watch american idol. haha. i really hope carrie doesn't go out though, i really liked her performances yesterday. would anyone be kind enough to tell me the results later? anyway, after the dentist, we'll be going to my mom's office until she finishes work. then finally, we'll go to greenbelt to watch star wars! woohoo. =)). my countdown's finally complete! hooray! i even watched again star wars 4: a new hope last night just so i could connect 3 to 4 tonight. haha. i'm addicted to it once again. aww. it always happens.

i finally got my phone some images, themes, games, and the like. i used my dad's usb card reader to transfer them from computer to phone and vice versa for backup. thank god i found a way =)) i thought before that the mmc card wouldn't fit in the card reader so i never tried it until this monday. so now, i'm happy. haha. of course, there was a temporary setback when my sounds folder wouldn't work, as i think i did something to damage the folders. lol. but after a few tweaks, i got it working again. yay. oh, we have sims 2 already! woohoo. after writing this entry will be my first time playing though, as my brother has been hogging it since yesterday. it is his birthday gift though, so i can't really complain now, can i? haha. but anyway, it's time to create my very own teen julian and his friends =)).

oh, i think one of our household helpers is going. weird. i don't know why, but our "main helper" kept on telling us that the other one was leaving today. to quote her "iiwanan na kayo ni ***-***, wala namang tatagal sa inyo eh". T_T. whatever. if you only knew the url of my other site, you'd see my feelings towards them. but i haven't done anything to them anyway, to make them angry, so why must they always scold us T_T. maybe it's their way of getting back at my parents? weird. i just hope that the helper leaving us isn't going to steal any of our possessions. haha.

want to know more about me?

2005-05-15T18:43:00.000+08:00

i've been planning to answer this thing for a while now, and now i finally get time to do this. got this from jam's and pepe's blogs. apparently, it came from joe =)). so anyway, here it goes:

TEN Random Things About Me
10- i am obsessive-compulsive.
09- i am extremely pessimistic.
08- i love watching reality shows, sitcoms, and different kinds of series as long as there is a good plot.
07- i am addicted into watching all kinds of sports, except cricket and rugby.
06- i love my honor section classmates.
05- i am shy to all people i don't know very well or haven't spoken much too, to the point of being too torpe.
04- my cell phone is my best friend. (i miss you old kidnapped, one. i hope you are in someone's safe arms now =)) )
03- i love books that involve either mystery, fantasy, or facts revolved around a fictional plot.
02- i am very picky when it comes to food.
01- i tend to be a little too generous to people i like. T_T i don't particularly think of it as a good thing.

NINE Places I've Been To
09- alabang town center
08- enchanted kingdom
07- washington d.c.
06- los angeles (hollywood)
05- disneyland california and disneyworld florida (they're both disney anyway)
04- universal studios florida and universal studios hollywood
03- hong kong
02- boracay
01- new jersey

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08- get married.
07- have a happy family with people i love.
06- watch an nba game up close.
05- see my dream house built to perfection.
04- have a successful carrer.
03- own a JAGUAR/porsche/ferrari/mercedes/bmw.
02- get some sculpted muscles.
01- own a company =))

SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07- have a nice personality. (no swearing, vices, and the like)
06- at least have enough brains to place my mind at the right place. (in short, someone who could argue with my inaccurate decisions and prove me wrong)
05- be sweet. (i fall for that easily =)) )
04- have good morals.
03- just talk to me. that would really be nice.
02- treat me as your equal.
01- don't act fake. (in other words, don't be someone you are clearly not)

SIX Things I Believe In
06- miracles. (lol)
05- the bible
04- love showing up at the right moment.
03- God's plan for each and every one of us.
02- my mind's decisions.
01- my friends.

FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05- being rejected.
04- disasters killing a lot of people.
03- failing in anything i try to accomplish or do.
02- hurting someone's feelings or just hurting anyone.
01- not accomplishing my life's plan.

FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom
04- my bed.
03- my bookcase and all its' contents
02- my collection.
01- my shoes.

THREE Things I Do Everyday
03- use the computer.
02- text someone using my phone.
01- watch tv.

TWO Things I Am Trying Not To Do Right Now
02- thinking of something depressing.
01- make her think i'm too obssesive. (that's pretty easy to do you know. haha.)

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01- who else but her?

superstitions

2005-05-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

friday the 13th came two days ago. many people say and believe that it is a very unlucky day. maybe it was just my brain working pessimistically, but i believe that that day was indeed unlucky, in some forms. it wasn't so serious and problematic actually, as i am speaking of a shallow thing, but i consider it as an unlucky thing nevertheless. anyway, the day started off funnily enough, when i went inside my bathroom to wash up. as i was washing my face, i looked up, opened my eyes, and saw a running spider (a big one) in the mirror's reflection. i ran as fast as i could outside the room. lol. i had to get my LOLA to go and kill it =)). so after furious battles =)) with the spider narrowly escaping the force of the slipper's attack, it lost the battle =)). yehey! hahaha. oh, this was also rodney's birthday. BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODNEY! as the day continued, i travelled to school to pick up my books, along with my siblings and my grandmother. they (my sister and maid) decided that the line was too long so me and my lola should go ahead to our destinations while they wait in school (since town wasn't open yet anyway). i went to fran's house at around 10 am and we basically passed time by trying to play a malfunctioning lost vcd, playing scrabble, and this other game i forgot the title of (probably because it was so annoying) haha. we ate lunch, waited for johann and martin while watching friends vcds, and when they finally arrived, played basketball. i lost all 4 games i joined =)) ahaha. but then again i hadn't played in a month so i didn't give myself too much hatred. anyway, it was fun getting to see some of my classmates (kada) again. ack. school's only 23 days away, i think. T_T. sad. my day was fine until probably 9:15 pm that day, where i started to get depressed all of a sudden. all thoughts on the past came back, and bla bla bla. you get the point. thankfully enough, i got someone to talk to about it, even though the words weren't so encouraging. having someone to talk to about something bothering you is nice, it takes some pressure off your brain. so to that person, thanks.

yesterday, we went to town (me and my family), but not before viewing some houses and lots in alabang. apparently they're trying to buy out a house there and make an investment out of it by putting it up for rent. i don't know if that's such a good idea, buying 20 year old homes and expecting people to live in it, but it's their call, so.. yeah. they also viewed some lots, but all my hopes of returning to alabang to live were crushed when i figured out that they were hoping to buy something to again, rent it eventually T_T. so there..we toured all around alabang for a while before lunch in town. we watched xxx2 again, since my parents didn't get to watch the last time. i'm really looking forward to star wars though. 4 more days! whee! in town, they bought shoes for school, while i didn't get to buy any school shoes for myself. i pick out shoes that are too expensive T_T. grr. finally, we ate dinner at tony roma's. finally something went my way, and we ate ribs and stuff. yeah.

oh btw, check out elaine's blog. i got inspired from it, even though the theme and message was sad. hands down, you are the best blogger i know. i got to relate with your blog a lot. go elaine! keep it up =)

addicted

2005-05-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

hello again. this summer i've been addicted to a ton of stuff, mostly things seen in tv, movies, or the internet. some examples are my addiction to lost, the nba, tekken, nfsu2, and fifa 2005 ps2 games, american idol, the amazing race, and the nba. i easily get addicted to any show, as long as it has my particular taste. now i don't know my taste in those things exactly, it just comes naturally. i've found a new addiction. it comes in the form of my childhood fantasy, the star wars series. i started watching the special edition TAPES of the original star wars trilogy yesterday, finishing today. i finally understood fully what had happened, and finally connected the first movies, to the recent ones. haha. i used to get confused whenever watching the new movies kasi. so anyway, i got this call yesterday from my dad telling me that he had 2 tickets to see the premiere of "revenge of the sith" for today. sadly, i didn't get to come. my dad tried to persuade my mom to go with him, but she didn't want to watch. argh, sayang un. well, hopefully we get reservations for next week already. i'm so excited.

anyway, yesterday we went to my great grandmother's resting place in makati. she was cremated this morning. she lived a long life, dying at an old age of 91. we stayed at her place from 5 till 11 in the evening yesterday. she was really thin. i don't have a lot of memories of her, and these past few months, she has been bedridden. we visited her late last year when she fell on the flight of stairs, and from then on she never recovered fully. it's actually sad, but i guess her suffering's over now. oh, my cousins and i bonded a lot yesterday. haha. the interesting about this whole thing is my great grandma's name is vicenta reyes, not ysmael. you see, the story's like this: she had a live-in relationship with a guy with the last name ysmael, and they had 2 kids, one my lolo. my lolo adopted the ysmael name though they were never married. then my great grandma married a guy with the last name reyes. and so there. lol. what if my name was julian reyes? eew. lalang.

anthony's gone! whee. that's a good thing for me. haha. i think that the top 3 are now good. i hope carrie wins though. go carrie! is there something going on between carrie and anthony? i hope not. =)). she said i love you! nooo. and they were talking, and holding hands the entire night T_T lol, i don't want them together. oh, rob and amber lost T_T sayang. but oh well, at least they got 2nd. and they're married already =)). sana ipalabas nila yung kasal sa pilipinas. haha. i'm going to francis' house tomorrow. yehey. hopefully it doesn't rain and it isn't too hot either so we could play basketball.

anyway, me and my classmate sam had a conversation about a.i. lol. here's an excerpt. lalang:
margie: and why the hell did the stupid camera keep zooming at carrie?!
margie: tsss
margie: grrr
margie: harumph.
julian: lol
julian: i dont know
margie: but why julian?
margie: i cant believe it!!
julian: lol
julian: I DONT KNOW EITHER
julian: DAMMIT
julian: NOOO
julian: WHY
julian: GARR

hahaha that was funny. lalang. damn my pc's hanging. i'll just post the top 10 survey thing in the next blog. bye everyone =)

transport vs. teleport

2005-05-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

hello. sorry i haven't posted for so long, even if i've been back for 3 days already. lately i've been too lazy to type here. i spent my time on other things. anyway, i thought of the title when we arrived in boracay 8 days ago. luckily i remembered to put it in this blog. you see, i have a phobia of riding planes, or boats. boats make me seasick once big waves rock the boat. planes, on the other hand, well i've watched too many air crash investigation shows to be too comforted in one. haha. wouldn't it be nice if there were some way people could teleport to their destinations? haha. i know it's impossible, but it's cool. sometimes i just wish i was one of those wizards who could apparate. haha =))

anyway, i spent last last saturday in enchanted kingdom. a day after, we went to boracay for a 5 day, 4 night thing with the family. i know many people would be annoyed if i posted the long article on these trips, so i've provided an expandable post summary. whee. thanks to blogger for the code. if ever anyone out there would have the time or patience to read what happened there, just click the link below the whole blog. by the way, pictures will come later. right now, i can't find the camera =)) i'll notify you guys when i've uploaded them on multiply already.

enchanted kingdom.
the trip to enchanted kingdom was for my dad's company's family day. it had been a while since ayala land had had a family fun day in enchanted kingdom. i can still remember 6, maybe 7 years back when we would have 3 consecutive trips for 3 years to ek for the family day. they were fun filled, and at the time, my best memories. anyway, we went to the gathering at 7 am, when the park was still closed to other people. there was a mass, we had breakfast, and basically had games. there was this sort of amazing race ripoff, where you had to do tasks around the park in different rides to score points for your team and all. there were different teams. we belonged to the blue team (i think we were separated by division of work). anyway, the competitors were pre-selected so we weren't able to join. instead, the "normal" people were treated to games of different sorts in the food court. anyway, when the thing was finally over, we were able to tour the park. we rode on the rides, pretty much the usual thing you would do. 3 rides caught my attention that day. one, we visited the 4d theater, the first time we actually had the chance, since the line was short (it was early). second, the anchor's away ride, which my family rode. i didn't join them, lol. the thing that was funny about this one was they were persuading me to join them. they were so eager to ride (it was their first time), and as the ride started, they were shocked. =)). i took pictures of them while they were panicking =)). the funniest thing was, my sister stopped the ride! haha =)). thankfully though, the other passengers didn't know that the ride stopped short of its' supposed riding time, or else my family would have been hated by the crowd that morning =)). anyway, the last ride that i loved that day, the best one for me actually, was the go karts track. the money was worth it for someone who hadn't tried driving in a go kart before. that was one of the best experiences of my life. my whole family took to the track that day, except lola. i ended up having a blast, while almost hitting a girl in front of me. i think she realized that i was dangerous to her safety so she let me pass after i followed her almost the entire time. haha. i want to go karting again soon. bea!!! haha =))

boracay trip
the next day, we went off to boracay. we took a plane in the morning to albay. as i said, i am (or was) scared of planes, so before flights, i always turn white and i usually don't say a word hours before we take off =)). that's me. after a short flight (thank God it wasn't another trip to the states), we arrived. we took pictures outside of the aircraft, which again, i'll post as soon as i buy a bluetooth dongle to transfer my phone files to the computer. this bluetooth thing might actually serve as a great birthday present for someone i know. if i could only get the money i need in time. anyway, my phone memory's going low because of all the pictures i took during the ek and boracay trips, so i really need the dongle fast.

anyway, on to the trip. we took the island tours package thing going to the island, so we were picked up by a van, and travelled for an hour and a half to caticlan. then we boarded a boat to boracay. upon arriving, i soaked my pants =)) i'm crazy. i brought 4 pairs of pants on the journey and no shorts =)) anyway, we were treated to a complementary welcome on the island by our hotel, which was the seawind hotel. we took rooms 34 and 35, and quickly took a bath.

i have a vague recollection of the exact events that happened since it's been a week, so i'll just tell you a summary. basically, upon settling on the island, we went out and bought a lot in d' mall. my brother and i drank coffee while watching people play volleyball. me, my brother, and my dad left the others to shop while we walked the shores. we found a lot of sandcastles along the way, and saw the sunset (all in my phone memory). after that, we ate at aria and i ate carbonara. that was it for the first day i guess. the next days were pretty much the same, with us shopping, swimming in the beach, and seeing all these foreigners in our hotel. it was fun actually, one time, i stayed at shore hearing the conversation of the american kids (i think there were 10 of them, belonged to 4 different families) were playing football or catch. they were saying "i'm open, i'm open" and all that. ang saya nila panoorin, sobra =)) oh, the only person i knew in boracay that i saw was bertha lina. haha. i couldn't actually tell what her name was until 1 hour after i saw her. i couldn't remember her name. lol.

oh yeah, etc and disney channel were present there in their dream cable so it was nice. over the next days, i watched numerous episodes of blind date, elimidate, and the like on afternoons when it was hot outside =)). we got to watch recess in disney channel, and other cartoon shows i haven't seen in over a year. it was great. i also got to watch air crash investigation. hehe. oh, and the amazing race! woohoo! rob and amber got first there! whee. fun. american idol was fun too. go carrie! anyway, i watched all of these shows while we were in boracay.

we ate at different places there, but we ate multiple times in aria and pier one. i loved the food at pier one, especially their sisig. haha jam. in aria, i loved the pizza and pasta. they were great. other than that, there were the usual breakfasts at our own hotel, seawind, and other things. that was pretty much it for the food.

one day, we went island hopping. we were going to snorkle when i got seasick because of the waves. i easily panic over these situations, parang sa plane. we eventually got to the snorkel spot though, and we had a fun time seeing all kinds of fish on the bottom of the boat. too bad i didn't have a water resistant camera, unlike jam =)). sayang. after snorkelling, we battled rough waters going to puka beach. the waters were so rough that the boat had to stop and go just to avoid tipping over. whee. that was the scariest moment in boracay for me. owel. anyway, we arrived at puka beach, ate lunch, collected shells until we were about to pick them up and put them in a bag. we saw the sign that picking shells was punishable and had a price, so boom, 30 minutes wasted =)). owel. after eating lunch and buying stuff from the stalls, we came back to the boat back to the hotel. this time, i actually enjoyed. thank God. haha. that was it.

the next day, we rode the banana boat. it was a great ride! i was never actually worried or anything about the ride, unlike the previous day. it was really enjoyable. too bad there were no pictures on this trip. i would do that ride over and over again if i had the chance.

swimming was great. the shoreline's beautiful and you could see tons of fishes when you just plop your head on the water. goggles would help of course =)). i chased fish that were swimming in the water. i found out that if you get sand from the shore, throw it to a spot in the water, all the fishes would scramble around it, thinking it were food =)). so that's basically what we did, my siblings and i, apart from wrestling in the water =)).

it was only the last day that we decided to tour the island on a tricycle. we got to the eco park, the butterfly farm, and other sights. we also saw the nami hotel that day. it was a great hotel. lol. really secluded. perfect for those private people. and it had an elevator! whoo! ang ganda nung place. anyway, we were sort of upset that we didn't tour the inside of the island earlier, where we found so many activities we didn't get to do due to lack of time.

i bought a lot of things on the trip. i think i bought 5 shorts, and that's a lot for me, considering i only had 3 before i bought those. lol. i bought 4 rosaries too, one for me, and the other 3 for pasalubong. i think i'll give one to her. i would have bought more, but then my lola bought the other rosaries to give to her kids T_T. lol. i got a boracay shirt too. so basically, i bought the most out of all of us siblings. a first! haha.

i got sunburned after the trip. it was so hot, record highs in the country even, during that week. i got badly sunburned on the face, so i had to stop swimming. haha. until now the sunburns are there (some of them anyway). i gained 5 pounds i think, lol. but through all that, i still loved the trip. it was nice to get out of the house.

thursday, we went back to caticlan through a boat after lunch in seawind. we took a bus from there to albay, where we slept. at the airport, it turned out that a flight was cancelled earlier in the morning so people were scrambling to get on the flight before us. so with that delay, our flight was delayed as well for later that afternoon. we spent the time waiting by eating at a local restaurant just off the airport. my siblings just tore through the food, while i saved my appetite because of the upcoming plane ride. anyway, we finally rode the flight back, and i found that i wasn't that scared of planes anymore. i watched the whole flight, never closing my eyes. haha. upon arriving home, my parents quickly packed for their next flight the following day to bangkok. lol. they're a bit hectic, aren't they? that was my boracay trip.

