life's wonders (the good to the bad to the good)

um..so i was supposed to write a blog about my experiences the past 3 days and how boredom has finally slipped away from me, but then this whole thing comes along. as my lola said, "mahirap ang panahon ngayon eh." but i wonder, do we really deserve this kind of fortune and pain? what have we done to merit such bad luck? is it destiny that brought us to this situation? i guess those questions would never be answered.

oh whatever. anyway, i'm just going to briefly state what happened the previous days that made me ever so happy- a feeling i have forgotten ever so suddenly in a span of 5 minutes. last monday, i got out of the house again. i had a chance to go out and meet my friends in town to just relax and watch a movie, maybe to catch up on news in the past few weeks. chio, gliza, and i watched miss congeniality 2, with me watching it for the 2nd time. it was nice-again. i liked the first movie better though. gliza left, and we met up with rodney to just stroll around until we got to starbucks and hanged out there for a while. i had my choco frap and corn beef pandesal. johann arrived and we talked for a while until chio had to leave. he left, leaving us three to go to powerbooks. johann left soon afterwards and rodney gave me this anne rice book to read. haha. basically that was it, i went with my mom afterwards then went home soon thereafter. tuesday, i went to francis' house in the morning and we watched some channels in tv. mark brought the ps2 and we played tekken 5 and nba 2005. at the course of the best day of the summer, we played basketball in fran's backyard and just ate. it was fun and good to be exercising muscles again. basically that was it. i would've told you guys more about this great day but i just can't take my mind off today's events. anyway, today started with me going with my mom to school. i just stayed in school for a while while waiting for fran and mark. francis came and we went to get our clearances signed. thankfully, all of us were given clearance by sir delos santos even though our hair was unprepared for the test. we then came to town early and strolled around, waiting for the proposed movie we were going to watch later on in the day. we ate in the foodcourt, then strolled around again until we got to 1:15 pm.

this is the story. at 1:15 pm, i proposed to my classmates that we go inside powerbooks. they refused, and so we walked towards bizu. after talking about the high prices of food in dulcinea, some guy approaches us from behind and tells us that he is a member of a frat. he tells us that we don't have to join or anything and that this is merely a help to him since they have points for something..(drifting off, i didn't really listen much thinking that mark and francis knew what he was talking about). at that moment, i felt weird, and i wanted to get away as quickly as possible. little did i know it was FAR from over. he then instructs us to join him to mount mcdo to do the specific task (i dont know what damn it.) there. the other guys agree so i am forced to follow the guy reluctantly, sensing a great deal of danger in my gut. as we were walking, the guy was continually asking me if i was okay, probably sensing that i was reluctant to join him. i wanted to have a private conversation with my classmates to tell them what i felt, but it wasn't possible. i stayed away from the guy, feeling that if by any chance once we get out of town and kidnappers run towards us, i would have a headstart fleeing away. once we get outside, we meet another guy, another "neophyte" (which i don't think they are now) and they tell us to go inside mt. mcdo. at that point, i sense the reluctancy of all of us not to go inside for bad things might occur. we say no, but we're forced inside. they offer us drinks, we say no again, and yet they give us drinks. at that precise moment my heart was racing. how come they gave us drinks for free? i didn't believe that they were that good, expecting nothing in return-and sure enough, they weren't. their adviser talked to us about their frat's situation, about an event that happened to them a week ago (i, again, wasn't able to pick up/understand what they were saying. i thought mark and francis knew. so then they tell us this thing i never did understand, and said that mark and francis should go someplace to meet some people there, and then go back. they say that they'll have to leave their things to the guardkeeper, me, then i'd follow. they left me alone with some 5 guys, and there, i started to panic and get goosebumps all over. i kept on thinking if i should run or scream or call someone, but then they spoke so fast, i couldn't keep up. they told me to give all the phones, including mine, and all the wallets and watches to the other "guy", who they said was also like one of us, just someone they picked from the street to guard our things while we were away. I NEVER REALIZED THAT THIS WOULD BE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I WOULD MAKE. out of desperation to join mark and francis again, i do as i am told and go outside to "meet" the said people i would meet. they told me to go back to where we got picked up and meet people there. they said they couldn't come with me. then i realized, everything was gone. it was like brainwash. you never knew it was going to happen until it did. my nack of letting people boss me around got to me. our search efforts came up empty, of course, with no traces of any of them. it was like one of those news on tv, where someone would get tricked by these scammers and you'd say, "oh how stupid, if that were me, i would have never let them do that!" i guess i got my share of this today. my overwhelming trust in people was quickly shattered. now i don't think i'll ever trust anyone with my things anymore. i know the whole thing sounds stupid, that we were tanga and everything, and yes, i agree on many points. we agreed to join him in the first place, to an area of easy access on the roads, and believed everything they said. inexperience got to us. i thought that by pure wisdom, i would nail anyone trying to do this to us, but no, today, that didn't happen. maybe our brains turned off, or we were just ignorant of the things that were about to unfold right before our very eyes. stupidity.

