memories and dreams in my small world

before it was officially announced, i didn't really care, probably because i never expected it to actually happen. as it was announced to the world using the sheet of paper, i never really grasped what was actually going to happen. i thought to myself, it's okay, i'm going to be happy in another place anyway, and it's not as if things are going to be all that different. plus, i thought of all the advantages the new rule would give us. but now, as i contemplate and reflect on the events that happened yesterday, i feel a sudden surge of sadness reverberating all over my body, and the sense of foreboding on the things to happen during the next few months. not having the high average class anymore totally changes my perspective of my next 2 years in high school. before, i thought that i could spend the next 2 years just like the previous happy hac's that came and graduated before us. they were happy, and they had this strong bond as they spent their final year togehter and graduated. there were tons of pictures, and a lot of albums filled with long term memories, from where they first started being friends all those years before. now i fear that i'm going to miss those things now that there is no more hac. i don't know, maybe all those dreams i had before could still happen with my new classmates in the future, but i just don't see the same emotions present there than in my dreams. i still remember all those years before, when i met my classmates in 4d for the first time. and through all those years, the core of that group was there, and we had a whole lot of memories together. we won contests, we went through difficult school work, both using teamwork, and of course, we also had our difficult times. i remember a lot of moments when we were together, often working together until night trying to finish projects, or just going out as friends to places to enjoy each others' company. i'm certainly going to miss all those moments with them, and the dreams that i have had with them, graduating together and stuff. i guess you just don't get what you dream of all the time.

report card distribution was yesterday. i wasn't surprised about my grades because they were all on the slips before i got out of school anyway. they were pretty much the same. we also got the rest of our class pictures yesterday. it was fun seeing my class once again, together. the crazy pics were funny as hell, haha. anyway, after going to school, we went to my mom's office and just hanged around starbucks for an hour while waiting for my mom to finish her meeting. i started reading the da vinci code again yesterday while waiting, and had a choco frap and oreo cheescake, yummy. then, we went to chowking for lunch and picked up my dad from his work. we then travelled to subic in the afternoon, for my mom's office outing. as we arrived in whiterock, we checked-in the hotel. i was the first to use the television in the room, and quickly turned the channel to cnn to watch the pope's funeral. it was a remarkable event, where tons of people went to see the pope for one last time and offer their last respects to him. i wish i could've been there. anyway, despite a lot of pleas from my mom to go to dinner, i finished the funeral. hehe. dinner came, and we were surrounded by a lot of ricoh employees. after eating, my dad and my siblings including me just strolled around the resort, and just viewed the stars up above while watching the soft movements of the water in the sea. we went to the room soon thereafter, and just watched tv until we finally slept at around 12 midnight. this morning, we went out to the beach and swam. it was the first time i got to be in a beach again in a year, and it was a great feeling. then we went to the swimming pool with the rocks in it. lol. basically, that was our experience in subic. we lacked time to do anything else, like beach volleyball, table tennis, or jetskiing. too bad. well, at least i got to swim again! yay.

my family has travelled together a lot of times before. we've had a lot of vacation trips to different places. i can still remember all those trips when i was young, when i cried as i fell to the rocky and slippery, wet ground in villa escudero, when my hair was taken by the monkey's hand and pulled in palawan, when i got chicken pox in puerto azul, and lots more. it's always nice to reminisce on these moments in your life where you had fun together. i even remember my previous subic trips. they were a lot-because our usual places of visit during summer are tagaytay, baguio and, subic. almost every year, we come back to subic and go to the yacht club, where we would swim in the night and pretend that the rocks were "crocodile swamp", filled with crocodiles just waiting to pounce on you. lol. i remember my wild imagination, as i often ran in the united states and pretended to be a wrestler fighting invisible characters, and running to the video cam while jumping and dancing wildly in front of it. lol. if you had just seen the videos. anyway, i love the times when our family would get together and spend time together, considering their work. they're busy in their work all the time, and we're busy in our school work pretty much most of the year. in fact, over the past couple of years, the demands of high school have taken their toll on our relationship. i haven't been able to come with them when they go to some places, due to the tons and tons of homework we're being pummelled with. i miss those times where my parents would say a day before a trip, "we're going to *insert place here* tomorrow" and no one would argue. now, it's not like that anymore. everyone has to confirm if they're available and if they don't have other things to prioritize. hmm, that was just a thought of mine.

so anyway, my dad's going to europe and america over the next couple of weeks. he's going tomorrow, at 7 am. he's going to be leaving the house at 4:30 i think. it's his annual trip there. he's going to visit that guy in spain they call "lolo". haha. it's pretty sad that he has to work everyday, and has little time for any "vacation-ing". but anyway, even though he's going to be tired for sure because of work and the plane rides, he's lucky he gets to visit all those places every year. it's like a yearly trip around the world. lucky him. haha.

having no cellphone is starting to become a burden for me. my list of phone numbers is obviously gone, so i'm clueless right now as to some of the people's numbers that i didn't get the chance to store in the computer. T_T. it's getting hard to tell people things too. i have to use my parents' phones just to tell people something. haha. but anyway, i'm learning to live with it and so far, nothing bad has happened to me without a phone. i just hope they help me get a phone soon. haha. in other news, my cousin's 7th birthday party is tomorrow. you know how parents value their kids' 7th birthday right? haha. well, tomorrow, they'll be doing just that to their daughter. the party's theme is about princesses and princes, and the whole kingdom thing. haha. they even gave out invitations that said "we invite you to the princess' party on april 10th at bla bla bla. from the king and queen." hahaha. it even went as far as having 7 roses and 7 um..somethings. lol. it was sort of funny, actually. well anyway, i'm sure it's going to be a special day for my cousin tomorrow. i wonder what i would do during that event though. maybe just eat. lol.

btw, it's phim's (pepe's brother) birthday tomorrow. lol. greet him a happy birthday. haha. happy birthday phim!