*sorry kung disorganized, i kind of rushed this =))

well anyway, after coming back, i had sunburn all over my face. thankfully, they were gone when i went to town and to the dentist with my siblings last saturday. my sister got her retainers already, which means that she probably would finish braces quicker than me T_T, and i got my lower braces fixed. hopefully it's the last time i have to go to the dentist for a fallen bracket, since i don't wanna spend another year with these things T_T. we went to town that day, and since my parents went to bangkok a day before, we were alone (of course, there was a maid there. my mom doesn't trust us alone, haha). all we did was eat lunch, watch "xxx2", and go to timezone, powerbooks, the normal stuff. xxx2 was alright, but i couldn't really see if it was as good or better than the first movie since i didn't watch the first movie. lol. i'd give it an 8.5/10 though, for effects and the like. it was good watching an action movie again. what i'm really excited for though, is star wars. a few more days to go! woohoo! oh yeah, i completed bob ong's book collection that day as well, as i bought "ABNKKBSNPLAKO?!" from powerbooks. yay! now all i have to do is read them all =)). lastly, we took a haircut (my hair looks different again) from the barber shop going home, and bought a bouquet of flowers for our mom. basically, all our money was spent that day, leaving us with NO money at all. i have to ask my mom to reinburse our town expenses =))

yesterday was mothers' day. our mother wasn't at home most of the day because my parents went off to bangkok for the weekend. i greeted some people's mothers a happy mothers' day, and to all i didn't greet, belated happy mothers' day to all mothers in the world. thanks for everything you have given us, and taught us in our life. thanks for all the care that we always receive from you guys. i don't agree with the statement by khalil gibran in the "dekada 70'" book. in objection to what he said, we children do have the responsibility to care for our parents as we grow old, we are not supposed to leave them by the time we get to a mature state, rather, we must stay with them and offer them the same care that they offered to us unconditionally when we were young and couldn't tend for ourselves. as elders say, roles are reversed once you grow old. anyway, we gave our mom the flowers last night when they arrived at home. there were no celebrations, since it was too late in the night. anyway, we slept at their room last night. hehe.

these past few days, rather than concentrating on chatting and blog hopping all day, we've found new things to do, albeit also boring. haha. water guns have been the weapon of choice, between my brother and me. we've been playfully fighting using them. haha. it's fun though, it brings back your inner childhood =)). try it! we've been having a lost marathon too. we've watched episodes 10-20 in the past 2 days, and downloaded lost:the journey. you see, i've become super addicted to it already. i can't wait for the dvd. in fact, i've been experimenting on making these episodes into vcds, and they worked. but the problem is, only 1 episode can fit in a vcd, so imagine creating 20+ vcds T_T. takes a lot of time, and wastes a lot of cds. so right now i'm pretty content in watching it from the pc. at least, before we get the sims 2 game. woohoo. i'm really excited. oh, like pepe, i've been having rather strange dreams lately. dreams i can't explain. they're all school related though, or at least, they involve people from school. one made me extremely nostalgic. haay. is there a dream doctor or something?

on to some random things. school is less than a month away T_T. i don't know, i just always love the summer. i don't like seeing school, or thinking of it. the only thing that makes me desire to wake up early everyday and go to school aside from my future is the company of my friends, and my inspiration. haha. without those, i won't be working as hard, that's for sure. so now i have mixed emotions on school coming up. i just don't want summer to end. i hate thinking, haha. i'd rather that my mind stays relaxed, and i don't get tons of pimples. of course, thankfully, i'll see her again in a month's time. i'm really looking forward to that moment. =) oh, kimi raikkonen won yesterday! woohoo! finally, thank you Lord. oh, and scott is gone from american idol. another celebration. i mean, i feel pity for the guy, but he really should have been gone a long time ago. way before constantine and anwar. haay. well at least the top 3 are there. i wish carrie, vonzell, and bo the best. the harry potter: goblet of fire trailer is out! CELEBRATE! WOOHOO! i can't wait to see the movie. to see the trailer, click here.

tomorrow is my brother jaren's birthday. i think he'll have a friend over. they'll play and stuff i guess. natatawa lang talaga ako kasi isang friend lang ang inimbita niya. hahaha. what could 2 people do to pass an entire day? i guess they have something planned. the water guns may come in handy =))

journey-ing through the ages

2005-04-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

well, the batangas outing was cancelled, i think. or, they changed it to a tagaytay 5-day trip to bea andaya's house. well at least there's still a class outing. but i do hope they push through with a batangas beach thing. i was really looking forward to the previous one, and i was preparing already! haha. owel. i guess it is better when we're complete and all.

we're going to enchanted kingdom tomorrow! i can still remember when i came there with my classmates when we were grade 6. that was a great day. the rio grande rapids was a new ride, and so we were lucky enough to try it out. i was the one who didn't want to get wet, and all of them wanted to get wet. in other words, ako lang yung baduy. lol. but i ended up being the MOST wet out of all of them T_T. by the end of the day, i was the water-attractor, while they were the water resistant people. haha. i miss that day. anyway, we tried the ride again a year or so back, that time with my family. my dad was the one that got super wet that time =)). we're really a water magnet family, i guess =)). so, we're going there again tomorrow. i saw a sign in slex yesterday saying that enchanted kingdom was on its' 10th year in operation. i wonder if they put special thingies to the place to celebrate it? hopefully they did. oh, we're going there (my family), because my dad's company has its' annual excursion (spl) and every employee's family is invited, as usual. yehey. it's been a while since i went to ek for a foundation day of ayala. i'm excited.

in 2 days, we'll be off to boracay. this will probably be my last blog before we go for a 5-day vacation, so i'm trying to accomplish everything in the computer before i go. lol. yeah, so anyway, boracay. i haven't been there yet, so this would be my first time. i'm scared of planes, so this would be another test for my guts =)). it's like that every time i ride on a plane. owel. but i'm looking forward to going to boracay. i can swim again! yehey. the only thing i'm not looking forward to, along with the plane ride, is myself being there. lol. i'm beginning to be too conscious about my body. it sucks. T_T. haha. probably, when i get there, i'll strip off my shirt a second before i jump to the water =)). lol. eek. i'm too fat. owel. anyway, we're off to boracay! whoo. gusto niyo pasalubong? tell me.

yesterday was my dad's birthday. he's 45! lol. anyway, at 12 am that day, i was still watching american idol in star world while updating my contact list in my phone. yes, i have my sim back! yehey. you could text/call/whatever me at my old number. yehey. i'm currently addicted to the phone. i want the softwares i got from the internet to be on my phone. waah. if only i had the bluetooth dongle. crap. i don't have money for it! T_T. noo. oh, i almost convinced my dad to buy it last night, only to see that the store was closed =)). owel, better luck next week when we come back from boracay. anyway, yes, yesterday was my dad's birthday. in the morning, i and my siblings, along with my mom, lola, driver, and maid (lol), went to alabang. since my lola was going to my tito's house, my mom went to citibank, as usual. we went to my tito's house in bf, and it was my cousin's birthday, so we went inside their house. we played the ps2 (mainly tekken 5 and devil may cry), and what was supposed to be 5 minutes of fun turned into an hour T_T. lol. we ate and hanged out there for a while, until finally my mom scolded us for not picking her up because she was late for work and we had to go. lol. we went to citibank again to pick her up, then proceeded on in our proper course, to go to school for our ids and uniforms. we got our id pictures taken and paid for the uniforms, and were quickly off to town because my mom was late for work. haha. we were dropped off 30 minutes before atc opened, so i just texted people, went to mercury drug and waited in the heat. finally, 11 came, and we went inside. i had no luck trying to find a cheap wireless connection to the pc from the phone, so there went my chances. we ate lunch at kfc and hurried off to see the movie guess who, while my lola went to sandara's movie. lol. so there, we watched guess who, and i liked it. i'll give it an 8.5/10. we shopped for a while after that, and i got to buy bob ong's "bakit baliktad magbasa ng libro ang mga pilipino," finally. now i have lots of books to read at home. yehey. at 4:30, we went to my mom's office, waited a while, then went to sm makati. there we bought a lot of clothes, since it was sale. apparently my mom was very excited at the prospect of buying sub-200 peso clothes for us. haha. we bought a lot of school clothes, and a few street clothes for my siblings. after the mini shopping spree, we went to greenbelt for dinner at bubba gump. i missed that place, and was glad we went there again. we ordered tons of stuff, mostly meat, and i got bloated T_T. we won the contest and got a free raspberry-vanilla ice cream as a reward. the chocolate chip sundae was amazing, yum. i loved eating there again.

after eating, we went out to powerbooks live!. i discovered that it was a 2-storey place. lol. it was the first time we actually went inside the store (including my dad), and so we were amazed. all this time i thought it was just a small place with a cafe in it. haha. anyway, buying a "wrinkle in time" was cancelled, since i realized it was already 9 and stores were closing. but all efforts to reach the bluetooth place were put out when we saw that it was closed. owel. haha. my dad received a ton of cakes for his birthday. so much that our entire refrigerator is packed. i think there are 10 cakes inside the ref right now. lol. plus there's still popcorn for us to eat, hooray.

constantine's out of american idol!?!?!?!?! yes. this was my reaction yesterday when friends told me about it. T_T. my favorite is gone. and that's with a lot of controversy. some people said that the phone line that constantine had wasn't functioning that night, which led to him being voted out. crap, this is impossible! WHY!? and scott was in the top 3?! how?! omg. i hate this. i hope they have an announcement next week that they're putting constantine back. waah. i ended up not watching the replay last night. his song "this is how you remind me" haunted me throughout the night, while trying to sleep. T_T

here are some random things. star wars is coming out! woohoo! the saga would finally be complete! i could finally buy the box set of ALL movies, probably later this year. yehey. dream come true! i'm so excited to watch the movie, though i wouldn't be able to any time soon since we're going to boracay and all. has this ever happened to you: you wait so long for a subscription you have had for a long time, and it doesn't arrive in your doorstep for months. then suddenly, one day, they deliver you 6 issues of the subscription in one delivery. T_T. well, that's what happened to our reader's digest subscription. i was wondering why we weren't getting new issues of reader's digest and i was rereading some of the previous issues. they all came to us this monday, issues from november last year until april of this year. weird. can't we complain to those delivery people? haha. anyway, at least i'll have tons of life's like that, as kids see it, and all in a days work to read. yehey. oh, there's this spoof site that the owner claims to be a pope benedict XVI site. it's another one of those truthseeker stuff, but this one's in blogger. the difference is, this one has a positive effect on you, since it doesn't say "you will all go to hell" all the time. lol. in fact, i've laughed at some entries, since they offered good ideas. one's the pimp my ride series from mtv being changed to pope my ride, where they could apply the pope mobile's features to the cars =)). anyway, you could view the site at http://askthepope.blogspot.com. found the link to that site from jam's comment box, =)). lastly, try gizoogle.com. apply it to this site if you want, you'll get laughs =)). ok, anyway, bye all! see you next week! =)

here are some surveys i took out of boredom a couple of days ago:

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 45% of the Population

If you scored...
80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life.
60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.
40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.
20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good.
0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's Your Attitude?

You Are 19 Years Old

19

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 80% Left Brained, 20% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

the past will never go away

2005-04-26T12:07:00.000+08:00

so yeah. even if you try your best to forget your past, if it had been turbulent or depressing, it always returns. memories always return, whether you like them to or not. sometimes, we find the past in the form of items like your previous toys, testpapers, or letters. sometimes, it comes in the form of words. whatever forms they take, they always seem to come back at an opportune time. well, i got the opportunity to see through someone's past, which also involved myself. i saw pepe's past 2 nights ago, and lots of memories surged through my brain. last year was really an eventful one, and because of school, i forgot many events that happened. with pepe's past, i got a lot of information back. it was nice remembering those things again, even if they're clouded by depression. those were the times where i started being depressed - i think. but oh well, that's over with. i'm thankful i got the chance to see that again. it was actually fun to see that again. anyway, i posted this because of this promise:
dragon_flip24 (12:14:30 AM): promise me something
jlysport (12:14:34 AM): yep?
dragon_flip24 (12:14:37 AM): the next time you blog
dragon_flip24 (12:14:40 AM): you blog about this conversation
jlysport (12:14:40 AM): what?
jlysport (12:14:42 AM): LOL
jlysport (12:14:43 AM): sure

i haven't been productive the past 2 days so i don't have topics to blog about. i've been stuck at home, glued to the chair for 2 days, staring at either the tv or the computer. apart from this, i have a blinding headache. i think i got it from staring too much at these appliances. it's getting tough to look at the screen while i'm typing this right now. anyway, all i've been doing with the pc is chatting, listening to the power rangers theme over and over (lol), and transferring my old blogs to a blogger site. oh, yeah, you could now see my old blogs. there's a link on the sidebar. i blogged so differently then. i actually got the inspiration for that from pepe. so, there, i now have a place to store them in the web.

fifa 2005 is the new game we've been playing rigorously. after one day of re-playing it after months of storage, we got addicted as usual. i spent the whole night playing that, which led to my temples hurting so much. argh. so now i want to lie down in bed and sleep again. whee. i'm going to cut this blog short in a while.

before going to bed last night, i tried out my bluetooth thingy. it worked with my dad, yehey. i used my sister's sim for my phone to work. now my phone's battery is dead, so i have to charge it. but there's no quick need, since i still don't have the sim. whee, i'm getting a little impatient with the sim card, haha. i hope i get it soon. the free tones i got from the stall i got the phone from are really funny. i keep on playing them over and over to annoy my siblings. lol.

my parents have given us chores to do everyday. it's a direct order from them so we can't disobey it. T_T. so anyway, everything's okay except for playing the piano. i never really liked playing the piano, because i always get frustrated while trying to practice a song. my fingers are just not adept to connecting fast enough with my brain. i end up playing a song so slow and with so many mistakes, that i give up. i was never really good at playing music anyway. i spent 6 years practicing the piano, with not much passion, and i never really got the hang of it. at the same time, i keep on getting low grades in music because of my abyssmal flute playing skills. again, i have a hard time reading the notes fast enough and finding the right keys with my fingers. T_T. i guess my fingers are just meant for the keyboard.

i end this up with a survey i got from annal's blogsite. i'm going to die at 73? hmm. that's a pretty ok age to die i guess.