i feel as if it was my fault that everything got lost. i didn't follow what my heart and guts and brains said to me, and i didn't do anything. i didn't realize what was going on until it was done. but most of all, i agreed to go with the ******* guy in the first place. i feel so guilty. i felt like i let down my friends, i lost all my pride, and most of all, i let down my parents, who always trusted me. i swore never to lose anything again after i lost my wallet in third grade. i feel so sad about letting them down. damn it. i promised myself in the past that i would NEVER EVER get into one of these situations, but no, not even the best of your preparedness could help you here. i just wish i could have done something to prevent this. grrr. to fran and mark: i'm sorry for following their orders in mt. mcdo. the only reason i did this was because of my panic and nervousness being alone with these unknown people. on the other hand, i'm thankful it didn't get worse. i never got kidnapped or hurt. i'm glad that they didn't gang up on me inside. i'm just thankful that i'm still here, blogging about this event.

i just can't believe this. probably, the reason why i am actually able to blog right now under these circumstances is because the matter hasn't fully dawned on me yet. oh, but it's most probably becuase i feel so relieved that i wasn't kidnapped or hurt during the event. i could only feel happiness that i am safe now, at home, with no one attempting to steal or hurt me in anyway. the sense of security at home is unbelievable. i just fear what would have happened if i had been kidnapped. what would happen to me? how would my family members react? and if i had been killed (God forbid) during the event, i wouldn't have expressed any of my last thoughts on how i felt to anyone i loved. my parents, siblings, family members, classmates, friends, to all i know, and her. that would have been the worst way to end one's life.

i told my mom what happened as soon as it did. i borrowed manda's phone and called her up, telling her what happened. i also had a long discussion with my driver about this. i realized every mistake i did. i analyzed everything i lost, and it summed up to about P10,000 pesos from the watch, the wallet, and cellphone. i also lost all my quotes, and special messages. and of course, i lost my pride along the way. i don't think my mom is angry at me, or maybe, not too much. i told her i realized everything and that i was stupid, and that i did not do everything i was supposed to do when things like these happen. this comes 2 days shy of the april 1 party here. i wish mark and francis could still come. how i wish we had only entered powerbooks, everything would have turned out different. but i guess that's life, you just got to deal with the punches.

i hate them so much. (the robbers) i hope they get what they deserve. why can't they be the ones killed in the tsunami? hmm. oh well. i guess God has a plan for each and one of us. this probably reminds us of how we should value every single thing in our life, and be thankful that we are still alive today. this is a learning lesson or experience for each and every one of us never to fall into the same trap ever again. also, we should learn to realize that nothing is permanent in this world, especially because i save every meaningful message i have in my cellphone, all the quotes i had wished to send in the future, probably on her birthday or the next valentines day, where i would probably may her know how much i like her. i also saved there every message i thought were special that came from her. i never wanted to give up my cellphone to anyone, not even my siblings. i guess that serves as a lesson, that the past is nothing, and what we have is the present. whatever we do now, that is the important thing. love isn't about keeping messages or sending quotes, it's different. once again, the power of prayer is the only weapon we have against these things. even if these unlucky or bad things happen to us, we should not be angry on God. he means only the best for us, and probably made us experience this event to learn from it and move on as better persons. so i give my thanks to God for giving me these lessons in life, and i'll move on and be a better person. lastly, we should tell everyone we love that we love them every single day. we never know when our time is up in this world.

to everyone i know, don't text or call me using my old number anymore. it's obviously not going to help you. oh, and for questions on the upcoming trip here, just email me or something. thank you for your understanding. i hope you all have a good day.

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

brought back to life...

as the holy week ends, we pause to reflect on the lenten season and see if we have done what we have come to done, and accomplished the goals we set at the beginning of lent. hopefully you guys have accomplished your own goals.

today is easter sunday. it is interesting to reflect and realize that about 2000 years ago today, jesus christ resurrected from the dead and fulfilled his mission on earth. he saved us from sin, and restored us to life. call it the filipino tradition, but we filipinos were accustomed to various events before this very sunday to pray to God and join in his pain and suffering. we usually go to the holy week activities that are there every year for us to take part in this holy experience. but i've noticed that in the past few years, more and more people disregard the activities of holy week, and instead party until the night ends. even if they are catholics, they forget what God has done for us, dying on the cross and being put to all those miserable and painful experiences. i just hope that we continue to respect and honor this week and not act as wild people during this period.