You Will Die at Age 73

73

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

likes and dislikes

2005-04-24T17:00:00.000+08:00

it's been an eventful 2 days since i last posted here. yesterday was one of the busiest days this summer. even though it was mentally and physically tiring, i'm happy because at least i got what i wanted.

we started saturday by going to the hospital in quezon city. this was the hospital where my mom gave birth to all of us 3, her kids. yesterday, it was the hospital that contained my lolo, who had a problem with something in his body. anyway, we went to capitol hospital at around 10 am, and upon arriving, i was quickly reminded of a recent event in the same place. the same lolo was there about 2 years ago, when he had a stroke, the 3rd of his life. at that time, we were very scared, as everything was looking bad. yesterday, however, was a different story. we weren't as panicky nor were we that scared of seeing our grandfather. thankfully, he was alright, with no major problems. i never like any family member to go to a hospital because of an affliction, it's just sad. everyone gets saddened and scared. i have disliked hospitals ever since i was 3, the first time i was ever confined in one after my birth. since then, i have had a phobia of hospitals, especially with the "hospital smells". lol. i usually get paranoid when coming to hospitals, so..haha. anyway, we visited our lolo and were preparing for his release from the hospital. the doctors were very demanding of their payments though. T_T. overall, 5 days in the hospital and several check-ups cost our family 60,000 pesos. but in the end, it was ok, at least our lolo was fine. for lunch, we went to teriyaki boy. my brother was reluctant at first and said that he wouldn't want to eat anything, but in the end, he was one of the people who ate the most. haha. i ate tempura and california maki for the first time, i think (bea, johann, and sarah - congratulate me! lol). i'm stupid when it comes to japanese cuisine. after that, my parents went back to the hospital to get our grandfather released while i and my siblings went to my lola's house in quezon city. i and jaren played basketball in the mini-court again, lol. it's really fun destroying the ring since it's so low. you feel almost invincible to little kids. haha. after an hour, my parents arrived in the house with my lolo. we spent a few hours there, watching one of the three ninjas movies, which i loved so much when i was young.

we left our grandparents' house at around 4, and ventured to town. whoo. my dad and i went to cd-r king to purchase cds. we bought a hundred new ones, yehey. i can finally burn cds again. we then went to the phone place at the 2nd floor. we haggled for hours, and compared phones, until my parents finally agreed and bought me a phone (well, hati kami sa bayad, but oh well). i ended up having a nokia 6600, same as rodneys', although i'm still not sure whether i made the right decision of picking it over the k700i. i guess not, but at least i have a phone now. whee. i can text again! well, almost. i still don't have a sim card, lol. my tita's supposed to pick it up at any globe shop since the line's named to her. i hope i get the sim soon, so i could start updating and putting all sorts of stuff to my phone. haha. i'm extremely excited. after buying the phone, we went to north park to eat dinner. i was too bloated from teriyaki boy to eat a lot, so i ended up eating almost nothing. i did, however, drink 2 glasses of their fresh lemonade. lastly, before going home, we went to powerbooks, where i luckily bought on sale "the rule of four". yehey. last friday, powerbooks had it out of stock. my mom tried to give me another reservation confirmation slip for harry potter 6, since i lost everything in my wallet before. the lady told us that we had to have a valid id, something which i didn't have - they were all in the wallet. haha. so on tuesday, i'll make another trip to powerbooks to show them my PASSPORT. lol. i'll also go to school along with my siblings for our id pics and uniforms. my sister has her volleyball practice again T_T. haha.

today, we had mass at 10 am, then went to paseo de santa rosa to wait while my dad was having a haircut. this turned out to be a lucky break for me. we went inside speedo and browsed for things. my sister told me something that my crush had on before. she said she saw this person wear this in school. lol. anyway, i was supposed to buy shorts, the xenith goggles, and slippers there, but it didn't push through. i ended up buying something else. shoes! whoo. after a long time searching for the exact shoe in town in dismay, i almost gave up on my quest to find it. i was actually going to resort to buying it over the internet, but luckily, i found them a while ago in the nike park outlet store. yehey. they arrived just 2 days ago. jordan XIX, you're mine! haha. so you see, these 2 days have been one of the happiest materialistic days of my life! i don't get to buy stuff often, because of my parents' closed pockets. so you could just imagine what i feel right now. ecstatic might be close.

my family talked about oil prices while in the car a while ago. they said that in other countries, such as the united states, or places in europe, oil prices are double of what they are here in the philippines. if we only had the proper wages here in our country, there's actually nothing to complain about. but of course, the relative prices of oil here as compared to the wages are staggering. travelling 50 km going to makati and another 50 going back to our house has its' toll on our family lifestyle. gasoline prices take up a HUGE amount of our monthly budget. scary.

no one has the same likes. people have different tastes, even if they're family members. to one, someone might look gorgeous, but to another, the same person might look ugly. haha. my friends have different tastes in terms of women's prettiness, shoes, music, and basically everything in the world. me and my parents, even my siblings have difference of opinion about shoes. this was proven a while ago, while we were debating on what shoes to buy my brother, who's having his birthday in less than a month. you can never please anyone forever, even in giving gifts, thinking that you have actually given the person something he/she likes. it's impossible. but there's always the power of compromise. in relationships, surely there would be conflicts of interests. the only way of sustaining the love in the relationship is when the couple know how to deal with each other and change their habits to suit their other half's. that's the miracle of love. so ok, i don't really know how i wrote this. anlabo, it has no connection whatsoever to the first sentence of the paragraph. now this is how to get a failing grade in topic sentences =))

anyway, i'm watching f1 now. this cable is still dumb. star sports doesn't have commentators' audio?! gahd. the only thing i'm hearing is the sound of the shrieking engines of the cars. but then again, at least i'm able to watch it. go kimi! HE GOT POLE! WHOOO!!!! tc everyone =)

*oh btw, just an edit, i'm now watching the pope's inagural mass. wow. there's a gold book. ang galing! oh, it's the book of gospels pala. i want one of those, lol. the scene is so..holy. i'm looking forward to his homily. he doesn't look so scary anymore. hehe.

rollercoaster

2005-04-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

life is a rollercoaster. how many times have i heard that before? countless. life gives us so many challenges to go through, if you think about it, life shouldn't be boring. there are lots of things to do and to experience. but sometimes, don't you think that God's tests go over the line? you think you have a great life, and you're doing everything for the service of God, and yet something terrible happens. it's like a major bump in the road, or an airpocket that causes severe turbulence that leads to peril. you just can't control yourself from asking God why these things happen to you. this is just a reflection on my past experiences, and a realization due to recent events. sometimes it's just hard to accept that this turn in your life was the worst you've ever experienced, and you wonder if you could ever go again in the long road that is life. i guess we just have to have faith in God and believe that he has everything under control, he keeps our loved ones with Him, and he knows what's best for us.

the class outing's finally confirmed. or at least, i think it is. gliza and monique did their best to coordinate and plan the outing, and they talked with the people in different resorts, checking out the amenities, schedules, and availability, and i have to thank them for that. thanks for all the hard work you've continuously given to our class, even if the school year's over already. anyway, the trip's pushing through on may 26, in balai resort in batangas. i'm excited already! though i definitely have to lose weight before that date. lol. anyway, here's the invitation, made by gliza. go gliza!

i watched american idol, wrestlemania, lost, and other tv shows yesterday, as part of my usual busy tv day. allow me to comment. i'm really amazed that anwar had the lowest number of votes in a.i. he was one of my proposed top 5 finalists along with carrie, constantine, vonzell, and bo. too bad he isn't there anymore. i hope my favorites actually go to the final 4. they deserve to be there. i watched lost again yesterday, both in the pc and in tv. (btw, i still love f.r.i.e.n.d.s. okay? hehe.) the volume was poor in the computer, so hearing it from the tv is obviously much better. i liked the episode yesterday more than the previous one. lalang. lastly, wrestlemania 21 wasn't as good as wrestlemania 20 for me. i wasn't really excited, and i caught only glimpses of matches because my parents were forcing me to change channels often. they were watching american idol at the same time. i liked the batista-triple h match, the shawn michaels-kurt angle match, and the match where edge won. they were the only good matches for me. overall i'd rate that wrestlemania an 8/10 for effort.

we went to school earlier today. we were already enrolled, so we figured that paying for the books would be easy. but along the way, confusion was evident between all of us, including my mom who said it was going to be easy (so she didn't come anymore). it turns out, we needed the o.r. of the tuition fees to do some stuff, so we didn't accomplish everything. after a lot of disputes, we finally got over the book problem and went to the uniform section. but this was not before people saw my stupid haircut. lol. oh, i saw alfred, elaine, and binky there..so, yeah, they were the ones who saw T_T. alfred gave me an opportunity for comparison on phones. thanks. anyway, we went to the uniforms and got polos and pants. again, confusion. i think we were a little too noisy so the lady got confused and so problems arose. oh well. we'll be going back to school tomorrow for the id pics and uniforms, since we didn't have enough money and were forced to just reserve the clothes.

afterwards, we went to town. we ate lunch in kfc at 11:15, and then proceeded to powerbooks since it was too early for the movies. i ended up buying "ang alamat ng gubat" by bob ong because i remember bea's blog talking about it. lol. it was just 100 after all. "the rule of four", the book that i was supposed to buy, wasn't available. oh, i was supposed to apply for a powerbooks discount card, and was in the middle of filling up the form when the lady asked me for an i.d. i remembered that my wallet was gone and that all my ids came along with it, so, as you could expect, she just told me to accomplish it at home and give it next time. lol. afterwards, we bought the tickets for "the wedding date", which my siblings wanted to watch desperately T_T. after a bit of timezone, we watched. the movie was okay, i'd give it an 8/10. it wasn't really my mood to be emotional and mushy though, so i wasn't really affected. after the movie, me and my brother went to timezone again while my sister and maid bought ingredients for my sister to bake cookies. i checked out shoes from nike as well. hopefully i'd be able to buy when it's still sale. oh, before we went home, i found out that pcx is a good store to buy essential needs from. lol. i expect to be back there soon.

my sister's cookies were delicious. i had a lot a while ago. lately i've been addicted to chocolate. my dad, coming home from a business trip, brought us a whole pack of toblerone. it's chocolates galore here at home, so i expect to be gaining pounds again. whee. owel, it's summer anyway. tomorrow, i'll be going back to school in the morning, and then go to town to probably (*crosses fingers*) get a new phone. i'll be getting my old number back, yehey! thank God. oh, i hope to buy shoes and the like tomorrow as well. btw, just a thought, have you ever reminisced your childhood favorite tv shows? asha gave me a copy of the power rangers theme song earlier, and i ended up singing along to the song. i still memorize the lyrics! =)). weird.

let's all pray for margie madrigal's family. may she and her family receive the Lord's grace and guidance.

isa nanamang pagpapahayag ni hulian (di ka pa ba bored?)

2005-04-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

yeah, like the title said, aren't you tired of me ranting yet? sorry if you are, i have nothing else to do here at home, so i might as well just write right? it's the only thing keeping my study habits in tact right now. i don't even know if i could still write, and right now i'm figuring that i can't, since that's what happens to me every summer. but it's all nice, at least it's a break from school. btw, thanks to jam for the title =)) it's filipino! lalang. so anyway, if you're bored already, sorry again. haha. oh no, candy shop just played again in mtv =)). everytime i hear it i get lss from it T_T. sad.

habemus papam. we have a new pope. a new pope for the roman catholic church was elected at around midnight earlier this morning, based from what i heard in cnn and from my other friends. sadly, i have no phone to receive or send messages to spread the word. hopefully i'll get a phone this weekend though, so hooray! anyway, back to topic. the late pope john paul II finally has a successor in the form of cardinal joseph ratzinger, now known and called as pope benedict XVI. why did he take this name? well, according to what i heard, he wanted to continue what the previous pope benedict did and probably do even better. but i'm not really sure. hmm. so yeah, i just missed the live event happening last night, as i slept at 11:30. too bad. but the power of replay is really nice, right? i think i got 10 replays of the pope being announced to the thousands in st. peter's square and to the whole world. i'd like to thank cnn and bbc for being my channel to the news. i've learned a lot about the roman catholic church, it's history, and it's modern problems that i never knew before due to the channels. modern technology really is a big help. anyway, so the pope's german, another european pope. i wonder when the tradition would finally change, when a non-european pope reigns. i hope the new pope makes peace with all nations and tries to communicate with everyone in the world, all religions, and all people who have concerns. i hope he could stabilize the world and be firm in his decisions. as for those people (esp americans and western europeans) who want immediate change and are disappointed at the election of such a pope, a very conservative one at that, i hope they could understand that change is hard and the pope does what he does for the best. he has strong theological beliefs and i think we should respect that. and of course, before we critisize someone, shouldn't we first see what he will do? that's just my opinion. hopefully, the pope visits the philippines. oh, i saw some philippine flags a while ago while the new pope was being announced. go go go! lol. LONG LIVE THE POPE!

there are about 1 and a half months of summer left. right now, it's packing up with loads of activities. on april 23, my family's going to enchanted kingdom! yehey. it's a company outing thing of my dad, so yeah. whee. when may 1 comes, we'll be going to boracay. i myself haven't been there yet, but i'm sure it's going to be a great experience. then there's this class outing thing on may 20 or 21. i'm almost sure i could go, and i'm really excited about it. we still haven't decided on the place we're going to, but i'm pretty sure it's in batangas. beach! whoo. i want to see sophomore c together again, even for the last time. drama =)). summer's going to be more hectic as the days pass by, i just know it.

many people are going to other countries for vacation this year. rodney said that he saw snow this year. i'm just wondering why i haven't seen snow in the united states. grr. it's always a week before we arrive that the snow stops. T_T. it's annoying actually. i want to experience snow! haha. i hope i do next time we go to a different country. oh, and about the smell of the air there, i also wonder why that is. i read it from rodney's blog earlier, and i have had the same question in mind for years. the phrase "amoy states" is really true. i wonder what causes the different smells in different countries. hmm. research!

i have to go back to school for my uniforms and stuff. just this morning, i learned that i have to get a school id. it's not just a privelege for me, it's a neccessity. it's not like i have an old school id to use. they all got stolen from THAT day. oh well. so it's another adventure ahead. i don't know what'll happen when i get photographed while other people are looking at me. scary thought.

there are some disadvantages of living here in cavite. i mean, the place is great and all, and i love my house, but if it only were closer to manila. haha. first of all, due to its' placement, so far from manila, few people could actually come here. i rarely have my friends around, as opposed to alabang where i could just hold a party any day. next, i can't call anyone for long periods of time. i used to have the luxury of 'telebabad' when i was in alabang, but now, no. it gets boring at times due to the lack of civilization roaming around. it's like dead city. haha. now, i could only call in times of emergency from schoolwork, or just in times of desperation, when i have to talk to someone. but that has limits in time too. then there's the problem of going to places. it's not like before, where we could just go out for 30 minutes and go to town, or dress up for a gimmick already 10 minutes late. now you have to be always early, and you have to spend enormous amounts of time traveling. lastly, the cable tv. lol. it's shallow, but the reception here is dumb. we lack channels, and they hang up all the time due to satellite feed problems. i really wish we had another cable network. haha. anyway, at least there are also advantages to these things. i'm able to be more punctual, to be thrifty, to be appreciative of time and gasoline =)). i also figured out that you don't need to spend every night talking with friends over the phone, though that's still nice. haha. weee. in the end, i'm thankful i live where i live.

lastly, addiction to the nba has gotten me weird. now i spend my day playing the nba live 2005 game. it's another one of those streaks in my life where i spend too much time on one thing. obsession, that's what it is. lol. all the lost episode downloads are complete! haha. i just couldn't find episodes 10, 16, and 17 from the net. too bad. it's time for a marathon! whoo. goodbye all =)

endings are beginnings too

2005-04-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

after all the anticipation and anxiety clouding me over the past few weeks, i finally know my section. i'm going to be in junior-e next school year. my classmates are:
ambrocio, andaya, arquero, aurelio, ballesteros, bautista k, benasa, borromeo, castro, de castro, de los santos, diosana, espina, fong, garcia s, ginete, giron, gonzales d, leal, lim, limchoc, macalintal, manikan, mendoza j, mondelo, nieva, ocampo, ong, orandain, paronda, pattugalan, quinio, rocha, salas, salvan, sembrano, tabuena, ysmael, zara
so anyway, yeah. that's my new class. it's still early, but i'm already thinking about what the year has in store for me and my class. i'm excited and nervous at the same time about how our class is going to be. also, i hope i could actually bring myself to make more friends there. it's been a while. haha. and i've never been good at social stuff so, it's going to be a difficult road ahead. i read elaine's blog earlier and i think i'm kind of in the same state as her. i'm a shy and insecure type of person so it's quite hard for me to try and socialize with different people i don't know. i hope i don't turn back to my old self of being the QUIETEST in class. anyway, the good side is, it's going to be a nice experience to make new friends again and to be in a stranger-filled environment, considering that i've been living in an all-too-redundant bubble ever since grade 4. so, that's it. hello junior year. i'll miss all my honor section classmates though. yfc and lsyc ok? hehe. and also lunch times. yehey.

anyway, i'm still addicted to lost. very addicted. right now, i've finished downloading 11 episodes. and a while ago, while looking through some sites, i found out that they're releasing a dvd version of lost. whoo. it's a 6 or 7 disc thing which they're going to sell on september i think. they estimate it's going to cost around $60 so i have to start saving up. lol. also, while boredom slipped into me this afternoon, i found some fanfics concerning lost so i read them. haha. that practically took 2 hours off my afternoon. i don't really know what's gotten into me these days. i'm so addicted to the television. right now i'm also addicted to air crash investigation shown in national geographic. i love it when they analyze how things happen and stuff, though i hate it when the plane actually crashes and people die. so anyway, i'll be watching that again tomorrow night. whee. tv addiction. it's bad for you. lol.

a while ago, i decided to push through with watching videotapes of us when we were young, specifically the one where we had a vacation in the states last 2000. funny, it seems as though it was just yesterday when we last went there. our voices sounded funny as hell. mine was like a girl's voice. haha. my brother's was even worse. lol. it was good seeing myself again, doing crazy things in front of the video camera. my brother even stripped his clothes in front of the video camera, and if i want to blackmail him in the future, i've got just the thing to use. haha. bad kuya. i think i'll be watching more of those tomorrow or on wednesday, when i have time.

earlier this morning i cleaned my room. i fixed the stuff in my bags and the things lying around. it's amazing how many papers from school are actually scattered around my room thinking it's only been 1 1/2 years since we moved here. and yes, i've only cleaned my school things now, 1 month after the school year ended. lol. sorry, my laziness caught up to me. and of course, i got the usual colds right after cleaning dirty things. i ended up throwing a lot of garbage. oh, and while rummaging all over my room, i found things that reminded me of my previous section. see, i was cleaning about 20 minutes after i had learned of my new section. it dawned on me that we'd never be fully together again, so that was another reflective moment. i've had a lot of those since the end of the school year, and i expect to have more in the months to come. oh well.

lastly, the conclave is going to start in a while, i think. or maybe they started already. personally, i think the new pope should be coming from africa or south america. it would be sending the message of expansion of catholicism to all countries. it's pretty symbolic if that happens. as for my other comments, i think it's best i reserve it to myself for now. i'll be watching cnn again over the next few days to see who the next pope is going to be. may God be with all the cardinals as they make their decision.

*wow, this is my shortest blog for april. lol. i'm running out of things to say i guess.

sharing..

2005-04-17T16:16:00.000+08:00

we get a lot viruses from file sharing. i've experienced this myself, in fact, i've experienced it a lot before. but sometimes you just cant avoid the joys of downloading from the net. these past few days, i've been bored a lot at home, and i think a little bit too anxious about the classlists going out on monday. anyway, after watching lost last thursday, the last of my regular tv shows ended so i was again stuck at home with nothing to do. the following day, i chatted with sam and she told me stuff about the future episodes of lost. then, suddenly, i was struck with an idea. so i first researched for the episodes and stuff on sites, and then i searched for some episodes to be downloaded over kazaa lite. so, that's basically the story of my past few days. the computer has been on non-stop just downloading episodes from some sources. haha. right now the computer's finished 5 episodes, and there are still 9 to go i think. hmm. i hope they finish soon though, because it's getting hard to go and browse sites with a very slow connection. lol. so anyway, there. that's basically what's been happening. i am again drawn to the wonders of downloading. i just hope viruses don't start infiltrating our pc again.

ever tried watching your kid videos? those videos you took on vacations and stuff? haha. well i can tell you that it's very fun. i used to watch them all the time, when we had free time. i was supposed to watch them again last friday but i ran out of time. probably, i'll be doing that later on. it's really nice watching yourself as a young person, doing crazy things you wouldn't imagine doing in a public place now that you're older and your mind knows all the rules on proper decorum already. you should try it, lol.

some people know their sections already. in fact, gliza's blogger site has a full classlist of her section already. as i read it, the first thing that struck my mind was that they had great dancers. lol. lalang. anyway, good for them, they know their sections already. i'm still stuck at home dreaming bad dreams about the upcoming school year. actually, if i look back at these dreams of mine concerning the school year, i just can't help but laugh at myself. i think i'm too anxious about what section i'm going to be in. well, maybe it's normal. haha. anyway, hopefully i have a good class. tomorrow will be the day when i'll finally know what section i'm in. all the nights predicting would finally be over. yehey.

my sister's cooking class is over. i thought it was a class which had those 10 sessions or something, but as it turns out, it was just a 2-day thing. lol. well, at least she brought home some pastries for us to eat. they were delicious. we were supposed to make some more but then the ingredients were not present in our grocery store. too bad we didn't buy yesterday when we had the chance in alabang. oh well.

yesterday we went to the dentist again. i hadn't been to the dentist before yesterday for a long time. i was enjoying my freedom from teeth pain. lol. yesterday was inevitable though. i had my teeth all tied up again. yehey. so now, i'm feeling pain and it's getting hard to eat once again. hopefully my teeth would be normal soon. anyway, after that , we went to acc to check on summer programs. we checked on the badminton courts and got the details. then i remembered about golf. i used to play it with my dad, and me and my siblings used to take a clinic there. with tiger woods win last week, i was again inspired to play golf or even just practice it. it's been a while since i last held a club. haha. so as for summer programs, i still haven't decided. i have to decide fast though, since there isn't much summer season left.

town was the destination after acc. we went shopping since it was sale in most stores. i ended up buying 2 pairs of pants from levis. whoo. that solves my problem on jeans. now my problem is getting new shoes and clothes. i didn't find any shoe i liked yesterday, so i didn't buy any, even if my mom was pleading for me to due to the 40% discount on some shoes. haha. lastly, we (my brother and i) went to timezone while waiting for my mom and sister to finish shopping. we spent over an hour there with 150 pesos. amazing we lasted that long. my mom and sister took so long to finish. i eventually got bored of the place, and was held to watching people fight each other on the tekken 5 arcade game. i tried to play that game once, but my combos from the ps2 didn't work consistently enough. i lost to devil jin while using jin. lol. i guess i'm staying with the ps2 version.

false alarms?

2005-04-14T18:12:00.000+08:00

hey. well as i start this post, the time is 5:41 pm on my computer screen. my mom called me up an hour and a half ago warning me of an apparent earthquake that would hit manila. when i asked her where the warning came from and who told her that, she said that text messages were spreading the "upcoming" earthquake. she told me to take care of my brother and pray if the earthquake occurs. so we got down for merienda (me and my brother), ate yakisoba, and watched american idol until 5, while anxiously waiting for the 'quake. the time passed by, and nothing happened. i gotta ask, who made up the message anyway? T_T. it seems to be a false alarm, or even a stupid prank by some weirdo who's bored. anyway, 45 minutes have passed now and nothing's happened. so hopefully, there is no earthquake at all and we'd all be safe.

anyway, i've been thinking of my section next school year. when i was younger, i was always drawn to section E, for it has been my section for 4 years, 3 before the hac, and 1 as part of one. i'm getting the feeling that i'm going to section e once again this year. lol. well, whatever it is, i hope some of my former classmates stay with me so that i know some members of my new class at least. hehe. i'm looking to go to school on monday to see the classlists. this is great, i'm finally excited about knowing who my classmates are again. that hasn't been the case in a while. haha.

tv marathon. again. this has been my ultimate hobby at home along with staying on the computer's chair. i watched the amazing race yesterday, and i was happy after the show. rob and amber were still first! yehey. i also watched american idol yesterday, and of course a while ago while waiting for the "earthquake to happen." i have to say congratulations to constantine and carrie. lol. they're still my favorites, and they're still alive. yehey. lost appears a little bit later on, so i have another show to look forward to tonight. as for the rest of the time spent at home these days, neopets is there. i'm not into caring for my pets anymore and stuff, lol. for me, it's all about battling nowadays. there's this upcoming war so i'm doing my best to be best equipped and ready for that. haay. stupid life huh? haha. oh, i watched happy gilmore a while ago too. it was my favorite movie before, and is still one of my top movies. i don't know, it just seems to make me laugh everytime i see it. probably it's because of my love for golf and hockey, and also because i like adam sandler as an actor. hehe. it's great that i don't have glasses yet even though i'm stressing my eyes every single day of the year in front of the tv and the computer. thank God.

i'm still thinking of how i'm going to earn money to buy a phone when it's summer time. i've asked my mom if i could do some office work for her for a price, but i don't think she has anything for me, except an 8-hour job with her in her office with a minimum wage as payment T_T. i personally don't want to sweat myself out and have a premature burnout this early on in the year. i have enough of those in school already. haha. so right now, i'm pretty much forced to just conserve every bit of peso remaining in my wallet, and forced to eat close to nothing in the first 2 months of the year to gain the right amount for the phone. i won't be getting any allowance from my parents during the 2 months, just so i could get the proper amount. whee. fun. time to be thrifty.

the problem about the saving thing is that i'm planning to have a so-called "mini shopping spree" this summer. i'm running out of shirts and pants and basically every type of apparel, all because of my laziness to shop. i'm not the shopping type of guy. lol. my mom and sister often get frustrated because of me telling them to stop shopping and opting to go home instead. haha. but now i really need to buy all sorts of clothing materials. it's time for a new set of clothes and new pairs of shoes. jordan XIX here i come- hopefully. oh, i also need to shop for books to keep me off boredom this summer. i've gotten suggestions on what books to read this summer and
so far, here they are:

a wrinkle in time

the 5 people you meet in heaven*

tuesdays with morrie*

noli me tangere*

the umbrella man

the rule of four

the alchemist*

100 years of soltitude

veronica decides to die

now the ones with asterisks, i have already. lol. time for some shopping.

my sister is currently attending cooking lessons in makati. haha. she already has a summer thing. good for her. hopefully she'll cook for us after the sessions are over. and hopefully, we don't get poisoned. lol.

lastly, rodney's going to the u.s. tomorrow. bye rodney! don't forget our pasalubong! lol joke. remember to check your mail or to chat on monday ok? i'll try to take pictures of every section and send them to you! ahahaha. anyway, goodbye everyone.

what's the connection, honestly?

2005-04-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

hi again. another 3 days of not blogging and things have been piling up in my brain again. it's time for another release of information. lol. as i said, my cousin's birthday party was held last sunday, and it was amusing. i had a few "long time-firsts" these past few days, as i finally got out of the house to see some familiar places i haven't been to or some things i haven't done in a while.

last sunday, we went to alabang for mass for the first time in a year i think. it was great finally going back to st. james for a mass. i miss that place so much, as do i miss my former village of 8 years. yes, we did get to spend mass there again, and yes, i was able to relieve the great moments i had there in the past (the salubongs, the christmas masses, the every sunday masses, and everything else), but the sad part was we didn't even get a seat. we arrived late, as usual, due to human errors on our family's part. as a result, we arrived 10 minutes late, and to a cramped church. we just stood at the back for the entirety of the mass. that was kind of sad, but of course just the familiar atmosphere of being part of the mass was great for me. it was as if i was back in my home. hehe. oh, then we went to town to do some chores and eat lunch in china star. lol. i didn't want to eat there, but my mom forced me into it. so we ate, and i eventually got full up and i eventually admitted to liking the food served ahaha. i also browsed through some phones and found the most sensible buy, the nokia 6600. my mom said we'd discuss it when my dad returns 2 weeks from now.

well anyway, my cousin's party eventually pushed through at 3 pm that same day, but not before a little of an adventure in the streets trying to find the place. lol. after a bit of shouting with my mom on arguing about the location of the place, we got to the place with little worries. lol. the funny thing about the party was, instead of the party having the usual prince and royalty tunes as the mini-debut started, they played those filipino novelty songs ever so loud in the small room. hahaha. weird djs, those there. it was fun watching kids i didn't know by name or face at all (they were relatives of my dad's sister-in-law) dance around to the tune of the novelty songs. i practically couldn't understand anything i was reading in the page of the da vinci code. anyway, the party went, with the 7 roses (with my brother being part of it, lol, i couldn't believe he danced with my cousin =)) ), 7 wishes, and 7 gifts. we ate, they had a magic show and a lot of games, and basically, that was it. it was nice seeing those relatives of mine actually fund up for a party like that for their daughter, with their condition and all. i'm amazed.

i've been reading books along with the usual watching of television lately. well, i've been reading A book, and that is the da vinci code. i'd finished it this morning, re-reading the book after i forgot all about it in a years' span. it was nice reading it again, and remembering why i liked the plot so much. haha. anyway, i bought the alchemist last sunday because of claims of my classmates and friends that it was a great book to read. i started with the 1st page a while ago, but then i was in rodney's house, so you couldn't expect me to be understanding a lot of words as i was reading. i mean, it's rodney's house. what do you expect? haha. after i read the alchemist, i'll try reading the 5 people you meet in heaven book as well as the tuesdays with morrie book i've been excited to read ever since the school year. i guess after reading all of these, i'd be a better man inside? lol. i hope.

this summer has still been inactive for me, as i haven't gone out enough and done enough to call it a productive one. my days have been spent with me either using the internet and chatting, or watching tv, or just playing with the ps2 when my brother's conveniently using the computer, using the gba emulator. hahaha. i've been addicted to watching the outcome of the nba season, and watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. nonstop. i've also formulated a schedule of tv shows i should watch. that's how stupid and pathetic my summer has been. it's been totally passive, with me learning practically nothing. they say watching tv makes your brain turn for the worse, and if that's true, then bad things are happening to me. lol. oh, i've lately watched the last round of the masters' tournament too (the golf one). haha. i used to love watching and playing golf, back in the tiger era, when he was winning everything. i loved golf so much then. but then recently, i've stopped watching due to disappointment on my favorite player and inspiration not winning. but he's back! yes he is! my love for golf has come back now that tiger woods won the masters' title last monday. he's number 1 in the world once again! woohoo! in other news, i've decided to concentrate more on neopets again. lol. at least, i'll be training my favorite pet. it's another thing to do once i sit in the computer's chair, rather than just hop around blogs all day long in vain. haha. oh, i think i'd be taking badminton lessons. but that's just what i think. i'm actually not sure of my mom's plans. i think she wants me to take karate or something- and i don't like that. lol. oh well. my sister already has a summer thing - cooking. she had her first session today. seemed fun for her.

i went to rodney's a while ago. as usual, i arrived too early for him to wake up. haha. he was still asleep when i arrived, so i let him take a bath while i tried to make the tekken 5 ps2 game to work on his malfunctioning ps2 console. sadly, our 2 hour bid for it to work failed miserably. so much for playing ps2 games all day. haha. we never did get to badminton either, as it was either too hot, or we were too busy with watching movies or using phones to distract ourselves from the movies we were trying to watch. lol. we ended up just watching those tv commercials about products in other countries (ehem thailand, korea, china, japan) which have outrageous claims on healing and/or better aesthetic effects on the body. it was funny how they dubbed their voices and how the people in the screens looked as if they were being adobe photoshopp-ed. haha. it seems weird that the country actually approves of these products being sold on the market. does it really work? i don't personally think so. but it gives us great laughs anyway, so what the heck. lol. i honestly don't get the connection on one of the products, the handy roller. it was a product you use on your skin to make you lose weight. weirdly though, in the background, jlo's song "love don't cost a thing" was playing. ahahaha. it was really funny. anyway, as we ate lunch, we talked about novelty songs, which led to all of us singing them (eg. ibigay mo na by jessa zaragoza) haha. rodney eventually downloaded some of these songs like chupeta and the aegis song. LOL. other things we did in rodney's were to watch the grudge (american version) which was not scary at all, so we used our phones and tested ringtones while the movie was playing. haha. and we also watched another movie, although we finished it in 30 minutes, due to all the fast forwards. haha. lastly, we ate yellow cab pizza for merienda and then i had to go. i never did see allie and her surprise. what was it?

i think i have a little bit of a phone crisis. i'm thinking of whether getting the sony ericsson k700i phone or the nokia 6600 phone. the nokia's older, but i'm leaning towards buying it simply because of it being a nokia phone. i'm used to nokia, and i can't see myself parting from the brand anytime soon. i'm still not sure though, and it's up to my dad for the final decision as to paying for half the expenses on the phone. at any rate, i'll be losing money. haha.