anyway, i spent this tuesday and wednesday just hanging out in front of the computer chatting and surfing the net. i'd like to give my thank you(s) to samga and isaw for keeping me sane during those 2 hours of harry potter madness. hahaha. at least you guys kept me out of the neopets scene for a while. thank you once again for that enlightening conversation. i learnt a lot concerning hp hehe. thursday, we had our annual bisita iglesia, where we went to different churches. this time; however, we toured the laguna churches instead of the usual tour of manila. it was a great experience going around laguna to find churches we had never seen before. amazingly, they have a lot of beautiful architectural churches as well, built at the time of the spanish regime. i didn't realize that they had those churches until i saw them. anyway, we got to 7 churches while passing through calamba, los banos, pagsanjan, paete, and antipolo, among other places. we practically went around the entire laguna de bay going from the expressway to antipolo then back. it was again a magnificent experience, getting to travel and praying at the same time. we even got to stop over in caliraya, in the village where we have a lot in. we ate there for lunch. it was nice seeing caliraya again for the first time in over a year. i visited a whole bunch of places and that made me extremely happy. friday, my cousins were here and we just stayed at home during the day. we watched some movies like the passion of the christ and the greatest story ever told. we were to watch a lot more but then we ran out of time. it was good re-watching these flicks for they make you remember God's experiences in His life. yesterday, we went to tagaytay with my cousins and grandparents in the morning to have lunch in dencio's. it was great even if there was traffic, because the weather was cold and it was windy. it felt good to be experiencing the cool breeze as it hits you. it made us, especially our grandparents, savour the moment. then we bought some flowers and fruits along the way. we decided to go to town that day too, so we could do everything we needed to do that day and just attend mass today, easter sunday. we did just that, and we even got to watch miss congeniality 2. it was a nice movie. finally, we ate in tempura for dinner and then we went home.

easter sunday. i still remember before when we were still living in alabang, we used to go every year to the country club or to the place near tlc and participate in the easter egg hunt in those places early in the morning. we woke up at 5 and got to those easter egg hunts as soon as possible. it's fun remembering and reminiscing those moments in life where you were still a kid and you could do anything you wanted to enjoy yourself. hehe. it makes me miss being a kid, and doing those all over again. but again, as a teen, we get to do different kinds of things now. we could participate in many more activities that are worthwhile, so everything is not over. we just have to move on and do everything we can today so we wouldn't regret anything we didn't do now in the future.

these past days have indeed brought me back to life from my summer boredom. i have been to a lot of places and i have been able to pray and join in the ceremonies. i thank God for everything He has done for us, and of course, for not letting me be bored all the time at home, rotting as the days go by.

next week, starting tomorrow, we'll be back to summer-as-usual. only, this time, it would be better. i would get to move outside the house and go to town tomorrow, go to francis' house on tuesday, go badminton-ing on wednesday, and have a party from friday until saturday. activities at last. well anyway, that's it i guess, take care everyone. i hope you had a nice holy week.

reliving past moments..

summer's here! i've finally felt its effect on me the past few days. the endless schoolwork has stopped and the after-school farewell parties have begun to slow down. summer's supposed to be a time for relaxation and fun. it's a break from all those activities you have to do during the schoolyear that make you nearly mad and stressed. it gives you the chance to catch up on your needed sleeping time and to do the easier things in life - play, read, watch tv, just stay at home and sleep, and the like. the things you couldn't quite do before because it was simply just too hectic could be done. lastly, its a time to relax and simply go out with your friends, go to the mall, or play outside because of the good weather.

well, unfortunately my summer has been dull so far. i haven't been out anywhere aside from the usual farewell party and weekend family outings to the supermarket. but of course, it's just the start of the summer. there'll be plenty more weeks to go before it ends. i have to schedule my summer well though, as i might not realize the days pass and i might not plan enough outings. haha. also, i haven't signed up for any summer program yet. there's always the thought of joining badminton or basketball or a new clinic, but the problem is actually finding one and joining up for it. i'm too lazy to do that. hahaha. i miss my tennis, badminton, and swimming clinics before. for the first time, i didn't have a summer program last year. i rotted at home for 2 months. i hope that doesn't happen again this year. i guess we'll see how it turns out.

if you want to know what i've been doing all this time at home, its reading harry potter and watching my old pokemon movies and stuff plus watching all harry potter movies. hahaha. pretty boring, eh? i'm trying to remember all the past memories i had at home, and all my past favorites. i was addicted to pokemon when i was young-er, but of course, i got over it. i wanted something to do so i could relieve some of my boredom, so i decided to get all the movies and episodes i had bought before and watched them. lol. also, i am currently still in the process of reading harry potter 5. it's my favorite out of all the hp books, plus i'm getting ready for the next installment, when it comes out in june? yeah. i've already got my reservation, so i'm really excited! haha. anyway, reliving past moments is nice in a way, since it brings me back to memories of my childhood as well as my old home. it's fun and enriching at the same time.

holy week has started. we're at holy tuesday now. anyway, we attended the palm sunday mass last sunday, and we bought the palms as usual. but they didn't get blessed ='(. we were on top of the church and the priest didn't go up to our place so it never got blessed with holy water. sad. well anyway, it's been more than 30 days since lent has began, and a few days are left. sadly, i haven't been able to complete my lenten sacrifice. i kept on forgetting that it was a friday and meat wasn't allowed. T_T. i failed this lent, and i'm terribly sorry. sorry lord, i'll make up for it. well anyway, there are 3 more days until good friday, and 2 more days until holy thursday where we'll do visita iglesia again. i actually have fun going around manila to different churches. hehe. it's going to be nice out of the house again.

i expect to be back to the usual gimmicks next week. i hope i could go to rodney's house next week or to town to watch a movie. lol. i haven't done that in a while. oh yeah, and april 1-2's still there. i really hope people come, even if they're not allowed to stay overnight. a day would do. hehe. for more details, just visit the soph-c site or text me. anyway, take care everyone, have a happy summer! hope it's not as boring as mine! haha.

it's all good in the end..

before the farewell party that was held at 5 pm, i first went to school in the morning to meet up with rodney and go with him to his house along with alfred. we spent the day there waiting for the people to finish the alg exam and taking pictures after. we watched some lsyc people shoot hoops while we were waiting for rod's car. then we went to his home, watched him play neopets and chat, i read hp5 for a while while getting harrassed by pillows, then finally, we watched constantine while texting people. after all this, we ate yellow cab for merienda and then changed for the party. it was weird changing to sleeping attire before going to a party. haha. we stopped by tropical hut first to buy ice cream and m&ms for the party that night. finally, we arrived at michael's house at around 5:45 pm.

as we arrived, we found out that we were one of the first people to arrive. we took some pictures while waiting, and finally people started arriving. groups and groups of people came, while we just strolled around and waited to be complete. we started the party at around 7:30, when bea came. lol. 35 of us were there, almost the whole class actually, so it was nice. awarding ceremonies started it off, and i got the "nakakagigil award" and the "controversial seatmates award". lol, it was fun to hear out everyone's awards as they were all funny. anyway, we ate dinner outside and armwrestled for a while. the whole night was filled with picture sessions. after eating, the main part of the party came, it was the um, i don't know what it was called. it was when we would honor people for everything they have done the past year and of course, many people cried. we passed this piece of string to everyone that was mentioned, connecting each to one another. everyone got emotional, and i myself was holding back tears when miss said that she was going to be in the same classroom next year but with different faces in it. when it was done, we hugged each other and said our farewells. when miss rogador went away, the fun started. some danced, some drank till they did stuff(haha), while we played patintero outside, and played cards inside. there was also singing as we sang in the magic sing for a while before i had to go. i went home relatively earlier than my other classmates, and i wished i could have stayed longer, long enough to see the effects of people getting drunk. haha.







as i reflect on the party, i realize that in the end, everything would be good. there would still be laughs, and everything isn't over. it's not the end of our lives. we are going to miss everyone in the class, but we'll still get to see them. things that have bothered our lives from the beginning could be changed. i realized that after everything we had this year, we are happy and things turned out well, there was a good ending. the farewell party was a perfect end to our schoolyear, as we got to say goodbye to everyone, and let them know what we felt.

going to sarah's house after leaving practice was fun. we played cranium, the worst situation thingy game, and watched duplex. i even got to play badminton with sarah outside her house after, hehe. thanks for everything sarah, especially all the food lol. chocolates, cake, corned beef and spam! hahaha.

we weren't able to play in graduation after all. we were supposed to have practices last wednesday, thursday and friday to prepare for the graduation held today. i didn't attend the first practice since i was in rodney's house preparing for the farewell party. well anyway, few people came thursday and friday. ms. valencia cancelled us playing in the graduation because she didn't want us to get embarrased, she didn't want to risk the name of the orchestra, few people attended the practices, and she didn't think we had enough practice to play. oh well, it sucks that i didn't get to see them graduate, but at least i got a good night's sleep last night.

food poisoning has been rampant over the past week hasn't it? hmm, i'm astonished that even our own school had been victim to bad food. what could this mean? i don't know. whee. just be careful of everything you eat ok? it's best to be very cautious.

belated happy birthday to dainie!

to all s-c: april 1-2 here! hehe. punta kayo para masaya =)

happy graduation nga pala to the grade 7 students and the seniors. to the ones who'll be hs next year, see you. and to those who'll go to college, i hope you have a great time, and take care. we'll miss you guys in zobel.

life is truly unpredictable

don't you agree? we people try to understand life on earth and predict everything that might happen but you can never fully make a correct conclusion. in chemistry we learn all sorts of predictions, we learn how to make substances and predict their weights and their probable effect. the scientists try to perfect the processes, but in real life, that could never be done. anything could happen.

take my experience last night. i was chatting, hoping to get a good night's sleep for a day in the house today when suddenly, i get a message from bea saying that they're going to play badminton in school. i thought that i would be spending the day just chatting, blog-hopping, reading hp5, and watching tv, but sure enough, fate intervened. instead, i spent the rest of the night making arrangements for the badminton thing in school.

when i arrived in school this morning, i called up my classmates and asked them where they were. i got no answer from most of them so i thought that they didn't push through or that they were late. i didn't want to be alone in school during exam week so i first went to my mom's office to drop her off then returned to zobel, arriving an hour later. to my surprise, i saw a lot of my classmates there wearing civilian. it turns out some of them were doing our clearances, while the others were just there to um..not be at home and die of boredom? lol. anyway, we never did get to play badminton in school since everyone was busy, and due to the circumstances of there being an ilc (international leaders conference?) meeting, some of my friends weren't there. it was as if my whole day was wasted because of me going to school. well, not entirely, because..ehem..nevermind. haha. but then as usual, there was a backup plan. after the ilc meeting, francis' parents agreed to let us go to his house. again, my day was totally thrown off course to an entirely new direction. we watched constantine and played basketball in francis' house. i was beaten in 1 on 1 by francis, woohoo, good for you. haha. at least i finally got to play and practice again, yay. we had the adobo and the tuna sandwiches, yummy. lol. the only setback from the day was me getting a blister on my finger from the basketball. haha, but it's ok, at least it'll eventually heal. i came home today satisfied.