*oh btw, do you know that BILLY CRAWFORD sang the pokemon theme song? it says so on my "pokemon: the first movie" soundtrack i had ever since i was 10. i think it's the only original cd i PERSONALLY bought. haha. weird, what a small world.

memories and dreams in my small world

2005-04-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

before it was officially announced, i didn't really care, probably because i never expected it to actually happen. as it was announced to the world using the sheet of paper, i never really grasped what was actually going to happen. i thought to myself, it's okay, i'm going to be happy in another place anyway, and it's not as if things are going to be all that different. plus, i thought of all the advantages the new rule would give us. but now, as i contemplate and reflect on the events that happened yesterday, i feel a sudden surge of sadness reverberating all over my body, and the sense of foreboding on the things to happen during the next few months. not having the high average class anymore totally changes my perspective of my next 2 years in high school. before, i thought that i could spend the next 2 years just like the previous happy hac's that came and graduated before us. they were happy, and they had this strong bond as they spent their final year togehter and graduated. there were tons of pictures, and a lot of albums filled with long term memories, from where they first started being friends all those years before. now i fear that i'm going to miss those things now that there is no more hac. i don't know, maybe all those dreams i had before could still happen with my new classmates in the future, but i just don't see the same emotions present there than in my dreams. i still remember all those years before, when i met my classmates in 4d for the first time. and through all those years, the core of that group was there, and we had a whole lot of memories together. we won contests, we went through difficult school work, both using teamwork, and of course, we also had our difficult times. i remember a lot of moments when we were together, often working together until night trying to finish projects, or just going out as friends to places to enjoy each others' company. i'm certainly going to miss all those moments with them, and the dreams that i have had with them, graduating together and stuff. i guess you just don't get what you dream of all the time.

report card distribution was yesterday. i wasn't surprised about my grades because they were all on the slips before i got out of school anyway. they were pretty much the same. we also got the rest of our class pictures yesterday. it was fun seeing my class once again, together. the crazy pics were funny as hell, haha. anyway, after going to school, we went to my mom's office and just hanged around starbucks for an hour while waiting for my mom to finish her meeting. i started reading the da vinci code again yesterday while waiting, and had a choco frap and oreo cheescake, yummy. then, we went to chowking for lunch and picked up my dad from his work. we then travelled to subic in the afternoon, for my mom's office outing. as we arrived in whiterock, we checked-in the hotel. i was the first to use the television in the room, and quickly turned the channel to cnn to watch the pope's funeral. it was a remarkable event, where tons of people went to see the pope for one last time and offer their last respects to him. i wish i could've been there. anyway, despite a lot of pleas from my mom to go to dinner, i finished the funeral. hehe. dinner came, and we were surrounded by a lot of ricoh employees. after eating, my dad and my siblings including me just strolled around the resort, and just viewed the stars up above while watching the soft movements of the water in the sea. we went to the room soon thereafter, and just watched tv until we finally slept at around 12 midnight. this morning, we went out to the beach and swam. it was the first time i got to be in a beach again in a year, and it was a great feeling. then we went to the swimming pool with the rocks in it. lol. basically, that was our experience in subic. we lacked time to do anything else, like beach volleyball, table tennis, or jetskiing. too bad. well, at least i got to swim again! yay.

my family has travelled together a lot of times before. we've had a lot of vacation trips to different places. i can still remember all those trips when i was young, when i cried as i fell to the rocky and slippery, wet ground in villa escudero, when my hair was taken by the monkey's hand and pulled in palawan, when i got chicken pox in puerto azul, and lots more. it's always nice to reminisce on these moments in your life where you had fun together. i even remember my previous subic trips. they were a lot-because our usual places of visit during summer are tagaytay, baguio and, subic. almost every year, we come back to subic and go to the yacht club, where we would swim in the night and pretend that the rocks were "crocodile swamp", filled with crocodiles just waiting to pounce on you. lol. i remember my wild imagination, as i often ran in the united states and pretended to be a wrestler fighting invisible characters, and running to the video cam while jumping and dancing wildly in front of it. lol. if you had just seen the videos. anyway, i love the times when our family would get together and spend time together, considering their work. they're busy in their work all the time, and we're busy in our school work pretty much most of the year. in fact, over the past couple of years, the demands of high school have taken their toll on our relationship. i haven't been able to come with them when they go to some places, due to the tons and tons of homework we're being pummelled with. i miss those times where my parents would say a day before a trip, "we're going to *insert place here* tomorrow" and no one would argue. now, it's not like that anymore. everyone has to confirm if they're available and if they don't have other things to prioritize. hmm, that was just a thought of mine.

so anyway, my dad's going to europe and america over the next couple of weeks. he's going tomorrow, at 7 am. he's going to be leaving the house at 4:30 i think. it's his annual trip there. he's going to visit that guy in spain they call "lolo". haha. it's pretty sad that he has to work everyday, and has little time for any "vacation-ing". but anyway, even though he's going to be tired for sure because of work and the plane rides, he's lucky he gets to visit all those places every year. it's like a yearly trip around the world. lucky him. haha.

having no cellphone is starting to become a burden for me. my list of phone numbers is obviously gone, so i'm clueless right now as to some of the people's numbers that i didn't get the chance to store in the computer. T_T. it's getting hard to tell people things too. i have to use my parents' phones just to tell people something. haha. but anyway, i'm learning to live with it and so far, nothing bad has happened to me without a phone. i just hope they help me get a phone soon. haha. in other news, my cousin's 7th birthday party is tomorrow. you know how parents value their kids' 7th birthday right? haha. well, tomorrow, they'll be doing just that to their daughter. the party's theme is about princesses and princes, and the whole kingdom thing. haha. they even gave out invitations that said "we invite you to the princess' party on april 10th at bla bla bla. from the king and queen." hahaha. it even went as far as having 7 roses and 7 um..somethings. lol. it was sort of funny, actually. well anyway, i'm sure it's going to be a special day for my cousin tomorrow. i wonder what i would do during that event though. maybe just eat. lol.

btw, it's phim's (pepe's brother) birthday tomorrow. lol. greet him a happy birthday. haha. happy birthday phim!

paranoia

2005-04-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

hello again. i'm just posting right now because i've realized that i would not be online probably until sunday or something. that's because i'm going out of the house again, finally. i wasn't able to go anywhere from monday until now, spanning the events of the lsyc retreat, the tagaytay outing, and some other various events. i would want to go to the next tagaytay meeting though. bea, could i join the 2nd batch? hehe. so anyway, i've been stuck at home all this time once again, so imagine what i've been doing to pass the time by.

the television has been my favorite tool to get out of boredom these days. sometimes the computer and being online just does not suffice your boredom. that's because over the past few days, practically no one has been online, with everyone of my supposed-to-be chatmates going to other places as i've mentioned earlier. with nothing to do with the computer after blog hopping, checking out news articles, checking out some sites featuring f1, nba, and neopets, i resort to the television. lately my addictions have been to stick to the nba games on tv, watch american idol and the amazing race every week, and most recently watching the tv series lost on axn. of course, my week-long activity of watching cnn for updates on the events in vatican hasn't stopped. in fact, i'm watching cnn right now. lol. there come times where there are no good shows on tv, and i am forced to watch dvd's or use the play station 2. i've been watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. dvds nonstop the past few days, and in fact, the past few weeks. what can i say? it's my favorite tv show of all time. haha. as for the ps2, i'm still playing nfsu2 and trying desperately to finish it as soon as possible so i could move on to finishing it. haha, i've been desperate to finish these games, for they're all just borrowed from different people. i don't have these games in actuality, even though i've wanted them for so long. that's because there is no store nearby which sells ps2 games. in relation to this, i also have no new music in my pc lately, for i've been too lazy to download them. haha, i don't want anymore viruses in my computer now that rodney has swept my incredifind one.

so anyway, nikko smith (spl) just got out of american idol today. he got the least number of votes. but as they said, everybody left has surely got a record contract anyway because of their talent, so being eliminated now isn't that bad. you got the experience of your lifetime, and at the same time, you got a record contract. isn't that just grand? in the amazing race, meanwhile, rob and amber are still there. in fact, they're in first place yet again. it just amazes me how their craft and wit, plus a lot of luck has brought them this far into the race. i wonder where they get all that luck though. haha. anyway, i watched MY first episode of lost a while ago, and i agree with my classmates and some of my friends in saying that it is a great series. i expect to be including it in my weekly tv schedule, as well as csi new york. i never really got excited over csi before, but now that it's summer, i got a chance to watch csi new york yesterday, and i liked it. my classmates are once again true, it is a great series with which you could learn a lot from. so there's my tv addiction right there for you guys.

this summer, i think i'd be taking badminton lessons again along with my siblings out in la salle canlubang. it's near our place and stuff. the lessons start april 18 i think. this is good since i could stretch my muscles again and not just grow and grow, making my weight problem worse. haha. oh, and we're going to subic tomorrow. we're going to white rock i think, where we'll spend the night. i hope to at least see a glimpse of the ilc though, as some of my classmates would be there. i know it isn't likely, but still, anything's possible. at last, i'll be in a beach again. it's been a long while since i last swam with those jellyfishes and swam in salty water. lol. i miss that feeling, especially when i saw our family photo albums when my classmates came over. it made me nostalgic about my experiences as a young kid.

tomorrow's the pope's funeral. sadly, i don't think i would be able to see the actual event since i'd probably be on the road to subic at the time. but anyway, like gliza said, everything's not the same without him. i never imagined the pope to die while i was still alive, so this is an entirely weird feeling engulfing me. but God has his plan, and i thank God for everything that has happened, be it good or bad. may the pope's soul rest in peace in heaven. we'll miss you.

paranoia. every summer because of boredom, i start to hallucinate and think of weird things happening to me. about 6 or 7 summers before, i loved to read reader's digest. i read about all these diseases that you could get, and the bad effects it had on people. then i thought that i had gotten these diseases. because of me being paranoid, i had myself go to the doctor, had ecg testing, blood testing, and all these other tests to confirm if i was still a healthy boy. you see, i get paranoid easily, even when i'm in school, and it often leads to trouble. now when times when your mind is idle, like summer, my mind easily thinks of outrageous stuff happening to me, like the people who stole my stuff coming to my house, people i love getting injured, and stuff lingering in my head. it's really annoying because it makes me very panicky and it makes me have more stress leading to more pimples. lol. i just wish it wouldn't be like this for long. let the paranoia go away. whee.

tomorrow is report card distribution day. i had previously much anticipated that moment in time, where i would finally receive my card and see my grades, but much of that hype has gone away now that summer is in full blast. still, i hope to see good grades on that sheet of paper tomorrow. *crosses fingers*. oh, but there are other things to be concerned about tomorrow, as far as i'm concerned. i just had a haircut a while ago, following my parents' advice to change my hairstyle. it's on its' transitional phase, which means that it's not good yet (at all). aaah, i hope it isn't that bad that my classmates and/or friends would laugh at me once they see it tomorrow. lol. but i guess there would only be a few people in school by the time i'm there since i'd be arriving at 8 sharp. haha.

we could never be perfect, but we just have to move on despite our impurities and imperfections. they should never be a reason for us to give up our dreams.
-revised statement of scott savol, american idol 4 finalist

perfection

2005-04-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

hi. it's been a while since i last blogged (forgive me for this is going to be a long blog), mainly due to my busy schedule over the past few days. anyway, i'm back to blogging now that there is little to do at home once more. as a matter of fact, i'm currently watching my men in black vcd because of boredom. hahaha. i've always liked watching these scifi/fantasy movies, i don't know why.

well anyway, life without a phone has been a good experience. it has taught me that there are more important things in life than having a phone at your constant beckoned call everyday, all day. you don't need a phone to have fun in life, and you could contact your friends through other ways. even though it is great having a cellphone to use for questions or to chat with others, and it is handy when you go out, i have learned to live without one. it's been okay actually. i get to see the world in a new light. haha. well of course i still want a new phone, i mean, i don't want to be stuck in a mall having a hard time of contacting someone. hehe. i don't know when i'll be getting a new one though, i haven't asked my parents since i don't think they'd approve me buying one anyway. i'm hoping of getting one soon though, hehe. for now, i'm content with chatting and having a FEW phone conversations.

april 1. also called april fools day. i had a laugh upon reading pepe's blog who did an april fools joke. lol. oh, neopets also did one, though it convinced few. they removed the joke hours later though, probably due to people complaining on the chat boards. haha. anyway, i picked up my classmates from mount mcdo in town at 7:45 (i was a bit late since i got addicted to need for speed 2 in the play station. lol) and was relieved to see classmates there. it's a little traumatizing coming back to the same place where you got robbed 2 days before. ahaha. anyway, all of them (alfred, francis, mark, dom, jebi, johann) except rodney were there. rodney arrived minutes later with his starex. we left town at around 8:10 and travelled (parang ang layo eh) to my house. upon arriving, the first thing we did was to play the ps2. ahaha. we played tekken 5 for a while and used the pc to chat, check sites out, and view some *ehem* folders. oh, rodney downloaded me some programs to remove ads and other bad shit from my computer. hooray, the stupid incredifind virus thing is gone! finally. we then played billiards and other things at home, then ate lunch. we played basketball in the afternoon, with only rodney and alfred staying at home. rodney practiced his tekken moves. ahaha. we stayed in the court for 3 hours, meeting this guy named chino while playing. at first, i was apprehensive again, since i just got mugged days before for talking with people i don't know. good thing we didn't get robbed this time. lol. anyway, basketball was fun. i got to move my muscles once again. we came home at around 6 and ate merienda. we talked about the series in axn, lost, which i want to watch now that i've learned it has an exciting and mysterious plot. the rest of the day was spent just playing ps2 again, and watching tv. some of us, including me, watched friends, while the others played monopoly. after about an hour, we came to the sleeping room and watched scary movie 1 and 2. hehe. the monopoly game ended, but sleeping became a problem. we began to just talk about weird things and that got us awake until 2-2:30 am until we finally were able to shut down our system.

april 2. we woke up early, and rodney didn't puke! lol. yehey. we ate breakfast, and then played tekken again. the other guys then swam in the pool, while i waited for the others to arrive from town. they (michael, chio, gliza, isaw, bea, binky, manda, jackie, sarah) arrived at around 9 am that day, and i with michael joined the other guys in the pool while the girls played billiards. after swimming, we took a bath and the girls with chio played cranium. we ate lunch together with michael playing the piano. haha. the girls with some of the guys played monopoly while we went to the court again to play basketball and badminton. it was nice to get to play with dom in badminton, even though we (johann and i) were of course, beaten badly. haha. when we got home, we took a bath and then i and johann played table tennis. as the night came, we watched bbc intently, as videos from vatican city were shown, and they were updating the condition of the pope. we talked about many things, the most noticeable being the conversation about the pope. then we played billiards while some played badminton on the street, and some sang using the magic sing. it was fun hearing them sing, lol. btw, on the billiards game, my brother jaren actually beat us twice. =)). luck or skill? i still say luck. ahaha.

as you all know by now, his holiness Pope John Paul II passed away yesterday, April 4, 2005. he was a great pope, not only because he was very spiritual indeed, not because he was charismatic and a great linguist, but because of his humongous effort to erradicate communism in his homeland, and to bridge the gap between different religions. i have been watching cnn for 2 days straight, and i have been touched by his greatness. it's a shame i never got to meet the pope, never seeing him here in the philippines nor having the chance to go to vatican city. from the stories i have heard from different people that actually met him, just his presence changed their lives forever. he had a great influence on history's events over the past quarter of a century. he was the pope during the times of great improvements in technology, and he flourished through this, often coming up with ways to reach out to people better. he was a great servant of God, and is now with the Creator. all i ask is that we all pray for him. thank you for everything, Pope John Paul II.

anyway, today i think nearly half of my former class (sophomore-c) went to the lsyc retreat. my other classmates, meanwhile, went to bea andaya's house in tagaytay. i didn't come to tagaytay today, so i'm pretty much alone on the internet. no one has been online as far as i know, except sam, rodney, and steph. this is until april 6, so um..im stuck at home basically. i will be spending my time just watching tv (most likely cnn and the pope) and using the ps2. to all my former classmates, i hope you have fun in your trips! enjoy. =)

lately i've been addicted to the play station again. due to boredom, i've spent my time just playing new games. tekken 5 was lent to me by johann, and we played it over the weekend, so i've become really interested in the game. lol. i want to finish the game as soon as possible so what do you expect? hehe. oh, also, mark forgot to get his need for speed underground 2 again here, so i'm spending time with that game too. it's nice to get to have your own car, even if it is only imaginary, and do whatever you want with it, often using different parts to modify and strengthen the look and feel of your car. well, that's actually my summer so far. still no summer activity, though i think i'd be taking badminton in la salle canlubang nearby. hehe.