this summer will truly be unpredictable. there are so many events that i need to schedule, and so many more to come. i hope to enjoy my summer this year so c'mon! plan, plan, plan! hahaha. i also hope that i'll be able to schedule everything in an orderly manner so no overlapping would occur. i don't want to miss anything as much as possible. hehe. oh yeah, tentative schedule for the party in my house is april 1-3. hehe. btw, what would be a good summer class to take up?

to all sc, see you tomorrow at michael's place! hehe. i still don't know what to wear. help please.

oh, lastly, happy birthday leanne! =)

i still can't get over you...

since yesterday, i've seen a lot of people blog about their year, and how they've had so much fun during the school year. the three blogs that caught my biggest attention were elaine's, chio's, and kristine's. after reading all of them, i said to myself, what have we done for God to bless us with such a beautiful class? there have been so many memories to cherish, treasure, and relish this year. i wouldn't have ever predicted that this year would have been what it had been. allow me to take you back to the things i am thankful for this year.

when i first came to sophomore-c, i thought that it would be a normal year, just like the previous years, with new classmates, and losing a lot of old classmates. i arrived seeing that the classroom was flooded, and that the aircon wasn't working. gee, i thought, is this a sign of things to come? then i realized that many of my former classmates were coming back to the honor section since a lot of people that were supposed to be in our class decided to switch sections. as we got to know each other, i realized that this class wasn't the same class that had been there the previous years. we were filled with many new people, each having their own personalities. the year pretty much continued that way, with each of us trying to get along with everybody and get to know them better. the year continued with us having a lot of ups and downs. i considered it a big blessing that we were winning so many awards, and i was amazed that God loved us so much. whenever we were given a contest, we responded to the call and gave it our all. the many different personalities in class came together and had teamwork. we offered everything we did to God. with the help of our adviser, we became very active in prayers, often singing praise songs and many of us participating in religion-related groups such as lsyc and yfc (i consider not joining in at least one of these as a wasted blessing). we used these as an inspiration to go forward, and these helped us win the contest we were joining. success was there for us at all times, because of our drive and passion. we never gave it up, even if it seemed as if we couldn't do anything anymore. i loved this characteristic of our class so much. when the last subject of the school year ended, i was almost in tears as i said goodbye to people, hugging them and waving, and i took a mental photograph of the class as one, visible group, just having a happy time. i wouldn't forget this picture until the day i die. then, i came to wonder what is in store for the class next year, with us parting ways. i just hope it would be at least half as good as this year.

i had so many memories this year. some were bad, but most were good. we had so many laughs, and some of the cries, but all of these formed us together as one. even if there were so many hardships along the way, homeworks and projects and friendship problems, i believe that i was fortunate to be part of this class, and experience all the things that i had experienced during the year. we were able to get through all the obstacles given to us and tackle them with might. yesterday night, i dreamt of being there once more, to the practices, the meetings for projects, the gimmicks, the parties, and everything else. i remembered and recounted on all the things we did this year. i reminisced on the times we had together and how our class seemed to be almost perfect. after all of these, i smiled and thought, "what have i done to deserve such happiness?"

to all my sophomore c classmates, thanks so much for all the memories you have shared with me. thank you for being there for me every step of the way. even though you always tease me and stuff, hehe, i had a lot of fun during the year, and i wouldn't give it away for anything. i wouldn't make this specific anymore, because you know who you special people are anyway. through the tough times and the happy times, these people made my life great and complete this year: monique, mariel, bea japan, mark b, hannah, chio, isaw, kat, johann, kristine, dom, sam, jebi, martin, michael, alan, elaine, jackie, dainie, gliza, steph, angeline, mel, rodney, jenny, karen, manda, sam, steph, stephen, cara, francis, sarah, mark s, beaaa, steven, ramona, alfred, binky, ms. rogador. thank you. i will always treasure you guys in my hearts.

to all those that would go away next year, i would miss you all. i loved every moment that we were together this year. hope we could continue to go out and have fun even if we are not classmates anymore. oh, balik kayo ng 4th year ha. promise niyo yan, hehe.

I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life baby baby
I want something else
I’m not listening when you say
Good-bye

*btw, happy birthday eibee.

there are some things money can't buy..

the ever so repetitive line in mastercard's commercial is true. there's just some things in this world that money cannot buy. regular classes in school just ended today, and i realize that our class will never be the same. the faces that were in our class today are not going to be the same faces i would see in next year's class. it won't be the same at all. i'm so sad that people have to go to other sections, as we would miss them SO much. this has been the best year ever, and the people in our section completed each other. it was the dream section. sigh. i felt so weird and sad the moment i realized that when we left the room, that was the last time we would ever see each other in the same classroom at the same time ever again for at least 1 more year. i will terribly miss all of you, hope you all come back when senior year comes. keep in touch over the summer and next school year ha! =) dance chio and kristine! dance! =))

anyway, as i said before, regular classes are over. the seemingly never-ending projects are over, with just algebra as an exception, to be submitted on monday. but nevertheless, it's done. exemptions have been given, and i'm glad that i'm exempted in all subjects. i consider exemption as a blessing from God so i have no plan of taking any exam, however high or low my class standing is. speaking of class standings, i pretty much got what i wanted this year. even though english, chem, and fil went down from last term, i could only feel joy now as i enter the weekend. i feel so free of all the burden i had on my back this past year in terms of school work. thank god for helping me get through that hardest week of school. i feel so relieved.

overall, i feel that this year has been filled with ups and downs, and it was bitter-sweet in a way. sophomore year was a great year for me, as it was the best year for us in terms of competitions. we won so many awards. we did everything we could using our best. we gave everything our all. but most of all, we had so many fun experiences. through all the problems, soph c had a great and strong relationship, that could never be broken by anyone.

summer's coming fast. i could feel it in the heat burning our bodies at noon time. times are changing once again. next year, we'll be juniors. it'll all be different. my classmates, my teachers, my lessons. it will definitely be another adventure in my life. but i promise you this, i won't forget anything i experienced this year. the memories would always be in my heart. thanks once again soph-c, you have been the best classmates i've ever had, and the good friends i would treasure forever. for this, the message is true, there are just some things that money could NEVER buy. =)

oh btw, good luck to martin and stephen. have a safe and happy trip to the states. we'll miss you on wednesday. take care. oh, i'll see soph-c on wednesday. see yah. =)

struggling to finish..

aaah. 2 more days. 2 more projects. life couldn't be more hectic.

for the first time this school year, i feel like going crazy because of school work. we have submitted our chem portfolio, cl project, and english project. we still have to submit our t.h.e. project and algebra powerpoint presentation project though over the last 2 days of regular classes. i hope we could finish all on time. God help us.

anyway, this week, i have felt numb. numb from all the work given to us. in a way, it is good. i'm happy knowing that there would be no more projects next week, and there would no longer be sleeping problems. 2 nights ago, i slept at 2 am. that was the latest time i have slept ever on a school night. i ended up waking up at 5:30 am that morning, and wound up groggy all throughout the rest of the day. i went to sleep at 11:30 yesterday finishing the cl project, again another late sleeping day for me. oh, and the cl project didn't look that good, waah. sorry groupmates, i did a bad job. anyway, today, we did the algebra graphs in chio's house. after lots and lots of time of trying to fix all the bugs and changing errors, we finished the graphs part on time. tomorrow, the last meeting in chio's house for the schoolyear would be held so we could finish the last project. hehe.

the humorous public speaking was held yesterday. it was fun hearing the people make jokes and stuff. haha. lots of intermissions were done. oh, and that script thing never really did work out. haha. we should've known. uli oposa won 1st, aaron pagaduan 2nd, and ashley de leon 3rd. congratulations to you guys. oh, special mention goes out to dom. congrats man, thanks for representing our class! go go go! haha. you're one brave soul. thanks.

rodney batch # 4 was made today. we didn't get to see it in the making though as we were doing the algebra proj in chio's house while rodney did it on his own. batches 1, 2, and 3 all had their flaws. i wonder if this one's perfect? haha. i hope miss chetty likes our recipe. please God.

anyway, 2 exemption slips were given today. (oh wait, yesterday na pala, its already 12 am.) hehe. i'm happy with my trig and algebra grades. thank you God for answering my prayers. i hope the other subjects are okay, and i'm wishing for the best in filipino. i hope i'm exempted in everything, since i don't think i can take another LONG test next week. im too deep into summer mode.

in other news, rob and amber got 1st in the 2nd episode! woohoo! oh, and kimi finished 8th in the race. waah. hope he could do better next time. go mclaren! haha. anyway, that's it, take care everyone, enjoy the last days in school. =) i'll miss you all this summer! especially my classmates from sophomore c. this has been the best year yet!

too many homeworks, too little time.

gahd. i can't post a long blog today, sorry. i don't think i can till the end of the week because of too many projects dumped on us. imagine finishing 6 projects in a span of 4 days. hehe. anyway, right now, im trying to do 3 at the same time. woohoo. go go go. anyway, 4 days of school remaining, hope you guys make the most of it. take care everyone =)

oh, i'll post our class picture here. hehe. aren't we cute? =))


haha. have a nice day.

a flash of light, a burst of speed...

this sucks. it's already the last week of school and it's becoming the worst weekend of my sophomore year life. not only do we have to do 5 projects in a span of 4 days, but we also have a long test and a lot of quizzes to go. grr, i hate this. it's too hectic to handle. i thought we were going to have a nice end of the school year by relaxing. i, in fact, was already in summer mode, when all the hysteria started. but with a sudden flash, everything changed. it's scary to think of it actually, how the teachers could suddenly change like that. whoo.