i've been watching a lot of tv over the summer. lately, i've been sticking to american idol and the amazing race. as for american idol, i'm glad that my favorite is still there. go carrie underwood! (spl? ahaha) and constantine. whee. rob and amber are still in the amazing race so go them! hehe. yesterday, i watched formula 1 in bahrain. the race was great, with many cars retiring because of problems mainly due to the extreme heat offered by the desert track. i'm happy that michelin was great yesterday, making the top 8 all michelin drivers. as for my favorite, kimi raikkonen, he got 3rd place! go mclaren! and pedro de la rosa, filling in for montoya, got 5th! he excited me from the get-go. it was a great race all in all, and i'm happy i got to watch it.

perfection is an impossibility for us humans. no one is perfect in this world. all of us have our blemishes, and everything has flaws, but we could make the most of our nice qualities, and live the most out of our lives. this is what pope john paul II did in his life. he was tireless in his efforts to revive the spirit of the catholics in the world, to remind them of their faiths, and to be an inspiration for all christians. i wish everyone would be like that. in relation to perfection, a formula 1 car always strives to be near perfect, to win races and win championships. they want to be as close to being perfect as possible. things in life are just like that. our goal is to be as near perfect as possible, or in other words, to be as similar as God as possible. i admire those who do this in their lives. in a lighter note, SHE is as near perfect as i could ever imagine. haha. anyway, take care everyone.

life's wonders (the good to the bad to the good)

2005-03-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

um..so i was supposed to write a blog about my experiences the past 3 days and how boredom has finally slipped away from me, but then this whole thing comes along. as my lola said, "mahirap ang panahon ngayon eh." but i wonder, do we really deserve this kind of fortune and pain? what have we done to merit such bad luck? is it destiny that brought us to this situation? i guess those questions would never be answered.

oh whatever. anyway, i'm just going to briefly state what happened the previous days that made me ever so happy- a feeling i have forgotten ever so suddenly in a span of 5 minutes. last monday, i got out of the house again. i had a chance to go out and meet my friends in town to just relax and watch a movie, maybe to catch up on news in the past few weeks. chio, gliza, and i watched miss congeniality 2, with me watching it for the 2nd time. it was nice-again. i liked the first movie better though. gliza left, and we met up with rodney to just stroll around until we got to starbucks and hanged out there for a while. i had my choco frap and corn beef pandesal. johann arrived and we talked for a while until chio had to leave. he left, leaving us three to go to powerbooks. johann left soon afterwards and rodney gave me this anne rice book to read. haha. basically that was it, i went with my mom afterwards then went home soon thereafter. tuesday, i went to francis' house in the morning and we watched some channels in tv. mark brought the ps2 and we played tekken 5 and nba 2005. at the course of the best day of the summer, we played basketball in fran's backyard and just ate. it was fun and good to be exercising muscles again. basically that was it. i would've told you guys more about this great day but i just can't take my mind off today's events. anyway, today started with me going with my mom to school. i just stayed in school for a while while waiting for fran and mark. francis came and we went to get our clearances signed. thankfully, all of us were given clearance by sir delos santos even though our hair was unprepared for the test. we then came to town early and strolled around, waiting for the proposed movie we were going to watch later on in the day. we ate in the foodcourt, then strolled around again until we got to 1:15 pm.

this is the story. at 1:15 pm, i proposed to my classmates that we go inside powerbooks. they refused, and so we walked towards bizu. after talking about the high prices of food in dulcinea, some guy approaches us from behind and tells us that he is a member of a frat. he tells us that we don't have to join or anything and that this is merely a help to him since they have points for something..(drifting off, i didn't really listen much thinking that mark and francis knew what he was talking about). at that moment, i felt weird, and i wanted to get away as quickly as possible. little did i know it was FAR from over. he then instructs us to join him to mount mcdo to do the specific task (i dont know what damn it.) there. the other guys agree so i am forced to follow the guy reluctantly, sensing a great deal of danger in my gut. as we were walking, the guy was continually asking me if i was okay, probably sensing that i was reluctant to join him. i wanted to have a private conversation with my classmates to tell them what i felt, but it wasn't possible. i stayed away from the guy, feeling that if by any chance once we get out of town and kidnappers run towards us, i would have a headstart fleeing away. once we get outside, we meet another guy, another "neophyte" (which i don't think they are now) and they tell us to go inside mt. mcdo. at that point, i sense the reluctancy of all of us not to go inside for bad things might occur. we say no, but we're forced inside. they offer us drinks, we say no again, and yet they give us drinks. at that precise moment my heart was racing. how come they gave us drinks for free? i didn't believe that they were that good, expecting nothing in return-and sure enough, they weren't. their adviser talked to us about their frat's situation, about an event that happened to them a week ago (i, again, wasn't able to pick up/understand what they were saying. i thought mark and francis knew. so then they tell us this thing i never did understand, and said that mark and francis should go someplace to meet some people there, and then go back. they say that they'll have to leave their things to the guardkeeper, me, then i'd follow. they left me alone with some 5 guys, and there, i started to panic and get goosebumps all over. i kept on thinking if i should run or scream or call someone, but then they spoke so fast, i couldn't keep up. they told me to give all the phones, including mine, and all the wallets and watches to the other "guy", who they said was also like one of us, just someone they picked from the street to guard our things while we were away. I NEVER REALIZED THAT THIS WOULD BE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I WOULD MAKE. out of desperation to join mark and francis again, i do as i am told and go outside to "meet" the said people i would meet. they told me to go back to where we got picked up and meet people there. they said they couldn't come with me. then i realized, everything was gone. it was like brainwash. you never knew it was going to happen until it did. my nack of letting people boss me around got to me. our search efforts came up empty, of course, with no traces of any of them. it was like one of those news on tv, where someone would get tricked by these scammers and you'd say, "oh how stupid, if that were me, i would have never let them do that!" i guess i got my share of this today. my overwhelming trust in people was quickly shattered. now i don't think i'll ever trust anyone with my things anymore. i know the whole thing sounds stupid, that we were tanga and everything, and yes, i agree on many points. we agreed to join him in the first place, to an area of easy access on the roads, and believed everything they said. inexperience got to us. i thought that by pure wisdom, i would nail anyone trying to do this to us, but no, today, that didn't happen. maybe our brains turned off, or we were just ignorant of the things that were about to unfold right before our very eyes. stupidity.

i feel as if it was my fault that everything got lost. i didn't follow what my heart and guts and brains said to me, and i didn't do anything. i didn't realize what was going on until it was done. but most of all, i agreed to go with the ******* guy in the first place. i feel so guilty. i felt like i let down my friends, i lost all my pride, and most of all, i let down my parents, who always trusted me. i swore never to lose anything again after i lost my wallet in third grade. i feel so sad about letting them down. damn it. i promised myself in the past that i would NEVER EVER get into one of these situations, but no, not even the best of your preparedness could help you here. i just wish i could have done something to prevent this. grrr. to fran and mark: i'm sorry for following their orders in mt. mcdo. the only reason i did this was because of my panic and nervousness being alone with these unknown people. on the other hand, i'm thankful it didn't get worse. i never got kidnapped or hurt. i'm glad that they didn't gang up on me inside. i'm just thankful that i'm still here, blogging about this event.

i just can't believe this. probably, the reason why i am actually able to blog right now under these circumstances is because the matter hasn't fully dawned on me yet. oh, but it's most probably becuase i feel so relieved that i wasn't kidnapped or hurt during the event. i could only feel happiness that i am safe now, at home, with no one attempting to steal or hurt me in anyway. the sense of security at home is unbelievable. i just fear what would have happened if i had been kidnapped. what would happen to me? how would my family members react? and if i had been killed (God forbid) during the event, i wouldn't have expressed any of my last thoughts on how i felt to anyone i loved. my parents, siblings, family members, classmates, friends, to all i know, and her. that would have been the worst way to end one's life.

i told my mom what happened as soon as it did. i borrowed manda's phone and called her up, telling her what happened. i also had a long discussion with my driver about this. i realized every mistake i did. i analyzed everything i lost, and it summed up to about P10,000 pesos from the watch, the wallet, and cellphone. i also lost all my quotes, and special messages. and of course, i lost my pride along the way. i don't think my mom is angry at me, or maybe, not too much. i told her i realized everything and that i was stupid, and that i did not do everything i was supposed to do when things like these happen. this comes 2 days shy of the april 1 party here. i wish mark and francis could still come. how i wish we had only entered powerbooks, everything would have turned out different. but i guess that's life, you just got to deal with the punches.

i hate them so much. (the robbers) i hope they get what they deserve. why can't they be the ones killed in the tsunami? hmm. oh well. i guess God has a plan for each and one of us. this probably reminds us of how we should value every single thing in our life, and be thankful that we are still alive today. this is a learning lesson or experience for each and every one of us never to fall into the same trap ever again. also, we should learn to realize that nothing is permanent in this world, especially because i save every meaningful message i have in my cellphone, all the quotes i had wished to send in the future, probably on her birthday or the next valentines day, where i would probably may her know how much i like her. i also saved there every message i thought were special that came from her. i never wanted to give up my cellphone to anyone, not even my siblings. i guess that serves as a lesson, that the past is nothing, and what we have is the present. whatever we do now, that is the important thing. love isn't about keeping messages or sending quotes, it's different. once again, the power of prayer is the only weapon we have against these things. even if these unlucky or bad things happen to us, we should not be angry on God. he means only the best for us, and probably made us experience this event to learn from it and move on as better persons. so i give my thanks to God for giving me these lessons in life, and i'll move on and be a better person. lastly, we should tell everyone we love that we love them every single day. we never know when our time is up in this world.

to everyone i know, don't text or call me using my old number anymore. it's obviously not going to help you. oh, and for questions on the upcoming trip here, just email me or something. thank you for your understanding. i hope you all have a good day.

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

brought back to life...

2005-03-27T09:03:00.000+08:00

as the holy week ends, we pause to reflect on the lenten season and see if we have done what we have come to done, and accomplished the goals we set at the beginning of lent. hopefully you guys have accomplished your own goals.

today is easter sunday. it is interesting to reflect and realize that about 2000 years ago today, jesus christ resurrected from the dead and fulfilled his mission on earth. he saved us from sin, and restored us to life. call it the filipino tradition, but we filipinos were accustomed to various events before this very sunday to pray to God and join in his pain and suffering. we usually go to the holy week activities that are there every year for us to take part in this holy experience. but i've noticed that in the past few years, more and more people disregard the activities of holy week, and instead party until the night ends. even if they are catholics, they forget what God has done for us, dying on the cross and being put to all those miserable and painful experiences. i just hope that we continue to respect and honor this week and not act as wild people during this period.

anyway, i spent this tuesday and wednesday just hanging out in front of the computer chatting and surfing the net. i'd like to give my thank you(s) to samga and isaw for keeping me sane during those 2 hours of harry potter madness. hahaha. at least you guys kept me out of the neopets scene for a while. thank you once again for that enlightening conversation. i learnt a lot concerning hp hehe. thursday, we had our annual bisita iglesia, where we went to different churches. this time; however, we toured the laguna churches instead of the usual tour of manila. it was a great experience going around laguna to find churches we had never seen before. amazingly, they have a lot of beautiful architectural churches as well, built at the time of the spanish regime. i didn't realize that they had those churches until i saw them. anyway, we got to 7 churches while passing through calamba, los banos, pagsanjan, paete, and antipolo, among other places. we practically went around the entire laguna de bay going from the expressway to antipolo then back. it was again a magnificent experience, getting to travel and praying at the same time. we even got to stop over in caliraya, in the village where we have a lot in. we ate there for lunch. it was nice seeing caliraya again for the first time in over a year. i visited a whole bunch of places and that made me extremely happy. friday, my cousins were here and we just stayed at home during the day. we watched some movies like the passion of the christ and the greatest story ever told. we were to watch a lot more but then we ran out of time. it was good re-watching these flicks for they make you remember God's experiences in His life. yesterday, we went to tagaytay with my cousins and grandparents in the morning to have lunch in dencio's. it was great even if there was traffic, because the weather was cold and it was windy. it felt good to be experiencing the cool breeze as it hits you. it made us, especially our grandparents, savour the moment. then we bought some flowers and fruits along the way. we decided to go to town that day too, so we could do everything we needed to do that day and just attend mass today, easter sunday. we did just that, and we even got to watch miss congeniality 2. it was a nice movie. finally, we ate in tempura for dinner and then we went home.

easter sunday. i still remember before when we were still living in alabang, we used to go every year to the country club or to the place near tlc and participate in the easter egg hunt in those places early in the morning. we woke up at 5 and got to those easter egg hunts as soon as possible. it's fun remembering and reminiscing those moments in life where you were still a kid and you could do anything you wanted to enjoy yourself. hehe. it makes me miss being a kid, and doing those all over again. but again, as a teen, we get to do different kinds of things now. we could participate in many more activities that are worthwhile, so everything is not over. we just have to move on and do everything we can today so we wouldn't regret anything we didn't do now in the future.

these past days have indeed brought me back to life from my summer boredom. i have been to a lot of places and i have been able to pray and join in the ceremonies. i thank God for everything He has done for us, and of course, for not letting me be bored all the time at home, rotting as the days go by.

next week, starting tomorrow, we'll be back to summer-as-usual. only, this time, it would be better. i would get to move outside the house and go to town tomorrow, go to francis' house on tuesday, go badminton-ing on wednesday, and have a party from friday until saturday. activities at last. well anyway, that's it i guess, take care everyone. i hope you had a nice holy week.

reliving past moments..

2005-03-22T10:47:00.000+08:00

summer's here! i've finally felt its effect on me the past few days. the endless schoolwork has stopped and the after-school farewell parties have begun to slow down. summer's supposed to be a time for relaxation and fun. it's a break from all those activities you have to do during the schoolyear that make you nearly mad and stressed. it gives you the chance to catch up on your needed sleeping time and to do the easier things in life - play, read, watch tv, just stay at home and sleep, and the like. the things you couldn't quite do before because it was simply just too hectic could be done. lastly, its a time to relax and simply go out with your friends, go to the mall, or play outside because of the good weather.

well, unfortunately my summer has been dull so far. i haven't been out anywhere aside from the usual farewell party and weekend family outings to the supermarket. but of course, it's just the start of the summer. there'll be plenty more weeks to go before it ends. i have to schedule my summer well though, as i might not realize the days pass and i might not plan enough outings. haha. also, i haven't signed up for any summer program yet. there's always the thought of joining badminton or basketball or a new clinic, but the problem is actually finding one and joining up for it. i'm too lazy to do that. hahaha. i miss my tennis, badminton, and swimming clinics before. for the first time, i didn't have a summer program last year. i rotted at home for 2 months. i hope that doesn't happen again this year. i guess we'll see how it turns out.

if you want to know what i've been doing all this time at home, its reading harry potter and watching my old pokemon movies and stuff plus watching all harry potter movies. hahaha. pretty boring, eh? i'm trying to remember all the past memories i had at home, and all my past favorites. i was addicted to pokemon when i was young-er, but of course, i got over it. i wanted something to do so i could relieve some of my boredom, so i decided to get all the movies and episodes i had bought before and watched them. lol. also, i am currently still in the process of reading harry potter 5. it's my favorite out of all the hp books, plus i'm getting ready for the next installment, when it comes out in june? yeah. i've already got my reservation, so i'm really excited! haha. anyway, reliving past moments is nice in a way, since it brings me back to memories of my childhood as well as my old home. it's fun and enriching at the same time.

holy week has started. we're at holy tuesday now. anyway, we attended the palm sunday mass last sunday, and we bought the palms as usual. but they didn't get blessed ='(. we were on top of the church and the priest didn't go up to our place so it never got blessed with holy water. sad. well anyway, it's been more than 30 days since lent has began, and a few days are left. sadly, i haven't been able to complete my lenten sacrifice. i kept on forgetting that it was a friday and meat wasn't allowed. T_T. i failed this lent, and i'm terribly sorry. sorry lord, i'll make up for it. well anyway, there are 3 more days until good friday, and 2 more days until holy thursday where we'll do visita iglesia again. i actually have fun going around manila to different churches. hehe. it's going to be nice out of the house again.

i expect to be back to the usual gimmicks next week. i hope i could go to rodney's house next week or to town to watch a movie. lol. i haven't done that in a while. oh yeah, and april 1-2's still there. i really hope people come, even if they're not allowed to stay overnight. a day would do. hehe. for more details, just visit the soph-c site or text me. anyway, take care everyone, have a happy summer! hope it's not as boring as mine! haha.

it's all good in the end..

2005-03-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

before the farewell party that was held at 5 pm, i first went to school in the morning to meet up with rodney and go with him to his house along with alfred. we spent the day there waiting for the people to finish the alg exam and taking pictures after. we watched some lsyc people shoot hoops while we were waiting for rod's car. then we went to his home, watched him play neopets and chat, i read hp5 for a while while getting harrassed by pillows, then finally, we watched constantine while texting people. after all this, we ate yellow cab for merienda and then changed for the party. it was weird changing to sleeping attire before going to a party. haha. we stopped by tropical hut first to buy ice cream and m&ms for the party that night. finally, we arrived at michael's house at around 5:45 pm.

as we arrived, we found out that we were one of the first people to arrive. we took some pictures while waiting, and finally people started arriving. groups and groups of people came, while we just strolled around and waited to be complete. we started the party at around 7:30, when bea came. lol. 35 of us were there, almost the whole class actually, so it was nice. awarding ceremonies started it off, and i got the "nakakagigil award" and the "controversial seatmates award". lol, it was fun to hear out everyone's awards as they were all funny. anyway, we ate dinner outside and armwrestled for a while. the whole night was filled with picture sessions. after eating, the main part of the party came, it was the um, i don't know what it was called. it was when we would honor people for everything they have done the past year and of course, many people cried. we passed this piece of string to everyone that was mentioned, connecting each to one another. everyone got emotional, and i myself was holding back tears when miss said that she was going to be in the same classroom next year but with different faces in it. when it was done, we hugged each other and said our farewells. when miss rogador went away, the fun started. some danced, some drank till they did stuff(haha), while we played patintero outside, and played cards inside. there was also singing as we sang in the magic sing for a while before i had to go. i went home relatively earlier than my other classmates, and i wished i could have stayed longer, long enough to see the effects of people getting drunk. haha.

as i reflect on the party, i realize that in the end, everything would be good. there would still be laughs, and everything isn't over. it's not the end of our lives. we are going to miss everyone in the class, but we'll still get to see them. things that have bothered our lives from the beginning could be changed. i realized that after everything we had this year, we are happy and things turned out well, there was a good ending. the farewell party was a perfect end to our schoolyear, as we got to say goodbye to everyone, and let them know what we felt.

going to sarah's house after leaving practice was fun. we played cranium, the worst situation thingy game, and watched duplex. i even got to play badminton with sarah outside her house after, hehe. thanks for everything sarah, especially all the food lol. chocolates, cake, corned beef and spam! hahaha.

we weren't able to play in graduation after all. we were supposed to have practices last wednesday, thursday and friday to prepare for the graduation held today. i didn't attend the first practice since i was in rodney's house preparing for the farewell party. well anyway, few people came thursday and friday. ms. valencia cancelled us playing in the graduation because she didn't want us to get embarrased, she didn't want to risk the name of the orchestra, few people attended the practices, and she didn't think we had enough practice to play. oh well, it sucks that i didn't get to see them graduate, but at least i got a good night's sleep last night.

food poisoning has been rampant over the past week hasn't it? hmm, i'm astonished that even our own school had been victim to bad food. what could this mean? i don't know. whee. just be careful of everything you eat ok? it's best to be very cautious.

belated happy birthday to dainie!

to all s-c: april 1-2 here! hehe. punta kayo para masaya =)

happy graduation nga pala to the grade 7 students and the seniors. to the ones who'll be hs next year, see you. and to those who'll go to college, i hope you have a great time, and take care. we'll miss you guys in zobel.

life is truly unpredictable

2005-03-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

don't you agree? we people try to understand life on earth and predict everything that might happen but you can never fully make a correct conclusion. in chemistry we learn all sorts of predictions, we learn how to make substances and predict their weights and their probable effect. the scientists try to perfect the processes, but in real life, that could never be done. anything could happen.

take my experience last night. i was chatting, hoping to get a good night's sleep for a day in the house today when suddenly, i get a message from bea saying that they're going to play badminton in school. i thought that i would be spending the day just chatting, blog-hopping, reading hp5, and watching tv, but sure enough, fate intervened. instead, i spent the rest of the night making arrangements for the badminton thing in school.

when i arrived in school this morning, i called up my classmates and asked them where they were. i got no answer from most of them so i thought that they didn't push through or that they were late. i didn't want to be alone in school during exam week so i first went to my mom's office to drop her off then returned to zobel, arriving an hour later. to my surprise, i saw a lot of my classmates there wearing civilian. it turns out some of them were doing our clearances, while the others were just there to um..not be at home and die of boredom? lol. anyway, we never did get to play badminton in school since everyone was busy, and due to the circumstances of there being an ilc (international leaders conference?) meeting, some of my friends weren't there. it was as if my whole day was wasted because of me going to school. well, not entirely, because..ehem..nevermind. haha. but then as usual, there was a backup plan. after the ilc meeting, francis' parents agreed to let us go to his house. again, my day was totally thrown off course to an entirely new direction. we watched constantine and played basketball in francis' house. i was beaten in 1 on 1 by francis, woohoo, good for you. haha. at least i finally got to play and practice again, yay. we had the adobo and the tuna sandwiches, yummy. lol. the only setback from the day was me getting a blister on my finger from the basketball. haha, but it's ok, at least it'll eventually heal. i came home today satisfied.

this summer will truly be unpredictable. there are so many events that i need to schedule, and so many more to come. i hope to enjoy my summer this year so c'mon! plan, plan, plan! hahaha. i also hope that i'll be able to schedule everything in an orderly manner so no overlapping would occur. i don't want to miss anything as much as possible. hehe. oh yeah, tentative schedule for the party in my house is april 1-3. hehe. btw, what would be a good summer class to take up?

to all sc, see you tomorrow at michael's place! hehe. i still don't know what to wear. help please.

oh, lastly, happy birthday leanne! =)

i still can't get over you...

2005-03-13T14:06:00.000+08:00

since yesterday, i've seen a lot of people blog about their year, and how they've had so much fun during the school year. the three blogs that caught my biggest attention were elaine's, chio's, and kristine's. after reading all of them, i said to myself, what have we done for God to bless us with such a beautiful class? there have been so many memories to cherish, treasure, and relish this year. i wouldn't have ever predicted that this year would have been what it had been. allow me to take you back to the things i am thankful for this year.

when i first came to sophomore-c, i thought that it would be a normal year, just like the previous years, with new classmates, and losing a lot of old classmates. i arrived seeing that the classroom was flooded, and that the aircon wasn't working. gee, i thought, is this a sign of things to come? then i realized that many of my former classmates were coming back to the honor section since a lot of people that were supposed to be in our class decided to switch sections. as we got to know each other, i realized that this class wasn't the same class that had been there the previous years. we were filled with many new people, each having their own personalities. the year pretty much continued that way, with each of us trying to get along with everybody and get to know them better. the year continued with us having a lot of ups and downs. i considered it a big blessing that we were winning so many awards, and i was amazed that God loved us so much. whenever we were given a contest, we responded to the call and gave it our all. the many different personalities in class came together and had teamwork. we offered everything we did to God. with the help of our adviser, we became very active in prayers, often singing praise songs and many of us participating in religion-related groups such as lsyc and yfc (i consider not joining in at least one of these as a wasted blessing). we used these as an inspiration to go forward, and these helped us win the contest we were joining. success was there for us at all times, because of our drive and passion. we never gave it up, even if it seemed as if we couldn't do anything anymore. i loved this characteristic of our class so much. when the last subject of the school year ended, i was almost in tears as i said goodbye to people, hugging them and waving, and i took a mental photograph of the class as one, visible group, just having a happy time. i wouldn't forget this picture until the day i die. then, i came to wonder what is in store for the class next year, with us parting ways. i just hope it would be at least half as good as this year.

i had so many memories this year. some were bad, but most were good. we had so many laughs, and some of the cries, but all of these formed us together as one. even if there were so many hardships along the way, homeworks and projects and friendship problems, i believe that i was fortunate to be part of this class, and experience all the things that i had experienced during the year. we were able to get through all the obstacles given to us and tackle them with might. yesterday night, i dreamt of being there once more, to the practices, the meetings for projects, the gimmicks, the parties, and everything else. i remembered and recounted on all the things we did this year. i reminisced on the times we had together and how our class seemed to be almost perfect. after all of these, i smiled and thought, "what have i done to deserve such happiness?"

to all my sophomore c classmates, thanks so much for all the memories you have shared with me. thank you for being there for me every step of the way. even though you always tease me and stuff, hehe, i had a lot of fun during the year, and i wouldn't give it away for anything. i wouldn't make this specific anymore, because you know who you special people are anyway. through the tough times and the happy times, these people made my life great and complete this year: monique, mariel, bea japan, mark b, hannah, chio, isaw, kat, johann, kristine, dom, sam, jebi, martin, michael, alan, elaine, jackie, dainie, gliza, steph, angeline, mel, rodney, jenny, karen, manda, sam, steph, stephen, cara, francis, sarah, mark s, beaaa, steven, ramona, alfred, binky, ms. rogador. thank you. i will always treasure you guys in my hearts.

to all those that would go away next year, i would miss you all. i loved every moment that we were together this year. hope we could continue to go out and have fun even if we are not classmates anymore. oh, balik kayo ng 4th year ha. promise niyo yan, hehe.

I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby
I want something else
I’m not listening when you say
Good-bye

*btw, happy birthday eibee.

there are some things money can't buy..

2005-03-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

the ever so repetitive line in mastercard's commercial is true. there's just some things in this world that money cannot buy. regular classes in school just ended today, and i realize that our class will never be the same. the faces that were in our class today are not going to be the same faces i would see in next year's class. it won't be the same at all. i'm so sad that people have to go to other sections, as we would miss them SO much. this has been the best year ever, and the people in our section completed each other. it was the dream section. sigh. i felt so weird and sad the moment i realized that when we left the room, that was the last time we would ever see each other in the same classroom at the same time ever again for at least 1 more year. i will terribly miss all of you, hope you all come back when senior year comes. keep in touch over the summer and next school year ha! =) dance chio and kristine! dance! =))

anyway, as i said before, regular classes are over. the seemingly never-ending projects are over, with just algebra as an exception, to be submitted on monday. but nevertheless, it's done. exemptions have been given, and i'm glad that i'm exempted in all subjects. i consider exemption as a blessing from God so i have no plan of taking any exam, however high or low my class standing is. speaking of class standings, i pretty much got what i wanted this year. even though english, chem, and fil went down from last term, i could only feel joy now as i enter the weekend. i feel so free of all the burden i had on my back this past year in terms of school work. thank god for helping me get through that hardest week of school. i feel so relieved.

overall, i feel that this year has been filled with ups and downs, and it was bitter-sweet in a way. sophomore year was a great year for me, as it was the best year for us in terms of competitions. we won so many awards. we did everything we could using our best. we gave everything our all. but most of all, we had so many fun experiences. through all the problems, soph c had a great and strong relationship, that could never be broken by anyone.

summer's coming fast. i could feel it in the heat burning our bodies at noon time. times are changing once again. next year, we'll be juniors. it'll all be different. my classmates, my teachers, my lessons. it will definitely be another adventure in my life. but i promise you this, i won't forget anything i experienced this year. the memories would always be in my heart. thanks once again soph-c, you have been the best classmates i've ever had, and the good friends i would treasure forever. for this, the message is true, there are just some things that money could NEVER buy. =)

oh btw, good luck to martin and stephen. have a safe and happy trip to the states. we'll miss you on wednesday. take care. oh, i'll see soph-c on wednesday. see yah. =)

struggling to finish..

2005-03-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

aaah. 2 more days. 2 more projects. life couldn't be more hectic.

for the first time this school year, i feel like going crazy because of school work. we have submitted our chem portfolio, cl project, and english project. we still have to submit our t.h.e. project and algebra powerpoint presentation project though over the last 2 days of regular classes. i hope we could finish all on time. God help us.

anyway, this week, i have felt numb. numb from all the work given to us. in a way, it is good. i'm happy knowing that there would be no more projects next week, and there would no longer be sleeping problems. 2 nights ago, i slept at 2 am. that was the latest time i have slept ever on a school night. i ended up waking up at 5:30 am that morning, and wound up groggy all throughout the rest of the day. i went to sleep at 11:30 yesterday finishing the cl project, again another late sleeping day for me. oh, and the cl project didn't look that good, waah. sorry groupmates, i did a bad job. anyway, today, we did the algebra graphs in chio's house. after lots and lots of time of trying to fix all the bugs and changing errors, we finished the graphs part on time. tomorrow, the last meeting in chio's house for the schoolyear would be held so we could finish the last project. hehe.

the humorous public speaking was held yesterday. it was fun hearing the people make jokes and stuff. haha. lots of intermissions were done. oh, and that script thing never really did work out. haha. we should've known. uli oposa won 1st, aaron pagaduan 2nd, and ashley de leon 3rd. congratulations to you guys. oh, special mention goes out to dom. congrats man, thanks for representing our class! go go go! haha. you're one brave soul. thanks.

rodney batch # 4 was made today. we didn't get to see it in the making though as we were doing the algebra proj in chio's house while rodney did it on his own. batches 1, 2, and 3 all had their flaws. i wonder if this one's perfect? haha. i hope miss chetty likes our recipe. please God.

anyway, 2 exemption slips were given today. (oh wait, yesterday na pala, its already 12 am.) hehe. i'm happy with my trig and algebra grades. thank you God for answering my prayers. i hope the other subjects are okay, and i'm wishing for the best in filipino. i hope i'm exempted in everything, since i don't think i can take another LONG test next week. im too deep into summer mode.

in other news, rob and amber got 1st in the 2nd episode! woohoo! oh, and kimi finished 8th in the race. waah. hope he could do better next time. go mclaren! haha. anyway, that's it, take care everyone, enjoy the last days in school. =) i'll miss you all this summer! especially my classmates from sophomore c. this has been the best year yet!

too many homeworks, too little time.

2005-03-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

gahd. i can't post a long blog today, sorry. i don't think i can till the end of the week because of too many projects dumped on us. imagine finishing 6 projects in a span of 4 days. hehe. anyway, right now, im trying to do 3 at the same time. woohoo. go go go. anyway, 4 days of school remaining, hope you guys make the most of it. take care everyone =)

oh, i'll post our class picture here. hehe. aren't we cute? =))

haha. have a nice day.

a flash of light, a burst of speed...