oh. lcle. learner structured learning program. it's something the school adopted, and apparently, other la salle schools are also using the program now at full-blast. teachers are being trained on how to make powerpoint presentations, and how to make these worksheets. they claim that the purpose of this program is to make our schooling more practical and bring the lessons to the real world problems, so that we could learn MORE. well i say it's never going to work. first of all, using the lcle worksheets every week would be SOO expensive, and it would practically consume all the trees. it would be hard work for the teachers and the students alike, and it would eat up the time for normal lectures. the purpose of having teachers would be negated, as they would just be handing out worksheets to students, instead of teaching lessons using the old method - the blackboard. then, lets not forget the issue of time. we only have 1 hour per subject, and using these worksheets often take the whole period. now what would we learn from worksheets? are we supposed to use our stock knowledge only? that's what's happening so far. we aren't learning much from this method. well, those are my OPINIONS on this new program that they're thinking of implementing. i think they should think twice before they start making this the curriculum. plus, i don't think i'll pass next year if they use this LCLE thing. T_T. good luck to all.

anyway, formula one season got underway this morning. yay! something to watch again every two weeks. i'm a car lover, so i love f1 a lot. haha. sorry. i'm certainly interested whenever someone talks of racing. i love the games, i love watching them, and everything. their speed is what amazes me a lot. imagine someone going at 4 G's while in a car, trying to turn a corner so tight, at 300kph. whoo. its exciting just watching, imagine how it feels to be in an actual f1 car. haha. when i watch them, it's like they pass the screen so quickly. hence, the title of my blog. haha. they flash right in front of your eyes. f1 is just great. =)

one more thing, love's like a flash of light as well. one moment you think you're happy, then *bam*, it turns around on you. it's always there. change. but we've got to learn to move on. being depressed is not good. it makes you weak everywhere, and once your inspiration becomes negative, then everything else follows. one thing i always remember from her is to think positive. that's what i admire her the most for. she's happy all the time, and deals with problems so well. i hope i could be like that as well. being pessimistic is my "thing", sometimes i even consider it to be my greatest positive. but sometimes, you really have to get over it and just be happy. be happy for you are still alive, and be happy for your friends and family. move on, and run the race of life once again. you never know, things might change for the better again. hehe.

at least, i hope things get better for the homeworks. they're just so many, hope i could finish them. *hoping* haha. good luck with the final week everyone.

race against time

time. so important. the quote is right, time is gold.

well, we could relate to this now that everything seems to be time-pressured in our school activities. since it's basically the last 1 1/2 week of school, teachers have given out their wrath to all of us. projects galore. we have our t.h.e. project, english project, chem portfolio, and algebra project. and guess what, they're all scheduled to be submitted next week! whoo. this means major cramming during the weekend and the rest of the week next week. sigh, and i thought i could relax already. i guess you can never really be in summer mode even if there's just a week of school left. haha.

time is gold. in our english presentation, we were told that we have to pass our script tomorrow so that the judges for the humourous speaking contest could see who has the best script. it couldn't have come at a better time, now that we have to do an ultra long filipino homework to be submitted tomorrow, and a lot of homeworks dashed out to us for us to gag and panic. whee. how are we supposed to make a script (a funny one) in time for tomorrow. i really admire those who are making the script right now. thanks gliza, thanks a lot. and to the people who are helping, if there are any, thanks. we owe a lot to you.

all the subjects are cramming and trying to get all the final lessons and activities included. even if it's lcle week, tests are still being given out everyday, much to our delight (T_T). oh, and lcle isn't that much fun either, it's making me explode. haha. i really hate that kind of curriculum. i hope they don't use it next year. anyway, tests are still being scheduled until now, even if next week is supposed to be review week. there's even a cl long test scheduled T_T. weird, i don't recall her giving any FORMAL lesson to us, and yet, she decides to give us a long test. whoo, go her! oh, some subjects are just helpless. especially the special subjects. haha, i feel bad for them. we don't have art tomorrow because of the mass, oh, and we might not have pe either NOOOO. oh well. the only thing i'm glad of is that we didn't have t.h.e. this week and we wont have a practical test. thank god. anyway, i just hope we can get through all these activities without a scratch. sleep well everyone, and try to get at least 6 hours of sleep for your own sakes.

i watched the first episode of the new series of the amazing race yesterday. it took 2 hours, and i got to sleep at 12 T_T. lack of sleep. haha. anyway, it was fun, it brought me back memories of survivor, when i was still watching the series, because rob and amber were there. haha. go them! of course, i got the title of the post from here. racing against time, trying to be first in everything. you never want to be behind or late for anything. it's one of my mottos in life. haha. anyway, that's it, i'm too tired. i want to sleep. whee. gnyt everyone.

nagdurusang kaluluwa

hey everyone. as you can see from the title, im a wreck right now. agh. anyway.

here's the pic of yaps and johann from last monday's concert. lol, fun.



whoo. anyway, today was filled with lots of activities. we had a quiz in ap, in fil, and another double period chem session. whee. luckily, they gave us free time during music. yehey. we were able to review our fil and ap notes and were able to share some stories during music time. i even left my flute there for the first time..EVER. lol. im weird. haay. anyway, after computer, we had a weird algebra session. lcle of course, so we had to answer another worksheet and then go to the comlab to go and answer a website quiz. T_T. as i said, we had an ap quiz which was a bit difficult. but it was ok in the end. oh, and someone's phone received a message in this period. lol, fun. in english time, i, along with bea japan, got picked on the HOT SEAT. T_T. embarassing for me of course, as they asked so many questions about my "private" life. haha. oh well, it was all fun anyway, no harm done i guess. lunch time was spent reviewing for fil and going to the chapel to pray. then we had a fil quiz and our long test results were released. i got 41/50. i guess thats ok, its an average in class anyway, haha. finally, we had double period chem. we just discussed about limiting reactants and percent yield and the like, along with some adlib stories along the way. hehe. basically that was school, nothing too special.

sigh. this is sad. why is it that i'm always like this? i just hate myself so much for everything i do in my life. it's so wrong. gah. when will i start to have some confidence in my life? when will i face life's realities? why can't i do it now? T_T. i've sworn to myself that i'd change this year, but no, it hasn't happened. i'm just too weak. i hate this. i pray to god everyday that hopefully, i can have a better relationship with this person, and that i'd have the strength to be normal. but no, it just hasn't reflected in my actions. my brain always stops me. i just wish my brain would act like it does in academics when i'm in the real world. what am i supposed to do now? it's been so long, and i'm still the same guy. there's a voice inside my head which wants to kill me for i have done nothing. now im too ashamed to even do anything anymore. i fear that she hates me. everything seems so vaugue (spl sorry). i feel like a lower form of being when around her. it's these times when i usually try to sleep it off and forget it. but i can't now. so much for my new year's resolution. how pathetic. im a sad, sad, pathetic man. hopeless.

encore

a lot of things went by these past few days. it's been a blur. all of a sudden, all the concerts are through, we're on our last holiday, and then tomorrow, we're back once again to the reality of school life. oh well. but at least there's only 2 weeks left of regular classes. although, again, i'll miss every single one of my classmates in the summer. i hope we could go out and stuff, and of course, have a good farewell party. hehe.

last sunday, we went to mass at 10:00, and it was once again the "filipino spoken" mass. i can't fully understand what the priest and people are saying when it's a filipino mass. it's hard for me to understand the words because some of them are really complicated and deep. but at least i got the LONG gospel. hehe. anyway, after that, we went to tagaytay for lunch at rsm lutong bahay? the band that goes around to all the tables sang THE EXACT SAME SONGS that were sung in the concert last wednesday. they were huwag na huwag mong sasabihin and torn. lol. after eating, we bought a mmp from yellow cab then went home at around 3 pm. we were lucky there were no hard homeworks, and we only had to finish the t.h.e. first draft.

on to the day of the concert. we were in the classroom for homeroom time, before we had practice. and um, while we were busy compiling our t.h.e. drafts and submitting them to ms. sison, the morning ceremony suddenly started before we even got out of the classroom. there was apparently no 2nd bell, so we were in shambles in our classroom. ms. rogador gave us the silent treatment after that, but hopefully, she doesn't take this until the end of the school year since it would be a real waste of a good year if we end in bad terms.

anyway, we then had our practice until 4:30 pm. we basically had a walk-through and a run-through (lol) of the routine. i got to try out the saronay and i learned some of the ethnic group's part in their routine. hehe, it was nice. the dabakan (spl?) beat got stuck in my head, and we played it during practice using tables (our own version) lol. basically, the day was like that, more of free time and stuff. we were then allowed to change attire and eat. (i was really hungry during this time) i desperately sought for food around the music hallway and i got 1 breadstick and 1 prawn chip. lol. i went to the canteen praying for food, and luckily, i got knick knacks and another pack of breadsticks! whoo. there was nothing more to buy, so i had to settle for that. haha. then we met up with the ethnic group and got pictures there.





we practically took pictures and talked until the concert started at 6.

then, we were called up to our positions. the violins played the prayer and then the orchestra played lupang hinirang. the different groups played next. the ethnic ensemble played 3 songs, then the rondalla group played, then the faculty chorale sang, and then the hs/gs chorale sang. after that, the strings, starting with the string quartet, played, then the chamber orchestra played, and afterwards, the string orchestra played my immortal and seasons of love. it was then time for us to come back. the orchestra played harry potter, iris (sang by david webb and la arquero), pangarap ko ay ibigin ka (sang by anna oposa), when you believe (sang by the chorale), and finally musika (sang by the chorale and with the rondalla). we ended with the alma matter song. after the strings left, sir tom approached us and then said we had to play free ride. lol. it was like an encore. it was fun, and we even stood up at the last part. haha.

i ate at max's soon thereafter, then we went home. (i gained a pound! i'm not eating much today, that's for sure). haha.

to the seniors, thanks for all the memories. we will miss you in the band next year. we'll never be the same again. haha. see you around!

argh, we have homework in filipino. that'd take me the entire day to finish. gahd. oh, and there's a quiz tomorrow. nooo. T_T

oh btw, happy birthday dom! haha.