2005-03-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

this sucks. it's already the last week of school and it's becoming the worst weekend of my sophomore year life. not only do we have to do 5 projects in a span of 4 days, but we also have a long test and a lot of quizzes to go. grr, i hate this. it's too hectic to handle. i thought we were going to have a nice end of the school year by relaxing. i, in fact, was already in summer mode, when all the hysteria started. but with a sudden flash, everything changed. it's scary to think of it actually, how the teachers could suddenly change like that. whoo.

oh. lcle. learner structured learning program. it's something the school adopted, and apparently, other la salle schools are also using the program now at full-blast. teachers are being trained on how to make powerpoint presentations, and how to make these worksheets. they claim that the purpose of this program is to make our schooling more practical and bring the lessons to the real world problems, so that we could learn MORE. well i say it's never going to work. first of all, using the lcle worksheets every week would be SOO expensive, and it would practically consume all the trees. it would be hard work for the teachers and the students alike, and it would eat up the time for normal lectures. the purpose of having teachers would be negated, as they would just be handing out worksheets to students, instead of teaching lessons using the old method - the blackboard. then, lets not forget the issue of time. we only have 1 hour per subject, and using these worksheets often take the whole period. now what would we learn from worksheets? are we supposed to use our stock knowledge only? that's what's happening so far. we aren't learning much from this method. well, those are my OPINIONS on this new program that they're thinking of implementing. i think they should think twice before they start making this the curriculum. plus, i don't think i'll pass next year if they use this LCLE thing. T_T. good luck to all.

anyway, formula one season got underway this morning. yay! something to watch again every two weeks. i'm a car lover, so i love f1 a lot. haha. sorry. i'm certainly interested whenever someone talks of racing. i love the games, i love watching them, and everything. their speed is what amazes me a lot. imagine someone going at 4 G's while in a car, trying to turn a corner so tight, at 300kph. whoo. its exciting just watching, imagine how it feels to be in an actual f1 car. haha. when i watch them, it's like they pass the screen so quickly. hence, the title of my blog. haha. they flash right in front of your eyes. f1 is just great. =)

one more thing, love's like a flash of light as well. one moment you think you're happy, then *bam*, it turns around on you. it's always there. change. but we've got to learn to move on. being depressed is not good. it makes you weak everywhere, and once your inspiration becomes negative, then everything else follows. one thing i always remember from her is to think positive. that's what i admire her the most for. she's happy all the time, and deals with problems so well. i hope i could be like that as well. being pessimistic is my "thing", sometimes i even consider it to be my greatest positive. but sometimes, you really have to get over it and just be happy. be happy for you are still alive, and be happy for your friends and family. move on, and run the race of life once again. you never know, things might change for the better again. hehe.

at least, i hope things get better for the homeworks. they're just so many, hope i could finish them. *hoping* haha. good luck with the final week everyone.

race against time

2005-03-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

time. so important. the quote is right, time is gold.

well, we could relate to this now that everything seems to be time-pressured in our school activities. since it's basically the last 1 1/2 week of school, teachers have given out their wrath to all of us. projects galore. we have our t.h.e. project, english project, chem portfolio, and algebra project. and guess what, they're all scheduled to be submitted next week! whoo. this means major cramming during the weekend and the rest of the week next week. sigh, and i thought i could relax already. i guess you can never really be in summer mode even if there's just a week of school left. haha.

time is gold. in our english presentation, we were told that we have to pass our script tomorrow so that the judges for the humourous speaking contest could see who has the best script. it couldn't have come at a better time, now that we have to do an ultra long filipino homework to be submitted tomorrow, and a lot of homeworks dashed out to us for us to gag and panic. whee. how are we supposed to make a script (a funny one) in time for tomorrow. i really admire those who are making the script right now. thanks gliza, thanks a lot. and to the people who are helping, if there are any, thanks. we owe a lot to you.

all the subjects are cramming and trying to get all the final lessons and activities included. even if it's lcle week, tests are still being given out everyday, much to our delight (T_T). oh, and lcle isn't that much fun either, it's making me explode. haha. i really hate that kind of curriculum. i hope they don't use it next year. anyway, tests are still being scheduled until now, even if next week is supposed to be review week. there's even a cl long test scheduled T_T. weird, i don't recall her giving any FORMAL lesson to us, and yet, she decides to give us a long test. whoo, go her! oh, some subjects are just helpless. especially the special subjects. haha, i feel bad for them. we don't have art tomorrow because of the mass, oh, and we might not have pe either NOOOO. oh well. the only thing i'm glad of is that we didn't have t.h.e. this week and we wont have a practical test. thank god. anyway, i just hope we can get through all these activities without a scratch. sleep well everyone, and try to get at least 6 hours of sleep for your own sakes.

i watched the first episode of the new series of the amazing race yesterday. it took 2 hours, and i got to sleep at 12 T_T. lack of sleep. haha. anyway, it was fun, it brought me back memories of survivor, when i was still watching the series, because rob and amber were there. haha. go them! of course, i got the title of the post from here. racing against time, trying to be first in everything. you never want to be behind or late for anything. it's one of my mottos in life. haha. anyway, that's it, i'm too tired. i want to sleep. whee. gnyt everyone.

nagdurusang kaluluwa

2005-03-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

hey everyone. as you can see from the title, im a wreck right now. agh. anyway.

here's the pic of yaps and johann from last monday's concert. lol, fun.

whoo. anyway, today was filled with lots of activities. we had a quiz in ap, in fil, and another double period chem session. whee. luckily, they gave us free time during music. yehey. we were able to review our fil and ap notes and were able to share some stories during music time. i even left my flute there for the first time..EVER. lol. im weird. haay. anyway, after computer, we had a weird algebra session. lcle of course, so we had to answer another worksheet and then go to the comlab to go and answer a website quiz. T_T. as i said, we had an ap quiz which was a bit difficult. but it was ok in the end. oh, and someone's phone received a message in this period. lol, fun. in english time, i, along with bea japan, got picked on the HOT SEAT. T_T. embarassing for me of course, as they asked so many questions about my "private" life. haha. oh well, it was all fun anyway, no harm done i guess. lunch time was spent reviewing for fil and going to the chapel to pray. then we had a fil quiz and our long test results were released. i got 41/50. i guess thats ok, its an average in class anyway, haha. finally, we had double period chem. we just discussed about limiting reactants and percent yield and the like, along with some adlib stories along the way. hehe. basically that was school, nothing too special.

sigh. this is sad. why is it that i'm always like this? i just hate myself so much for everything i do in my life. it's so wrong. gah. when will i start to have some confidence in my life? when will i face life's realities? why can't i do it now? T_T. i've sworn to myself that i'd change this year, but no, it hasn't happened. i'm just too weak. i hate this. i pray to god everyday that hopefully, i can have a better relationship with this person, and that i'd have the strength to be normal. but no, it just hasn't reflected in my actions. my brain always stops me. i just wish my brain would act like it does in academics when i'm in the real world. what am i supposed to do now? it's been so long, and i'm still the same guy. there's a voice inside my head which wants to kill me for i have done nothing. now im too ashamed to even do anything anymore. i fear that she hates me. everything seems so vaugue (spl sorry). i feel like a lower form of being when around her. it's these times when i usually try to sleep it off and forget it. but i can't now. so much for my new year's resolution. how pathetic. im a sad, sad, pathetic man. hopeless.

encore

2005-03-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

a lot of things went by these past few days. it's been a blur. all of a sudden, all the concerts are through, we're on our last holiday, and then tomorrow, we're back once again to the reality of school life. oh well. but at least there's only 2 weeks left of regular classes. although, again, i'll miss every single one of my classmates in the summer. i hope we could go out and stuff, and of course, have a good farewell party. hehe.

last sunday, we went to mass at 10:00, and it was once again the "filipino spoken" mass. i can't fully understand what the priest and people are saying when it's a filipino mass. it's hard for me to understand the words because some of them are really complicated and deep. but at least i got the LONG gospel. hehe. anyway, after that, we went to tagaytay for lunch at rsm lutong bahay? the band that goes around to all the tables sang THE EXACT SAME SONGS that were sung in the concert last wednesday. they were huwag na huwag mong sasabihin and torn. lol. after eating, we bought a mmp from yellow cab then went home at around 3 pm. we were lucky there were no hard homeworks, and we only had to finish the t.h.e. first draft.

on to the day of the concert. we were in the classroom for homeroom time, before we had practice. and um, while we were busy compiling our t.h.e. drafts and submitting them to ms. sison, the morning ceremony suddenly started before we even got out of the classroom. there was apparently no 2nd bell, so we were in shambles in our classroom. ms. rogador gave us the silent treatment after that, but hopefully, she doesn't take this until the end of the school year since it would be a real waste of a good year if we end in bad terms.

anyway, we then had our practice until 4:30 pm. we basically had a walk-through and a run-through (lol) of the routine. i got to try out the saronay and i learned some of the ethnic group's part in their routine. hehe, it was nice. the dabakan (spl?) beat got stuck in my head, and we played it during practice using tables (our own version) lol. basically, the day was like that, more of free time and stuff. we were then allowed to change attire and eat. (i was really hungry during this time) i desperately sought for food around the music hallway and i got 1 breadstick and 1 prawn chip. lol. i went to the canteen praying for food, and luckily, i got knick knacks and another pack of breadsticks! whoo. there was nothing more to buy, so i had to settle for that. haha. then we met up with the ethnic group and got pictures there.

we practically took pictures and talked until the concert started at 6.

then, we were called up to our positions. the violins played the prayer and then the orchestra played lupang hinirang. the different groups played next. the ethnic ensemble played 3 songs, then the rondalla group played, then the faculty chorale sang, and then the hs/gs chorale sang. after that, the strings, starting with the string quartet, played, then the chamber orchestra played, and afterwards, the string orchestra played my immortal and seasons of love. it was then time for us to come back. the orchestra played harry potter, iris (sang by david webb and la arquero), pangarap ko ay ibigin ka (sang by anna oposa), when you believe (sang by the chorale), and finally musika (sang by the chorale and with the rondalla). we ended with the alma matter song. after the strings left, sir tom approached us and then said we had to play free ride. lol. it was like an encore. it was fun, and we even stood up at the last part. haha.

i ate at max's soon thereafter, then we went home. (i gained a pound! i'm not eating much today, that's for sure). haha.

to the seniors, thanks for all the memories. we will miss you in the band next year. we'll never be the same again. haha. see you around!

argh, we have homework in filipino. that'd take me the entire day to finish. gahd. oh, and there's a quiz tomorrow. nooo. T_T

oh btw, happy birthday dom! haha.

murdering mosquitoes are fun

2005-02-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

hello. see the title? well it all started in rodney's house yesterday. i went there at around 3 pm to do our t.h.e. first draft. i was a little late arriving at his home since i had to wait for my mom to come back from an event in la mesa dam and i was a little lazy in taking a bath. lol. i just downloaded some computer stuff like this maxthon browser and some other things. haha. anyway, when i got to rodney's home, he was playing ragnarok. adik kasi eh. i spent an hour reading noli me tangere while he was continuing with his playing time. haha. then, we started on our project. we did most of it, but we didn't get to finish it since jebi has the answers to the background of the title and well, he's in the father and son camping right now. haha. so, we'll have to wait for him to come back pa tomorrow. oh well.

oh yeah, rodney ordered from yellow cab yesterday, but we only got to order the cheese pizza since it was a day of abstinence. hehe. the food was of course, good, i mean, it's yellow cab. we ate for around 40 minutes while killing those mosquitoes with our hands and the purple light thing. it was fun, especially when rod caught the mosquito then "offered" it to the light to go to it's FINAL DESTINATION. lol. either it burned and exploded to heaven or burned and fell on the floor, suffering till it died and went to hell. hahaha. weird. anyway, it was fun to kill those bothersome mosquitoes, after all, that's all we could talk about. haha. we ran out of stories to tell.

so anyway, the rest of the day was spent with me reading noli me tangere and rodney continuing with his ragnarok addiction. funny "worms" or um those mud things. tama ba rodney? basta ganon. haha. then i went home at around 8:30 and just surfed the net until i got too sleepy to continue.

today was more of the same, i just read noli (sorry, wala kasi akong magawang iba) haha. hmm, blog hopping rin, because that's all i could do right now, stuck at home.

oh, our concert is coming up on monday. i haven't practiced yet, i'm too lazy to. haha. maybe tomorrow na lang, though i hope i have time because i think we'll be going to tagaytay after the mass. oh well. and as for our t.h.e. project, hopefully jebi arrives tomorrow and we could finish it a.s.a.p. that's all. see yah.

lastly, happy birthday binky! 16 ka na pala, congrats, pwede ka na mag drive. lol. lucky you.

..coz it's all about you, it's all about you Jesus...

2005-02-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

that line is from the song/prayer that miss rogador and miss aldea sang in the opening of our concert. it got stuck on my head, and well, i like the song. lol. whee. and it makes me feel better, knowing that God is there to guide me and help me through problems. haha, sabog ko talaga.

anyway, the english humorous speaking contest didn't push through as planned. our class and another class from our batch backed out and sir viroomal thought it was best to call it off for the day, so hmm, oh well. hope they don't blame us for it not commencing. haha. the only good thing was all my fears from the algebra subject faded when we didn't have a lesson. thank god. anyway, we took our computer and chem quizzes today. i gotta say that i totally sucked on the computer quiz, gahd. stupid mistake. the chem quiz was ok, hard at first, but i guess i did ok, or at least, i hope. hmm.

highlight of the day was when we went from computer class to the new t.h.e. building for its "opening". sad to say we already desecrated the building from the first day of its operation. you see, when we cooked, we were rushing since we had to make our german class on time and there were paascu people observing that day. we were the first to use the lab and yet, we just washed the dishes and put them back into the shelves wet. i think other plates weren't even washed. lol, so someone said the lab had cockroaches running around already. so nice. haha. anyway, we were in the pictures as sir sagum cut the ribbon, then we were the ones who opened the building and exhibit. haha. we got to see our works such as the posters and flash ads, as well as the music videos from the freshmen level. whee.

club time didn't push through as planned, instead, we just went to the performing arts theater and watched the grade school strings play their recital. haha. we were treated to minuet songs and stuff, those piano pieces i played. haha, it really shows that i suck in the piano. cant even play the minuet well, weird. stupid fingers. haha.

well that's it. we have to do our t.h.e. project tomorrow. we're stuck at 2 members (i and rodney) because jebi's at father and son and chio's at shangrila hotel. lol. so good luck to us, but at least we have a recipe and procedure already. hooray. going to rodney's house tomorrow for the project (hint: twin peaks) =)) whoo, alright, tc everyone. =)

..kabataan ang susi ng musika

2005-02-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

there are only 2 and a half weeks left until the regular school year ends and finals start. thankfully, the chemistry ip defense and the grueling practical stuff in t.h.e. are cancelled already. we won't have to suffer anymore, yehey. of course, teachers are cramming to fit all of their tests in time before the school year ends. oh well, at least sophomore year is almost done, yehey. but i'll miss all my classmates from this year, it has surely been one of the most magical years of my life. thanks for all the memories we've experienced. we have 2 more weeks to go though, so let's make the most of it. =)

in other news, the title of the post is the theme of our week-long music festival. all of the musical groups would have concerts spanning 1 week. the gs/hs chorale played yesterday, we played earlier, the violins shall play tomorrow, and the finale concert is on the 28th. we invite you to go to our concert on the 28th. hehe.

the concert today was more successful than the concert a year before, in my opinion. we played better this year, and rehearsed more, i think. haha. well anyway, we had a whole day of practice in the cpa theater. we practiced along with the jammers. after all preparations, the concert began at 6 pm. it was fun, we got to play songs such as free ride, the drummer, louie louie, you raise me up, and lilo and stitch. we were also entertained by the jammers and the gs beginning band. overall, it was a good event. one person that really caught our attention was martha singson. she was the drummer in "the drummer" piece. she was a really good drummer. whoo. clap clap. oh and of course, dancing to "chicken dance" is just great. LOL.

by the way, elections were yesterday. absolute won straight. hehe. congratulations for them. i never really got to go to the miting de avance since we were practicing for the concert so um, i don't really have a clear reaction to that win. but oh well, good for the people who won. haha. hope you guys do a good job next year.

english competition's tomorrow, hope mark salvan wins! lol. go mark. last competition na ito, we could do it! hehe.

life gives us many problems that we have to deal with. they make us depressed and down at times, but one thing i realize is that we've got to learn to get over these problems and just think positive. we shouldn't let ourselves be more depressed by crying over our problems and keeping everything inside. instead, we should do activities that would make us forget the problems and just concentrate on the good things you have. music is one way of letting go of these. life has been given to you by God, and you should cherish every moment of it. hehe, wala lang. just wanted to post that. take care everyone.

woohoo!!!

2005-02-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! yay, this is my first post at my blogger account. im not going to make this blog long, so if you want to see what happened to me from january onwards, and you feel like reading novels, just click here. anyway, on to the real blog

the sophomore night was yesterday, and it was way fun. after dismissal, francis and i waited for my ride so that we could go to town to shop for clothes. my mom arrived at around 5 and we finally went to town. we went around and around and ended up where we came from - people are people. we met mark, jebi, and michael there and francis bought a blue shirt. meanwhile, my mom called me and i ended up buying a red shirt from guess. after that, we went to stephen's house to wash up and dress up for the party.

we came to school at around 6:50 and it seemed like we were one of the first who arrived lol. we saw steven alone inside and so we waited for others to come. chio and bea andaya came, and we talked outside. people started to come by the multitude, and finally, the party "started" at around 7:45. dinner was great! i had 2 servings, but couldn't cope up with dom. lol, he's a monster when it comes to eating. haha. miqui was there too, and joined us for the rest of the night. the bands in the sophomore level played (lol humphrey), while we played around and did the chair carrying thing. lol. then the dancing started.

different songs were played and everyone started to dance on the floor. the highlight was when "happy" was played and everyone jumped up and down. haha. it was fun. cupid cringle came and roses were distributed to the boys to give to their cringles. sadly, not many people came, so the roses were given to any girl. lol. then the dancing continued all throughout the night. i had to leave at 10:45 because my family was sick. but still, i had a lot of fun in the sophomore night. thanks to the parents association for making the event successful and entertaining!